Tracey J's Experiences
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Experience description:
At a very young age, I
was being sexually abused by a relative and these instances occurred on two of
those occasions. The first memory of an out-of-body experience was one where I
looked at a spot above the TV in the corner, I saw a flash or light, then in an
instant I left my body on the sofa and physically felt myself zip up to that
same spot above the TV in the corner. I was watching myself. It lasted for
awhile, but no more than 2 minutes. I remember it being quiet & safe, but cannot
remember what I saw after the first notice of looking back at myself. When it
ended, I couldn't feel the same sensation of actually going back to my body, it
seemed to just happen in a moment.
The second instance the
out-of-body experienced happened in an instant, but I saw no light this time. I
ended up across the room on the floor holding my knees up against my chest while
looking at myself on a bench. It was quiet & I cannot remember what I saw beyond
the first notice of looking back at myself. This particular instance did not
feel entirely safe, and I cannot remember going back to my body or much beyond
that point.
Any associated
medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?
No
Was the kind of
experience difficult to express in words?
No
What was your level of
consciousness and alertness during the experience?
Alert at the beginning,
then seemed to fade with the quietness & not being able to remember exactly what
I saw.
Was the experience
dream like in any way?
Not really, although I
am aware that I was not physically across the room.
Did you experience a
separation of your consciousness from your body?
Yes
It was me, although I
couldn't see myself. The second instance, I was actually sitting with my knees
pulled up to my chest.
What emotions did you
feel during the experience?
Safety, confusion.
Did you hear any
unusual sounds or noises?
No.
Did you recognize any
familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or
encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?
No
Did you see a light?
Yes
So brief, yet the
hardest to describe of everything that happened. It appeared out of nowhere,
seemed to be warm and unsure of a shape other than it had 2 glinting rays, one
specifically coming off the bottom.
Did you meet or see
any other beings?
No
Did you experiment
while out of the body or in another, altered state?
No
Did you observe or
hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be
verified later?
No
Did you have a sense
of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
No
Did you become aware
of future events?
No
Were you involved in
or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?
No
Did you have any
psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did
not have prior to the experience?
No
Did you have any
changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
Uncertain
Great intuition.
Reflect on whether or not my brain was protecting me or something else was.
How has the experience
affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?
Not much.
Has your life changed
specifically as a result of your experience?
No
Have you shared this
experience with others?
Yes
I usually explain it in
a way that I understand it's within our brain chemistry to protect us from
traumatic events. The few people I have told have been surprised, possibly
disbelieving.
What was the best and
worst part of your experience?
The NOT remembering.
Is there anything else
you would like to add concerning the experience?
This could be
considered mild disassociation by psychologists and I actually experienced a few
more OBEs growing up, although none as specific as these two. However, once
into my 20's I have never experienced one since - it's like I grew out of it.
Did the questions
asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your
experience?
Yes