Experience description:

A little bit of context leading up to the Shared/Post Death Experience

It was I believe the 7th or 8th of December 2016 when my friend came to visit me unexpectedly.

I was staying at my family's home, whilst I was studying at a tertiary institution close by.

I was on Summer Xmas break but was working as a drain layer laborer instead of my full-time study, I enjoyed having a long term partner who studied full time and lived at her own family home, and my family just did what it always did, which was keep the wheel of capitalism turning whilst being generous and loving parents to my brothers and I. Nothing much to say.

At the time I had discovered Qi Gong, a Qi (Chi)/ Life force enhancing practice that everyday I would go for a run to generate energy in the body, which helped me understand energies I was slowly learning to cultivate, perceive and manipulate. This felt like a positive practice. I did this nearly every morning that I can recall because it is my preferred choice of study, which is understanding the esoteric, supernatural and the arcane arts.

Life was ticking along pretty normal for me at the time, it didn't appear like anything involving death was approaching.

I remember having a vivid dream, of my best friend's home, and their little black pug dog named Loki, had been vomiting out skulls and bones and was very very ill. I went over to see the distressed pug dog, and it was dying and shivering. The pug had vomited out what appeared to be many rat's skulls and the scene was not that pleasant.

I remember awakening very suddenly and being vividly awake, and it was completely uncharacteristic of me to awaken like this, especially at 3am from a strangely vivid and disturbing dream that did not dissipate upon awakening. I noticed that I could sense something had happened, or was about to happen, and not a minute after awakening with great lucidity and sitting up, my phone that was face down next to my bed, which I usually never placed next to my bedside, was receiving a call from my friend whose dog I had just been dreaming of.

I answered the phone, and it was his recently married wife, whom I had been the best man at their wedding for recently. She said to me: ‘We have to tell you something, Del has passed away in an accident, her taxi went over a cliff in Bali-’ (she was touring the island of Lombok and I didn't know she was travelling.)

I cannot recall the rest of the details of the conversation, but I did tell her about the dream I just had, and I knew something was wrong.

I remember feeling somewhat okay, because I didn't really know what to make of the news. I have a tendency for creating a psychological complex, and storing feelings until they can be processed later, so I was also unsurprised that I did not react intensely.

I remember hanging up the call to let my friend be with her husband, whom was the older brother of Del, the woman who had passed away.

I had become friends with Del when I met her, it is definitely a long time ago now, but I was friends with her older brother first in high school. After I met Del, no offense to my good friend, her brother, but I was really interested in Del! Young love.

Del and I had a really beautiful few years of being in an intimate relationship which dissolved abruptly in the end, completely on my account of being a real piece of work. But we still remained friends after many years of consolidating the past. Del was really a beautiful and childish person, she didn't hold onto much anger or regrets.

So here's where it gets interesting.

-The Shared Afterlife -

I woke up in the morning as usual, I got ready to go for my morning run, and I wasn't thinking about much except getting on with my day. I knew my ex (Del) whom was a good person had died but I also didn't feel the need to be sad about her. I'm not sure where this instinct came from.

As I put my headphones on and walked out to go down the driveway, which looks out to the East as the sun was rising most glorious and bright as it usually did, I noticed it was different, and someone was standing at the end of the driveway, looking down it curiously to see if they could get my attention. It was Del.

I was stunned. I pulled out my headphones and walked down to the end of the driveway and I tried to rub my eyes, and do some reality checks, and sure as myself being where I was, Del was there looking at me with her smile, and radiant energy. I engaged in a conversation with her, and I was definitely not just making up the conversation I was having with her. She was there in front of me, although slightly translucent.

I was confused, assuredly, I wasn't prepared for this, but I asked her how she was, what had happened, and why was I seeing her, and why she was not with her family.

