Experience description:

It was a normal night, I was sleeping. I had a nightmare of an earthquake. Walls were collapsing all around me, I was stuck under a large beam that was crushing me and suddenly, I felt myself flying high, very high in the sky. This sky was gray, and immense fir trees appeared under my feet. The higher I climbed, the more the sky changed color and the more immense the fir trees became. I felt myself being propelled in all directions by a hot wind, a wind so powerful at one point that I felt obliged to grab the top of a fir tree. But unlike the winds I knew on Earth, the wind here was silent. The fir tree began to vibrate and with a sudden burst, as if it had come to life, propelled me onto a sandy path.

I felt like I was walking in full plenitude, in a cathedral-like silence. The wind had stopped blowing; the sky had turned black and from time to time, huge red circles appeared there and then disappeared immediately. However, I felt that these circles were protecting me. I walked on this sandy path and my steps were so light that I simply had the impression of flying over it. This magnificent path was made up of transparent beige water beads, stuck together. I saw myself in a countryside since fields and trees surrounded me but yet, the black sky was devoid of stars. Not a sound of an animal in the distance, no stars in the sky, no light, not a breath of wind. Very close to my left, an immense row of cypresses; to my right, a beautiful plowed field; and in front of me, the interstellar void. As I walked, I insisted on the irrepressible desire to discover something in front of me, at the end of the path, but the more I thought about it, the more the angle of view widened to show only this endless sandy path and an empty sky. Then suddenly, I felt drawn to the cypresses that lined my path and then immediately an opening appeared, which revealed a landscape of rare beauty: a meadow of immense grass, of an almost fluorescent light green, dotted with very dense groves but without flowers. I was facing a magnificent navy blue lake studded with sparkling stars and above me, the sky had turned red. The surrounding silence was so deafening that I felt like I was in a space made of cotton. I sat down at an equal symmetry between a grove and the edge of the lake because I FELT that someone was going to join me there soon.

I had acquired a vision of more than 360°, to the point where I did not need to turn around to see what was happening behind me. I had the impression that my desires became reality as soon as I thought about them and barely did I think about this person who was going to join me that suddenly, I had the impression of 'seeing' behind me. Several times, I felt that I was being spied on from various places in this meadow but yet I was always alone.

And at the moment when the person I was waiting for was about to come out from behind a grove, I felt myself being sucked back, in a very hot air, then I woke up, with the unpleasant sensation of an unfinished experience since I did not know WHO was going to join me there.

This landscape marked me so much that I remember making a small painting of it some time later.

More than 30 years later I did the same out-of-body experience again, giving rise to the same striking points: the earthquake, the fir trees, the sandy path, the meadow, the navy blue lake and its stars, the red sky, and this still unknown person who was to join me.

When I woke up from this second experience in the same place and an even more unbearable feeling of incompleteness, I redid the same landscape in seed beads, twice.

I remain torn by two feelings from this experience: the certainty of having 'seen' my afterlife and the joy that it gave me; the fear of reliving this experience and finally meeting the person I was waiting for: among Satanists, 'seeing' a person still alive on earth announces his future death.

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C'était une nuit normale, je dormais. J'ai fais le cauchemar d'un tremblement de terre. Des murs s'écroulaient tout autour de moi, j'étais coincée sous une grosse poutre qui m'écrasait et soudainement, je me suis sentie m'envoler haut, très haut dans le ciel. Ce ciel était gris, et d'immenses sapins se dessinaient sous mes pieds. Au plus je montais haut, au plus le ciel changeait de couleur et au plus les sapins devenaient immenses. Je me sentais propulsée dans tous les sens par un vent chaud, un vent tellement puissant à un moment que je me sentis obligée d'agripper la cime d'un sapin. Mais à la différence des vents que je connaissait sur Terre, le vent ici était silencieux. Le sapin se mit à vibrer et d'un élan soudain, comme s'il était devenu vivant, me propulsa sur un chemin de sable.

Je me sentais marcher en pleine plénitude, dans un silence de cathédrale. Le vent avait cessé de souffler ; le ciel était devenu noir et de temps en temps, d'immenses cercles rouges y apparaissaient pour disparaître immédiatement. Pour autant, je sentais que ces cercles me protégeaient. Je marchais sur ce chemin de sable et mes pas étaient tellement légers que j'avais simplement l'impression de le survoler. Ce magnifique chemin était composé de perles d'eau transparentes de couleur beige, accolées les unes aux autres. Je me voyais dans une campagne puisque des champs et des arbres m'entouraient mais pourtant, le ciel noir était dénué d'étoiles. Pas un bruit d'animal au loin, aucune étoile dans le ciel, aucune lumière, plus un souffle de vent. Tout près de ma gauche, une immense rangée de cyprès; à ma droite, un beau champ labouré ; et devant moi, le vide intersidéral. Tout en marchant, j'avais beau insister sur l'irrépressible envie de découvrir quelque chose devant moi, au bout du chemin, mais au plus j'y pensais, au plus l'angle de vue s'agrandissait pour ne montrer que ce chemin de sable interminable et un ciel vide.

