Zendo V Pre-birth
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Experience description:

I remember that I choose to relive my life. My first memory (I actually think I wasn't in body before this) is of the time I got back home from the hospital after birth and I was in a cradle being overlooked by my parents, grandmother and our neighbors. I can still see them from 1st person perspective. They were taunting me using different names than my actual name. At that time I knew what my name is supposed to be and yet I was unable to express 'No, that's not my name', so I cried instead. As soon my real name was mentioned (which I think was already decided at that point), I 'agreed' by stopping my cries. I remember the people watching me laugh saying 'Oh, he knows his name Heheh'.

I remember spending time in the cradle, getting bored (and a bit horny) while I was left alone. And during the beginning of my days back home, I knew/ remembered that I had lived this same life before and I actually chose to get back and re-live it again, possibly to change something (?). Also I remember slowly loosing my memories of my previous (/same?) life, even though I tried to hold them. I also think that getting bored was the reason I forgot, that's why I cried sometimes when left alone. Sort of the more I concentrated on my 'inherited memories', the more I actually pushed them away. These memories are quite strong- I have different memories throughout different points of my life, when I recalled those days when I was less than a month old.

**I have another experience that ties into me choosing the get back into my already lived life, but I cannot place it at any point of the timeline of my experiences. I was the cosmos and I felt like I was at 'home' and I didn't have a body, I saw nebulae around me, that were pretty much the 'size of my experience'. There were many things like me and they were wondering what I am going to do next. I hesitated for a bit before deciding to come come back to my previous life. I felt like going back to work. Rewarding, but tiring. Again, this part (the last paragraph) sounds too weird to me and could have easily been an artificial experience/ memory or a dream I had at some point.**

 Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?      No     

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words?          No     

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? No     

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?    I know I felt as conscious as I am typing this text. I just wasn't as capable to do many things. I used logic in me head, I would even say language, but I just didn't know how to talk to other people.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?  No.

 Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?   Uncertain     I described similar experience (which I am not sure if a true experience or an idea that got stuck in my mind) in 4. between ** **.

 What emotions did you feel during the experience?          (talking about my experienced mentioned in 4. between ** **) I felt like 'how I am supposed to feel', proper, felt at home also.

 Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?         Not really.

 LOCATION DESCRIPTION:  Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?         No     

Did you see a light?        No     

Did you meet or see any other beings?         Yes    There were many things like me (talking about my experienced mentioned in 4. between ** **). We all knew each other and we were on the bounds of the place in which the experience happened. They welcomed me back. I remember not hesitating long before I choose to leave them.

 Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state?         No     

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No     

Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different? Yes    I didn't really have any. I am not sure if its appropriate to say I 'saw the experience'. Do you see your dreams or do you simply experience them? Hearing other being talk, was more like experience also. It just happened.

 Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  Yes          The only sense I had was a sense of time, as in events took place on after another and so did my thoughts. Space wasn't a single point or anything, so I guess space existed also.

 Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?         Yes    I sort of trivially knew everything about life as in how we experience it now. Past, present, future irrelevant. But this knowledge didn't seem even useful to recall. Like you don't need to think about breathing to be successful at not suffocating.

 Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?           No     

Did you become aware of future events?      No     

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?          Yes    As mentioned in previous answers- it was completely my decision to return to my body when I was a baby, nobody helped me to do this either.

 Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?      No     

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?     No     

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?   Honestly, not much if at all. I am a very introspective yet logical person and having these memories seem out of place. I think if I consider them to be true (which I do), they should be completely ground braking. I mean I choose this life again. But I just cannot comprehend how I could actually incorporate any of this to be meaningful to my daily life. I guess that's why I am filling out this form though. Maybe trying to see if anybody experienced anything similar.

 Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? No     

Have you shared this experience with others?       Yes    I don't know. Saying thing like that is like describing your dreams to someone. For other people who experienced/ remember nothing like this- its all just a fun story and meaningless otherwise.

 Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?       No     

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?           Yes   

Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.       Maybe branch out the questionnaire depending on the core experience you want to tell. For my the most concrete thing were the memories I actually have, and the out of body experience is questionable. Yet many of the questions concentrated on that.