Her answers went like this: She told me she was fine, better than fine, she can travel anywhere, and do anything she wanted, which was her dream! She told me as soon as the car went over the cliff, and it made impact she didn't feel any pain, and was outside of the car. She hadn't realized she was dead at first, and assuming she had flown out of the car and by a miracle survived, she went to see her boyfriend in the back seat, and make sure he was okay. She stayed with him and the others until the ambulances arrived. It seemed like he was in bad shape, but he was alive. There were others in the vehicle in the crash and she also attended to them to, but in her attempt to help other people, she realized that the paramedics were not responding to her engagement, and she realized something was wrong. She then realized she had seen a mangled body be placed in a vehicle and driven away very quickly before her boyfriend could be taken, but she wasn't concerned about them at that frantic moment.

Realizing something was wrong, she felt for her body and then was instantly transported into a hospital above a very mangled and very dead cadaver of her own body. She was shocked but also more confused why she was still existing, and tried to get in contact with some of the hospital staff, who couldn't hear her. She then walked around the hospital trying to see if anyone could see her or get any attention of anybody to tell her what was happening to her.

She suddenly had an overwhelming weight drop inside her chest where her heart was and then realized her family had been called with the news. She went to go and visit her mother, which was as easy as thinking about her, she was there. But the immense energy waves and oscillations in the family home was so great she couldn't bare to stand inside of it to consolidate her mother and her Stepfather. The same happened when she went to visit her older brother, sister in law and her father and step siblings, all except one of her younger step sisters could see her, but wasn't sure what to make of her older step sister floating above her and didn't say anything except recognizing Del was looking as confused about everything as she was.

Del said she went around and visited friends, checked on her boyfriend in the hospital, and then returned to her family a few times, before remembering I was into sort of of spiritual things, and that she should see if I could see her. She apparently hung out for several hours in the night before the morning, waiting for me to awaken, trying to choose the right moment when to appear. She said she chose down the end of the driveway because it seemed most natural to her, to meet someone that way.

From her accounts, nothing apart from seeing her corpse, as well as feeling immense emotional energies in this in-between realm, more so than being a human, was the only thing she could tell was she was something of a ghost. She enjoyed the ability to transfigure at will, and her body was made of a silky white substance that seemed like mist or smoke. She could change it into any shape she wanted to and could fly and move freely in space without effort.

I made constant checks to see if I was hallucinating or not, but assuredly, she was floating there, and having a great time with her new abilities of flying, teleporting, seeing things beyond the normal range of perception and experimenting with the chi I was cultivating. She could see as I went for my morning run, how I was drawing in energies and storing it, and she was fascinated by it.

I went to my usual spot for Qi Gong, in a place I call a grotto, by the Ocean and is a great view of the Tamaki Harbor with Rangitoto the local volcano in view. While I was doing my practice Del was exploring the area and she then said excitedly enough to the disruption of my practice that there was a stone that was glowing with a symbol on it, and it was glowing a brilliant verdant green from the engraved character. I told her there was no stone there, and she was absolutely adamant that it was. She then did something that stunned me, and she flew over me, and placed her head inside my head, aligning our eyes over the top of the other, and I could see through her lens what she could see, and there was indeed, a rock with a smaller boulder sitting on top, that had the energy of a soul-cairn, that has that subtle but pervasive radiant aura emanating from it, with this large sigil that did not look ominous, but was shining an abundantly radiant and unearthly verdancy that bubbled with small white specs like a font- blooming of this energy and light out of the engraving and we decided that we must investigate this, so using her eyes I reached out in front of me, and felt for the boulder and sigil, and there was a slight magnetic field twinge to the air, which was incredibly subtle.

I then traced the sigil right into it's grooves, and felt the symbol as I moved across the sigil. At the completion of the tracing, I perceived an earthquake of some kind, a large movement, like something of a bus or train starting to move if you aren't holding onto anything, but to my eyes I didn't see anything move. The large cliff face that I already felt was alive in some way (hence why I trained in this space), DID come alive, more translucent than Del was certainly but it seemed to be a great and ancient being, whom spoke in a voice that sounded like 10 overlapping voices but very close together and not disjointed., but the predominant sound was of an old woman. I cannot share the being's name, it has always been their request to keep it safe inside my mind.

