Tom S's Experience
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Experience description:
I was in an
infinite cosmos, in front of me were some 30 green cosmic contours of souls. I
felt I knew them although I couldn't see who they were, it was more like a deep
solidarity.
They all start to
flutter and at that moment I am being sucked backwards at great speed into a
deep and infinite emptiness. Deep within myself I felt very frightened and then
I stop in the middle of an infinite cosmos. I stay there for a while until I see
a dot in the distance. It becomes bigger and bigger as it approaches with
unprecedented speed.
It appears to be a
huge rose, it stops in front of me and it fills the entire cosmos. The deep red
and deep black shadow tones leave a very intense impression which I feel in the
depths of my being. Then I loose consciousness.
I had my OBE when
I was 23 years old and was going through intense changes.
Lying on the
floor, visualizing colors while meditating I played a CD with various sounds.
After some 15 minutes I lost consciousness for a short while and then I flew
very conscious and alert through the cosmos via an umbilical cord. It was the
same infinite cosmos as I experienced before birth. I was very alert and free of
feelings. In the distance a small dot approached and it appeared to be a maze.
This maze was octagonal and it's color was brown like wood. I flew through it.
At that moment it felt as if I was passing through a gate and I landed on an
other planet. I was "sitting" on very bright green grass. It was much brighter
and fresher than anything I have ever seen on earth. In the distance I saw a
mountainous landscape with in the middle an ochreous moon or planet. I felt very
alert and conscious there and the moment I realized I was really there and that
it was no figment of my imagination I was startled for a second. And in a split
second I was back in my body. I stood up, was a little bit in shock and I was
very cold.
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words?
Yes, the clarity of the experience.
At the time of this experience, was there an associated
life threatening event? No.
At what time during the experience were you at your
highest level of consciousness and alertness?
During the entire experience.
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness
during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and
alertness? More consciousness and alertness than
normal.
If your highest level of consciousness and alertness
during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and
alertness please explain: The entire experience.
Did your vision differ in any way from your normal every
day vision? Yes, everything was much clearer and
the tones much deeper. The colors and shades were much more intense and what you
saw you felt at the same time.
Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal every
day hearing? Yes, there was an intense silence and
yet everything was present. The hearing took place in the consciousness, like
telepathy.
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from
your body? Yes.
What emotions did you feel during the experience?
At first an overwhelming and wondering feeling. A strong neutrality through
everything that was felt. Sometimes fear, especially during the fetus
experience, but of a different kind than you experience on a personality level.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?
Uncertain, I went at high speed through a maze.
Did you see a light? No.
Did you meet or see other beings?
Yes, during the first experience I saw some 30 illuminated contours strongly
connecting with me and each other through feelings. They felt like my "soul
group" saying goodbye because I was going to be born. We communicated and said
our goodbye's through telepathy without words. But we clearly connected deep
into the consciousness.
Did you experience a review of past events in your life?
No.
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or
events during your experience that could be verified later?
No.
Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise
distinctive locations, levels or dimensions? Yes,
a sphere in Sirius. The sphere with the cosmic green grass, beautiful mountains
and the ochre moon in the distance felt very peaceful with a feeling of being
home.
Did you have any sense of altered space or time?
Yes, the time was gone, as well as the feeling of being limited. It felt like
coming home to a place where I had been before I incarnated as a human being.
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge,
universal order and/or purpose? Yes, especially
after the experience. During the experience a sort of knowing was activated. An
understanding of multi dimensionality? I understand that this is a reality and
not a belief.
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
Yes, the green souls were standing on a "farewell line" from where they
accompanied my descent.
Did you become aware of future events?
Uncertain, ever since childhood I have known that I had this experience. Even as
a child I knew that it was no dream but a much more profound experience. When I
had the experience at 23 the whole memory was reactivated as if it had happened
yesterday. And since then lots of synchronizations happen with many contacts
beyond the boundaries.
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special
gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?
Yes, I have many clear contacts with the deceased, non human souls, I have
planetary contacts and many synchronizations with events.
Have you shared this experience with others?
I sometimes told friends about the first experience when
we were telling each other our dreams. I also told friends while walking in a
meadow in Windermere England with the scouts. When I was about 20 years old I
told a homoeopath but he took no notice of it. My wife was the first person I
told my second experience(23) to but she didn't know what to make of it. I told
some friends but I got the feeling they didn't believe me. They didn't
understand which made me feel frustrated. Shortly after that I started a course
in intuitive education and I told the teacher who did understand and that
reassured me. But mostly I kept it to myself because I don't feel understood and
acknowledged.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE)
prior to your experience? No.
How did you view the reality of your experience shortly
(days to weeks) after it happened: It was so clear
and conscious that I never doubted for a minute that it was real. It was maybe
more real than our day to day reality.
Were there one or several parts of the experience
especially meaningful or significant to you? The
rose was very emphatically a life symbol that was given to me. To experience the
blossoming and the depth of the colors of life. This is expressed in creativity
and the ups and downs I relive through the memory. It doesn't matter if you go
through the downs, it feels liberating. To bid farewell to the green souls gave
me a very conscious feeling of support and strength beyond the boundaries. And a
deep feeling of solidarity with the souls in the multi dimensional reality. The
second OBE turned my life around. The maze made me want to search further for
broadening and personal growth. While the planet very strongly opened a
broadening to where I was before I came to the earth( before the human
incarnation cycles).
How do you currently view the reality of your experience?
My later experiences were invigorated and the way that synchronizations occurred
in my life was miraculous. The many other contacts and experiences I have had
since confirm this even more.
Have your relationships changed as a result of your
experience? Yes, I am more responsible and honest
and I try to finish unfinished stuff in relationships.
Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically
as a result of your experience? Yes, I have a deep
sense that religion behind the veils, by that I mean outside of the body, is not
important anymore because it is actually a mental form that paves the way. When
I was out of my body there was just a consciousness that was connected to
everything divine. But not based on a God of convictions of how he or she should
be, but from a very natural concept of which I and everyone else is a part. That
way I sensed we are all part of that God and that creation is our own creation.
Since then I have many contacts ranging from creatures of nature to other
intelligences and forms of consciousness. The feeling of wanting to be in
"heaven" is gone and I have the profound realization that it is all about the
here and now. And that death is simply a vacation to rest for a short while from
our journey as a human being.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in
your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the
experience? Yes, I have visions like the ones
described by medicine men. I have clear contacts with other forms of
consciousness. I have telepathic connections with the people I know. There are
many synchronizations.
Is there anything else you would like to add concerning
the experience? It is often hard that people who
haven't experienced this don't understand.
Did the questions asked and the information you provided
so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?
Yes.
Are there any other questions we could ask to help you
communicate your experience? No.