I was born and raised by a very religious family in Israel. When I was about 12 years old I felt that religion wasn't my way and I started to get angry with God.  Around this time in my life everything was crazy, abnormal things started to happen to me and I felt haunted by ghosts and spirits. All my experiences were scary I thought I felt something touching me (not in a sexual way) when nobody was around and I heard strange noises around me.  Everyday I heard somebody or something trying to open the front door to my house when there was nobody around. I always felt that somebody was standing next to me and looking at me!  I was scared and miserable, I could not find any peace.

When I turned 14, I left religion for good.  Beside the fact that I was haunted something else started to happen that scared me even more.  When I was  asleep or at the point of falling asleep I would all of a sudden feel myself separating from my body.  I could see what was going on around the room but I couldn't move. I could think, but if I tried to move I could not.  Every time I was "frozen," I would hear or see something else different around me. Sometimes I could hear conversations that I had earlier that day, strange noises, strange conversations and situations that are out of this world and didn't make sense.  Sometimes I could feel something  touching my face. Once I saw two dark beings floating in my direction. I would even see an image of myself standing next to my bed.

I was scared and miserable and I was very, very depressed. So many bad things happened to me at that time in my life. There were many problems associated with my family and  nothing seemed to go right! There was no happiness in my life and I got more and more depressed.  I decided then that I wanted to die and I didn't want to be part of this human life anymore!

I was very connected to God at that time, and had a strong belief in God! (I was connected to God but very much against religion itself.)

When I was 15 I tried to commit suicide, I took a whole package of anti-depressant pills and went to sleep thinking to myself, "God can do with me what ever he wants."  I put my life in his hands and I am ready to die! A couple of hours later I was found and I was rushed to the emergency room of the nearest hospital.  My life was saved and that same day I was born again, I was happy full of life and strong. I felt free, I felt like myself for the first time in my life, everybody was amazed by my transformation.  From then on everybody said I was a different person.

I still find myself "frozen" every now and then. It feels like I am drowning and I try really hard to concentrate to move my body. My eyes are closed and I can still see the room around me. My soul is separate from my body but I am not floating anywhere.  I feel like if I relax my reality will cease to exist and I will remain "frozen" forever- The thought of it frightens me!

When I was 18 I woke up in the middle of the night to a very strange feeling. I woke up and in a matter of seconds, I felt like a vacuum was pulling me out of my body, and I felt myself rising up out of my body. I was very scared and I felt like I was losing control. My mind was completely awake and I was wondering, "what happened?" The next thing I knew I was floating around the house and I remember noticing a light on in the house that I usually leave on at night. ( As you can understand I was very, very afraid from the dark) I remember myself floating into the kitchen, looking down at the cabinet doors, I remember all the details of the house. In a way I was scared, I never did feel safe in my mom's house in Israel. 

I felt attracted to our living room window and I found myself there in an instant. I was standing there in front of the window and I knew that if I opened it everything would change. I was very curious and scared (from the unknown) at the same time and I felt that If I were to open it I would probably will never come back.  I knew that there was a doorway there, to a different place, a place where I could probably get any answer to any question I could ever ask.  I was so curious, I felt like I could see a picture in my mind of what was behind the window. I pictured a circular bright light, although I couldn't physically see it with my eyes. I felt like I didn't have much time to decide whether to open the window or not.  I remember watching my hand move toward the window and at that point my fear took over and I decided that I didn't want to go there. The next second I was pulled back into my body, and at that point I awoke.

Back then I didn't know anything about near death experiences.  I don't know why it happened to me and I don't know why I freeze up sometimes as I am a perfectly healthy young woman!  After I moved away from my mom's house in Israel and moved to America it happened to me less and less!  

Today I woke up "frozen" again and as usual I could not move.  While I was lying there I saw an mirror image of myself lying next to me.  This image of me was rubbing my head in a loving way and every time she ran her fingers through my hair I got chills and felt love. The image morphed into another young woman who looked like my sister. Eight years ago my sister and I ran away from home and she took care of me.  I remember one time we were in this exact same position and she was rubbing my head which made me feel safe.

Since then I haven't figured out what all of this means or why it is happening.  I have a strong feeling of destiny and I believe every little thing happens for a reason. I am on my way somewhere important and everyone has a path or destiny. I feel like I need to do something special to change people's lives.  Of course at this point I haven't yet figured out what that destiny will be.

Since I was a little girl, I believe I can have a sense of the future, things that are going to happen. I believe I can see the future through dreams. There was one dream I had in particular that occurred two weeks before I found out that I was pregnant. I saw myself in the park with my children and I remember each one of them in detail. It felt like I had traveled to a different time in my life. In the dream (which seemed like reality) I saw three children- two young boys and the oldest child was a girl. I could sense who she was, what she was feeling and the way I felt that day. Two weeks later I found out that I was pregnant with our first baby- A GIRL! 

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Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     No

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?           Little confused from the situation but noticing everything that is around me or happening

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   Maybe only because I woke up from a deep sleep

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

I felt myself leaving my body, pulling away from it

Did you see a light?           Uncertain, I felt there was a light behind the window

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?           No

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Uncertain

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Uncertain

I felt all the knowledge existed behind the window, which I didn't open.

Did you become aware of future events?       No

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?       Yes

It was all depends on my decision

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         Yes, My feelings about people seem clearer and dreams seem more vivid.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   No

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?       No change

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         No

Have you shared this experience with others?         No

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  I  have had other abnormal experiences so I didn't really pay attention to this one until today.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      The worst was fear of the unknown from the point of leaving my body. At the time I didn't feel that it was a good experience for me at all.  Although now I feel better about it-everything happens for a reason!

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes, I remember it to details