Vera J's Experience
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Experience description: Any
associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the
experience: Yes
Explanation:
i was a kid so forgive me. beer, pot and acid and LOTS of it. Was the
experience difficult to express in words?
Yes
What was it about the
experience that makes it hard to communicate?
the emotions i felt At the
time of the experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
No What was
your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?
none Was the
experience dream like in any way?
yes Did you
experience a separation of consciousness from your body?
Yes Describe
your appearance or form apart from your body:
i was able to see my surrounding even though i was asleep What
emotions did you feel during the experience?
every emotion Did you
hear any unusual sounds or noises?
no Did you
pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?
Yes
Describe:
tunnel during by flash back experience Did you
see a light? Yes
Describe:
started out small, but got bigger as i images progressed Did you
meet or see any other beings?
Yes
Describe:
mom, dad and unknown little girl Did you
experience a review of past events in your life?
Yes
Describe:
sorry do not remember the images Did you
observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that
could be verified later?
No Did you
see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or
dimensions? Yes
Describe:
i saw the most of everything you could imagine Did you
have any sense of altered space or time?
No Did you
have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
Yes
Describe:
i realized some people have a gift to give you, the gift was some kind of
special knowledge only they knew Did you
reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
Yes
Describe:
the boundary was at birth, i thought i was going to die when i crossed it Did you
become aware of future events?
No Were you
involved in or aware of a decision to return to the body?
Uncertain
Describe:
i don't remember coming back, but if i would have given in to the "mosts" i
think i would have died Did you
have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you
did not have prior to the experience?
Uncertain
Describe:
i am not sure Did you
have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
No Has the
experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices etc.?
Career choices? no Have you
shared this experience with others?
Yes
Describe:
with my husband, but i don't think he understood What
emotions did you experience following your experience?
i felt not me Has your
life changed specifically as a result of your experience?
No Did the
questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively
describe your experience?
Yes
Please overlook what lead up to my experience, the drugs and alcohol, because it
was very real to me. it started while i was smoking pot with my friends. i had
already had about 8 or 9 beers and 2 hits of acid. i took a hit off the bowl
and my head felt like it was going to explode. it felt horrible and i thought i
was never going to recover. but when i did i did what any stupid teenager would
do and decided it felt cool, so i took another hit. this time my head felt like
it was going to explode again, but instead of getting better this time i passed
out.
i remember lying on the bed of the hotel room passed out, but some how i could
still see the people around me. as i looked from person to person i realized
some could see me and understand what was happening to me, while others had no
idea i was there. the people who could see me also gave my what at the time
they called a "gift". it was some sort of secret that only a few "special"
people in the whole world knew. and when they told me these secrets, i was so
thankful. thankful from the bottom of my heart like i had never been before.
and the secret was always sealed with a "kiss". the next thing i remember
happening is what i call flash backs.
it seemed like i was in a tunnel, for lack of better word, structure with a
small light at the end and a arm of light extending out from the light. every
time the arm of light made a complete circle around the tunnel i saw a new
image. it started was where i was currently in life and moved back to the
beginning. i saw/remembered thing i never new i forgot/existed. and each new
image was so meaningful to me, the each touched my heart. as the images
progressed the sped up and soon i realized i could not stop them. i knew when i
got the the "beginning" birth i was going to die, i got scared but i couldn't
stop it. when i reached the time of birth though i did not die, instead i went
to the next phase.
i was presented with the "most" of everything. the most beautiful thing i ever
saw, the most sad thing i ever saw, etc. i order to move on/not accept to die i
had to 100% believe the that was not what i wanted. and until all doubt was
gone i was stuck on one image. the only image i recall is the saddest thing i
ever saw. it was a baby with a tear. the lost innocence, i think. that
however is where my adventure ended, except for seeing one more thing. my
mother, father and a little girl standing in the door way of what looked like a
hospital room. my mother and father were still alive and the time and i am not
sure who the little girl was.