Experience description:
I
remember nothing before this, no past lives, nothing. For a while I thought this
was just a dream, but after hearing people describe NDEs (as a young adult,) in
a similar way I believe this is the moment my spirit was delivered into my human
body by God.
I am
above what was the yard on the right side of the home that my parents had just
moved in to, (I only know this because of piecing together a timeline later in
life.) I am at the height of the clouds and I watch a white rabbit hopping up
the hill. There is a presence behind me and to the right. The presence is warm
and wise, I trust it completely and feel Loved by it. Words are clearly spoken
to me inside me, they tell me to look to the sun. I look in front of me to the
sun and in it appears my mothers face. I know this is my mother. The presence
says, 'Go to her.' I wake up and climb over the railing of my crib and walk out
of my room which is at the top of the stairs (my parents confirm that I was just
over a year old if this was the case because once they realized I could climb
out of my crib they had to get me a different bed.) I stop at the top of the
stairs and see my brother at the dining table. I think, 'that is my brother, I
love my brother.' Then I see my parents in the kitchen and I think, 'there is my
mom and dad, I love my mom and dad.' I smell pancakes and I think, 'mmm I love
pancakes.' Then I vividly wonder what we did the day before and I squeeze my
eyes tight trying to remember and cannot. My mom notices me and I go down the
stairs to join them. My young life was definitely filled with trauma and I was
overcome by depression from a young age, but every time I considered suicide the
image of my yard flashes before me with small bright purple spots of light over
it, and I'm filled with the knowledge that if I give up on this life the
presence that was with me and sent me here would be disappointed. I did not grow
up with religion or knowledge of the Bible, but that presence and the memory it
blessed me with has always been powerful. One day when I was 29 a profound
moment happened and the image of that yard appeared in front of me, but this
time the spots were connected by a line and I was filled with the realization
that everything I have experienced was meant to be experienced in order for my
life to go in the direction it has. In that moment I understood the need for and
meaning of many concepts including forgiveness and grace.
Any associated medications or
substances with the potential to affect the experience?
No
Was the kind of experience
difficult to express in words?
No
At the time of this experience, was
there an associated life threatening event?
No
What was your level of
consciousness and alertness during the experience?
My earthly body may have been asleep. My
spirits body was filled with knocking and acceptance.
Was the experience dream like in any way?
When i told people of this
memory, for a long time I began by saying it was a dream.
Did you experience a separation of
your consciousness from your body?
Yes
What emotions did you feel during
the experience?
LOVE
Did you hear any unusual sounds or
noises?
If anything I
heard the Earth.
LOCATION DESCRIPTION:
Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar
religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or
amazing creatures?
No
Did you see a light?
No
Did you meet or see any other
beings?
No
Did you experiment while out of the
body or in another, altered state?
No
Did you observe or hear anything
regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?
Yes It was a normal everyday
experience after waking up and my parents confirmed that for a short period of
time I could climb out of my crib.
Did you notice how your 5 senses
were working, and if so, how were they different?
No
Did you have any sense of altered space or time?
No
Did you have a sense of knowing,
special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
Yes
I had a sense of knowing while my spirit
was still with God. After I have always had a sense of purpose.
Did you reach a boundary or
limiting physical structure?
No
Did you become aware of future
events?
No
Were you involved in or aware of a
decision regarding your return to the body?
Yes I was told to go join my Earthly
existence and I happily did so.
Did you have any psychic,
paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have
prior to the experience?
Yes I
have always been very aware of what is truth and what is a lie.
Did you have any changes of
attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
No
How has the experience affected
your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?
Many major life decisions have
been influenced by this memory and I become more affirmed in my life path as I
age.
Has your life changed specifically
as a result of your experience?
Yes
Have you shared this experience
with others?
Yes Many find it interesting,
especially since few have memories at such a young age... very few have been
able to relate to it personally.
What emotions did you experience
following your experience?
Acceptance and
Love.
What was the best and worst part of
your experience?
Neutral.
Is there anything else you would
like to add concerning the experience?
I have had
waking dreams of sorts that I am to live through a great World tragedy and am to
play a meaningful role. I have been searching much of my life for what that role
is and have recently been searching for others that have retained similar
memories.
Following the experience, have you
had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced
any part of the experience?
No
Did the questions asked and
information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your
experience?
Yes