Vijay C's Experience
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Experience description:

It was about 2 pm (IST). I was being taught to ride a motorcycle, my coach  was on the pillion. I braked abruptly at a left turn while rolling at good speed - 35 - 40 Kmph - and was thrown off the bike, frontward. The clutch lever caught me in my neck. My head and eyes swam for a few minutes. My brother who had only a skin abrasion helped me to my feet and walked me home. I plumped to my bed with a bad headache. I slept for a couple of hours. When I woke up I had lost all sensation on my left half. I was admitted to a hospital some distance away.  

         Friends and relatives visited me at the hospital ward. My brother who was at the hospital was in conversation with the doctor in the passage way. I had been given an injection some time ago - an anticoagulant, I was told later. There was a black space with a wisp of bluish green, fluorescent something that I saw as me. It kept rising in the black space. Then there was a very bright light, alive, not quite like the sun. It was all kindness, love.  The bluish green flame came down along a circular arc. I felt my body shiver, called out in panic to my brother for help. I saw a vignette of my body fall - something like a ghost in cartoons - down from a great height in this space back into my body. I thought I was going to die. I heard my brother say something to me. I was back to normal abruptly. I tried to flex my left hand and could. I made a fist and opened my hand. I felt whole, not like earlier when I felt 'half'.

        The experience made a deep impact on me. I could see the difference chatting with friends and relatives - much more relaxed, genuine, warm and loving. But when I tried to convey my experience to people around me, they did not at all seem impressed. Now 33 years later, it is not much more that a distant memory.

 At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?   Yes  Hemiplegia. I had lost control of the left half of my body and therefore could not speak coherently, walk or use my left hand.

 Was the experience difficult to express in words?  Yes     My effort while trying to describe the experience was mainly to convey the intensity and other-worldly nature of the trip. That doesn't come through in words. While I was at it I could already see how many questions I would have to answer to make the description clear and accurate, how ofter I would have to find alternative words.

 At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    During much of the experience, there was minimal consciousness of the body. But just consciousness and alertness were at the highest level about the time I 'saw' the white, kind light.   :)

 How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?      Normal consciousness and alertness  

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   Everyday vision isn't the 'Truth'. It depends on the organs of vision, the eyes and the corresponding vision centres in the brain. The 'vision' during the experience is 'True', 'Real' in absolute terms.

 Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   The experience is unitary, does not come in parts like vision, hearing, touch etc.

 Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?   Yes   It was not with my eyes that I saw my brother talking to the docton in the corridor. But nothing apart from that.

 What emotions did you feel during the experience?   Kindness, love, panic at the thought that I was moments away from death.  

Did you pass into or through a tunnel?   Uncertain  

Did you see an unearthly light?   Yes   It was a big sphere of light, like a living, kind, bluish white star with a fuzzy surface.

 Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?   I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
This brilliant light IS a mystical etc. being ??   :-)

 Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)?   No  

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?   No  

Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?   No  

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?   No

 Did time seem to speed up or slow down?   No

 Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?   No

 Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?   Yes
The panic was caused by a perception of imminent death - the boundary between this world and the 'beyond' ?!  :)

 Did you come to a border or point of no return?   No

 Did scenes from the future come to you?  No 

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (�life after death�)?   Yes   If the 'self' (soul) can exist outside the body, i suppose it can exist without the body !

 During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life�s meaning or purpose?   No   difficulties, challenges, hardships do not happen with pure consciousness ?

 During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life�s difficulties, challenges, or hardships?   Yes   difficulties, challenges, hardships do not happen with pure consciousness ?

 During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love?   Yes   The bluish light is full of love and kindness.  :)

 During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives?   No  

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?   No  

What occurred during your experience included:   Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience  

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience?   I do not know how my remembrance of the experience compares to my remembrance of other life events at time   The memory of the experience is not half as good as the experience itself ! It left in me a longing for a repeat performance.

 Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience:   Things have changed but not because of the ~ experience !
My experience directly resulted in:   No changes in my life

Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience?   No  

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you?   It seemed when I saw the bright light that love is the one thing that really matters above all else ! I am surprised !  :)

 Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience?   No  

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you?     It seemed when I saw the bright light that love is the one thing that really matters above all else ! I am surprised !  :)

Have you ever shared this experience with others?   Yes  Hours after the experience, I was already raving about it to all and sundry ! My friends and relatives lent me a patient ear. But that is it ! It wasn't to them what it was to me !  :)

 Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?   No  

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:   Experience was probably real   The experience was absolute, meaning that it happens anyway. Whether it is 'real' as this world is 'real' I am unable to say ! The experience is probably only absolute but not real ??  :)

 What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time:   Experience was probably not real   The experience was absolute, meaning that it happens anyway. Whether it is 'real' as this world is 'real' I am unable to say ! The experience is probably only absolute but not real ??  :)

 Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?   Yes   I have more good friends now than earlier. I know love better now than earlier.

 Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?   No  

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?   No  

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience?   The experience is as much a mystery now as when it happened !

 Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?   Uncertain   Words used to describe the experience only seem to limit and dilute it. But I do not need to prove to anyone that I really had the experience. Please offer any suggestions that you may have to improve this questionnaire.  Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience?  

What could a national organization with an interest in near death experience (NDE) do that would be of interest to you?        Really get to the bottom of the NDE ! :) Find out more about the bluish green flame, the brilliant light,the spirit vignette !  Thank you very much ! :-)

 Please offer any suggestions that you may have to improve this questionnaire.  Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience?                    Your questionnaire is very good and tries to get all the relevant facts of the case.