This great being, then began teaching us things, each day we would visit after my morning run and we were given tasks to do. They were simple tasks to complete, however they proved incredibly difficult to master and do well, with many moral principles being handed down to me through their simple teachings and reflecting on the difficulty of each challenge. Del and I were in two different worlds, and because of that, our lessons differed greatly. I was so focused on completing my own challenges that whenever I looked over to see Del practicing what she was being taught, she was just as focused on her tasks, which were incredible, and I didn't understand and as our teacher said to me, it isn't important to know what she is learning, as much as she is needing to know what I was learning, since they were what we needed to learn at the time.

One of the more curious things Del and I attempted to do was use the lens of her eyes, overlaid over my eyes, as we did with the sigil, but it proved to be too much for my human brain to handle. The experience is like looking from a 2D into a 3D dimension or 4D dimension. My brain could perceive parts of what I was seeing, but there was such an overload of visual and energetic data to take in, I couldn't handle looking for more than a few seconds. It appeared that in a spatial coordinate, all layers of matter that overlaid a spatial coordinate, that existed throughout time into the future and into the past, existed in what I was looking at. So instead of seeing a corner table and chair, I would see every table or chair or object or person or tree, or object that existed simultaneously in a single spatial spot all at once. It was like being filled up with so much data, my brain couldn't process it all and I'd have to 'come back to reality' rather than looking down 'the tunnel of time', as one may put it.

In my days of working as a Drainlayer labourer and in my studies of Qi Gong, I had agreed to keep track of Del as she roamed about the world on her joyous excursions to see everything she could in her new form and with her new studies under our shared teacher. Del and I made sure we kept in contact whenever we remembered, but not much past a few hours we should check in. We also made a talismanic device to give her energy to do what she was doing, I would build Qi energy and send it into this talisman I wore which was a direct line to Del, so she didn't need to worry about energy requirements, and was sustained. Much like how we consume food, or entertainment, or energy of some kind to replenish our energy reserves, this was my way of helping Del stick around while we figured out what was going on.

Del's family was not interested in me telling them that she was still here, and that we were having a great time learning and growing together, and that she wants to spend time with them but they needed to stop being sad and upset, because it was draining and too intense to be around. You can understand why their skeptical response wasn't one of elated joy and welcoming of their daughter into their homes and lives again. They were grief stricken, and processing this information was the equivalent of a huge slap in the face.

Del's friends however were more receptive to her being around still, and they also felt her presence, and were grateful and relieved to hear that she was still around and doing so well. It brought consolation to her boyfriend of the time who was recovering from the crash and his depression over losing his girlfriend did not make it any better. I wrote her friends and boyfriend letters in her own words and they all really appreciated what she said to them. It brought them a lot of peace.

Here's where it gets even more curious. Yes, I know. It's already VERY curious.

It hadn't even been half a week yet, and I was having a shower at my parent's family home, and Del was sitting in the room relaying her exciting journeys of the day.

Now please remember, Del can see more than we can, there's beings and creatures we can't perceive in this dimension or realm, of which she can see, her being one of them to me, but to her, her spectrum was different too, but just as WE KNOW there are multidimensional beings that can interact with our realm, there are many natives to the realm she existed in as well.

She was telling me about how she walked alongside a beautiful river in France where she came upon a cave with a large dark entrance, and she could tell a very large creature lived in this cave, so she inquisitively investigated as any seemingly (and relatively since I was sending her energy to stay in this world) immortal ghost would. She discovered a sizable dragon, of a red, alazarin crimson-esque hue and we could say looked like a very obese Red Welsh Dragon, that was rather bulky and could tell a small insect was about to bother their slumber like a large lizard would disagree with having it enthusiastically come up to it. The dragon opened its large yellow eye and interred a 'go away if you want to live' kind of glare and with that, she promptly did, BUT in her doing so it piqued a question: ‘What would happen if I did bother them?’