Puis soudain, je me sentis attirée sur les cyprès qui bordaient mon chemin puis aussitôt une ouverture s'effectua, qui laissa apparaitre un paysage d'une rare beauté : une prairie d'herbe immense, d'un vert clair presque fluorescent, parsemée de bosquets très fournis mais sans fleurs. Je faisais face à un magnifique lac d'un bleu marine constellé d'étoiles scintillantes et au-dessus de moi, le ciel était devenu rouge. Le silence environnant était tellement assourdissant que je me sentais comme dans un espace tout en coton. Je me suis assise à une symétrie égale entre un bosquet et le bord du lac parce que je SENTAIS que quelqu'un allait bientôt m'y rejoindre.

J'avais acquis une vision à plus de 360°, à un point tel que je n'avais pas besoin de me retourner pour voir ce qui se passait derrière moi. J'avais l'impression que mes envies devenaient réalité aussitôt que j'y pensais et à peine je pensais à cette personne qui devait me rejoindre que subitement, j'avais l'impression de 'voir' derrière moi. A plusieurs reprises, j'ai senti qu'on m'espionnait de divers endroits de cette prairie mais pourtant j'étais toujours seule.

Et au moment où la personne que j'attendais allait sortir de derrière un bosquet, je me suis sentie aspirée en arrière, dans un air très chaud, puis je me suis réveillée, avec la sensation désagréable d'une expérience inachevée puisque je ne savais pas QUI devait me rejoindre en ces lieux.

Ce paysage m'a tellement marqué que je me souviens d'en avoir fait une petite peinture quelques temps après.

Plus de 30 ans après j'ai refais la même décorporation, redonnant lieu aux mêmes points marquants : le tremblement de terre, les sapins, le chemin de sable, la prairie, le lac bleu marine et ses étoiles, le ciel rouge, et cette personne toujours inconnue qui devait me rejoindre.

Au réveil de cette seconde expérience dans le même lieu et un sentiment d'inachevé encore plus insupportable, j'ai refait le même paysage en perles de rocailles, par 2 fois.

At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?   No 

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  No    

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?      During the whole experience. Not once did I feel like I was dreaming. I felt like I was fully living it.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?      More consciousness and alertness than normal   More conscious, more enlightened, more attentive to details.

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   More developed view, capacity for a panorama of more than 360°.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   Deafening silence from the beginning to the end of the experience so impossible to know.

Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?   No  

What emotions did you feel during the experience?   Fullness and serenity, a lot of impatience when I waited in front of the lake for the person who was to join me.  

Did you pass into or through a tunnel?   No  

Did you see an unearthly light?   No  

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?   No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)?   No  

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?   No  

Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?   No  

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?   A clearly mystical or unearthly realm
The red sky and the stars twinkling in a navy blue lake were clearly supernatural.

Did time seem to speed up or slow down?   Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning. From the beginning to the end of the experience, I am unable to say whether a minute or a year passed. The notion of 'time' as we know it had disappeared, the only moment to live was the instant to live and I felt it persist.

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?   No

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?   No

Did you come to a border or point of no return?   No

Did scenes from the future come to you?  No

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (“life after death”)?   Yes   The impression of events to come. I knew with certainty that at this place, a person was to join me.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s difficulties, challenges, or hardships?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives?   No  

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?   No  

What occurred during your experience included:   Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience   I did my catechism and my solemn communion. When I was little I went to church but no one ever approached me with the idea of ​​any Paradise. When I was de-baptized and then re-baptized a Satanist, I learned that no Entity, present or in the Beyond, can grant resurrection, simply because the Soul is One and Immortal.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience?   I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience   RAS

Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience:   RAS

My experience directly resulted in:   Slight changes in my life

Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience?   Yes   Certainty of a life after death regardless of religious beliefs.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience?   Uncertain   Very strong intuition, some premonitory dreams (a plane crashing and a dam bursting).

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you?     The fact that a person who is not... me, comes to join me in my beyond.

Have you ever shared this experience with others?   Yes  I told my first experience to my mother, who did not take it into account. More than 30 years after having had my second experience, I told my husband who is a Protestant Christian and who expressed strong skepticism. Being very religious, he knows the Gospels like the back of his hand. Consequently, he believes in the Resurrection but does not believe in Paradise as I told him.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?   No  

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:   Experience was definitely real   The experience was real. I was ME when I was asleep and later, I was still ME on the sandy path, ME in front of the lake, ME waiting for someone. I was ME in a different dimensional plane but I felt ME, but lighter.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time:   Experience was definitely real  

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?   No  

Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?   No   As a Satanist, I learned a lot from my husband and from the writings of the Bible. He very often quotes me the following words: 'No bird lands on this Earth without God having decided it'. If there is a reality in the power of prayers, there is one in the survival of the soul.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?   No  

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience?   If what I have experienced twice is the afterlife that awaits me, I am no longer afraid of Death. According to the Bible, Death is the last thing that will be conquered.

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?   Yes   RAS

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