Vanessa's Experience
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Experience description:
This was
my very first time: I knew I was half awake then, but I was still asleep. It was
like I was too lazy to open my eyes, too lazy to even move a finger. Then I felt
a vibrating sensation all over my body, accompanied by a very soft humming sound
(soft probably because I wasn't paying much attention to it). The vibrations
kept on for half a minute or so it seems. Just then,
I felt my hand (which was resting on my chest at that time during sleep) slide
off naturally, like, due to gravity. I could feel my hand and the part of
my chest it was in contact with, but it was heavy, and kind of rubbery-like.
Without even trying, I somehow knew that I couldn't move that hand, or any part
of my body for that matter, if I tried. I waited to see what would happen,
because I have heard of OBEs, and I thought that this was it. All this time, I
was still feeling the vibrations. Then I
felt that I could move about, as in move upwards, its like I knew before I even
tried, so I did, well kind of. I tried making myself go upwards (all the time I
was in standard sleeping position eg. lying down. It never occurred to me to
change positions) I think I did, but I wasn't sure. I was feeling the sensation
of moving upwards(?) only, and I didn't see anything, its like I wasn't noting
what I was seeing (or not seeing). Then my mom woke me for school and I felt
sensation slowly return to my limbs (before that I couldn't move anything). There's
this other time, which was freaky-scary. I was really really tired and it was
about three am so I shut off the lights and lay down on the floor to rest, when
all off a sudden, I felt the vibrations coming on really strongly. It was so
strong that I felt myself ready to 'take off' any moment. (I think I was on the
verge of dropping off) I didn't want that to happen and tried to stop it. I
tried willing myself NOT to feel the vibrations but that didn't work. So I shut
my eyes and clenched my hands and tensed my body really hard and WILLED the
sensations to go away. They did eventually and I fell asleep. Any
associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the
experience? No Was the
kind of experience difficult to express in words?
No At the
time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening
event? No What was
your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?
Almost awake/ almost asleep.
Was the experience dream like
in any way? No. I was
aware all the time. Did you
experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
Uncertain My
consciousness was floating upwards with the rest of 'me'. I'm not sure. What
emotions did you feel during the experience?
Interesting. Did you
hear any unusual sounds or noises?
No. LOCATION
DESCRIPTION: Did you
recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious
teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing
creatures? No Did you
see a light? No Did you
meet or see any other beings?
No Did you
experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state?
Uncertain There's
this other time when I tried inducing those 'vibrations' (ref to qn.4). It was
afternoon but the curtains were closed, so it was pretty dark in the room. I was
lying down and trying to half fall asleep, you know, get that half awake
feeling. I began slowly to feel the vibrating sensation. Then I tried to move
upwards. I think i did, and then I tried to rotate around (I was still in the
lying down position) because I wanted to see me sleeping. I couldn't because my
eyes were shut (same with the experience in qn.4, my ocular organs didn't seem
to register anything). So I think I turned around but I didn't see anything. Did you
observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that
could be verified later?
No Did you
notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they
different? Yes I just
felt really really light, like I was floating upwards, like I was filled with
helium, and I couldn't float downwards even if I wanted to. Sight ref to ans.12.
Smelt nothing. Tasted nothing. (smelling and tasting never occurred to me) Heard
humming. Did you
have any sense of altered space or time?
Uncertain I was like
in 'dream space' where I felt nothing physical can touch me, like if someone
threw a hammer at 'my' head it would like, I don't know, pass through 'me' or
something, but I know definitely it would have no effect on 'me'. Did you
have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
No Did you
reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
Yes I reached
the ceiling (I felt that is, remember I couldn't see much?) and tried to pass
through it. I couldn't. In the sense I was like a helium filled balloon. I'm
light, floating around, but I'm still not able to pass through 'material'
things. But also, somehow, I knew I could, and something, maybe something
mentally, was preventing me. Did you
become aware of future events?
Uncertain Sometimes
I would feel, when talking with my friends, or doing something, or seeing a
scene on the streets etc, that I have seen/done this while dreaming sometime
before. Definitely dreaming, not like deja vu, although its kind of like deja
vu. Were you
involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?
No Did you
have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience
that you did not have prior to the experience?
No Did you
have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
No How has
the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices?
Career choices? None
whatsoever. Has your
life changed specifically as a result of your experience?
No Have you
shared this experience with others?
Yes I shared
my first experience with one friend and she just said something along the lines
of 'oh okay.' Then I asked her about her experiences. She said she didn't have
any and the subject was dismissed. What
emotions did you experience following your experience?
Weird. Have to try it again.
Scared. What was
the best and worst part of your experience?
None Is there
anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
Is there a possibility of not
being able to return to one's body after an OBE? Following
the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or
substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
Yes When half
awake, I tried to imagine feeling the vibrating sensation, and when I do, I try
to make myself move. Which works. Did the
questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively
describe your experience?
Yes