As her story finished she asked me, what I thought of the story, and I said it was pretty spectacular. She then asked me the question she had been brooding on, during her stroll through the French countryside. I said, ‘Well you're a ghost, how can you die again? You're an immortal now, you can do whatever you want! You're the lion now!’ and I completely thought I was right. I'd never provoked a dragon before, and I wasn't a ghost either, so I neither had the experience nor reasonable wit to comprehend what I had just said to an impressionable young, feisty and seemingly immortal young woman. She said: ‘Okay’ after pondering what I'd said for several minutes and told me she was going out and she'd see me later. I didn't think anything of it. You can guess where she went off to?

It was becoming a little bit later in the same Summer evening, my girlfriend was over and we were about to have dinner. She had just finished work, and was exhausted. She knew about Del, and was a little bit upset that I paid so much attention to her, and gave her so much care. I thought she was jealous, and I also think Del had a sort of cheeky sadistic side that knew that she was stirring up trouble for my girlfriend. Nevertheless, my girlfriend was also into sorting her own body and mind out at the end of the day, and I was cooking us some dinner in the kitchen.

I then thought, I hadn't heard from Del in a while and checked in on her, but I felt a very weak response, and no sound. No vibrant chirpy sound. I called out to her again through the talisman, and I could hear faintly the sounds of someone that seemed to be Del, was really messed up badly.

I then stopped cooking and channeled a whole lot of energy directly from myself into this talisman towards Del and kept calling out to her, and I began to hear her breathing, and she was in a distant place, and was suffering. I asked her to teleport to me, but she could not, so I spent about 5 minutes channeling Qi to her and told her to teleport to me as soon as she was able to.

She did teleport to me, but not exactly to me, but into the lounge, and I found her and she was in the worst state I've ever seen anybody before.

Her body was a literal crispy charred piece of barely translucent energy, save for her spirit inside of it, and there was a large amount of dark/black/sharp crystal shards growing out of her body. I sat down beside her and directly channeled chi into her body, through me and from the external field, and I found that I was becoming incredibly drained from this, and the dark crystals were breaking off as I healed her body, and they would fly out into random directions. I didn't think anything of them.

But my girlfriend came to sit in the lounge and meditate without asking me what was going on, what I was doing, and she sat cross legged on a small comfy couch close by to me, about 2 metres away. As I was healing Del through channeling energy into her body, the shards continued to fly in all directions, luckily not into me, but close by. However there was one that I saw fly off and hit my girlfriend who was meditating directly in the heart, and she screamed loudly and clutched her heart, and staggered up after nearly falling off the chair and she yelled at me: ‘What the hell do you think you're doing?! That really hurts! Ow! What the f*** was that?!’ and she quickly left the room, and left me to channel energy into Del, whilst also noticing I had severely depleted my own reserves of energy, and I was feeling sick, as if I was depleted, and I could feel that my body felt compromised of energy so that I could become ill very easily. I decided to stop and see how Del was doing. All of the shards had gone, but her ghost body was not floating, and was very dense. It seemed like, she was in a similar state to me, as in, depleted, and needing time to recover and heal.

I enquired to how this had all happened, and Del had been inspired by me to go and confront a dragon head on, like she thinks she's the boss around here - thinking she was invincible. She got promptly taught, that she was not invulnerable and was blasted by a dragon's mystical fire, which I would say is extremely hot and also, not normal fire hence these crystals on her very crispy body. She said in the moment that the fire touched her, she realized ‘Oh this is really bad’, and teleported away to wherever she could. Wherever she was, she did not know, but she was suffering immensely, her whole body had seized up on account of being made into a crispy piece of toasty ghost flesh and she had no energy to contact me. If I hadn't checked in on her, she might have 'died again'. Who knows?

I realized Del was going to be okay so I left her to rest, and I told my girlfriend about what happened. It didn't appear that the crystal that hurt her, had left any marking or damaged her, but she was still angry and shocked and frustrated that Del had caused this to happen. I made a bed for Del in the lounge on a comfy sofa, and I said I'd check on her in the morning.

I went to work, the next day, and Del was still resting when I left, yes, I know, she's still a ghost guys. Yeah. I know.

I then got contacted by our teacher, whom was training us, and telepathically told me, to tell Del to come and visit them.

Del could not float or fly at this moment and the one part of her body I couldn't heal properly was her lower legs and feet, which still looked raw and painful and had suffered major burns.

Nevertheless I sent some energy to Del to help her go see our teacher, and she knew she had to walk, very very slowly, but she did it.

By the end of the day when I got home, I went to see our teacher, and they said Del was on a series of missions to learn how to survive off of radiant and abundant energy in certain places in the world. She was being tasked with visiting these places, tuning into the chi around her, and absorbing the energy there, to understand its qualities, and also not become reliant on me or other beings for energy, which was a relief for me, as I could tell doing this indefinitely would be difficult!

I could tell Del was definitely a changed person by the dragon fire and the painful experience she encountered. She was humbled by her pain, and brush with a second death. I did not see or hear from Del much over the next few days, I could tell she was on an important mission to learn about the energies of the world, and Qi, and about herself.

I was on lunchbreak about 6 days after Del's accident with the car in Lombok, and I called up Del through our talisman, to see if she would be keen to meet with me. She didn't arrive immediately, but she did come, and her form astonished me.

The Del I knew as a bubbly childish, excitable, feisty, young woman who took pride in vanity, playfulness and free-spirited wanderings, walked in the door of the cafe/diner in full vibrant, radiant orange monk robes, black slippers, and a shaved head with a few spots on her forehead. I was stunned, and she even seemed taller than usual. She was glowing, literally! I quizzed her about what had happened to make this transformation occur in a few days.

Del told me that our teacher had sent her to certain locations, to sit and meditate on the qualities of the Qi present in these coordinates and to absorb them into her being to absorb the qualities of these places and to not rely on others for their sustenance. Whilst she was walking somewhere in Japan, through a small mountain village, nothing big at all, she wandered past a merchant of clothes he had made. The old Japanese textile and clothing merchant looked up at Del and acknowledged her presence, which was startling to her. The man then told her ‘of course I can see you! You aren't the first spirit to wander through these parts!’ and with that he had folded next to him on a tree stump a fine set of monk raiment that seemed to glow with a soft mystical white luminous light that were surely otherworldly. The old man told her ‘I was told that you would be coming along, so I have made these just for you!’ with a smile, and offered them to her. The man, was surely human, and in the physical tangible world, but had made clothing for a spirit he was told would pass him by. Curious, isn't it?

(On a side note from the story, I must say that this is not an uncommon paradigm in our collective awareness, of animals and humans, to sense or be told to make something or buy something for 'someone we will know whom to give it to' - we call this a serendipitous calling, and it feels as natural as drinking clean water or loving a friend, however it could be a complete stranger we meet in as gracious passing, exactly at a confluence of time and space coordinates, we call this Grace - however I would go as far as to say as this is 'The Grace Force'.)

Del humbly accepted this most precious and beautiful gift, and also, chose to embody the shaven hair look, because she said she was very attached to her hair and clothing in her earthly life of vanity, and was excited to learn many great things in her subsequent wanderings. Del had matured so incredibly fast, as if she had learned 30 to 40 years worth of information in a few days. Her aura and radiance could not betray that she was embodying a force much more ancient and wise than I had seen before, apart from my various teachers whom are very wise old spirits.

It was only 2 days later I arrived home from work, and I closed the door, and I touched my talisman to contact Del.

It was pure void. No static. No noise. No signal. Nothing. My talisman was inert. Complete disconnect.

I was stunned yet again. What? Why didn't she tell me she was going? Where has she gone? Has something happened?

I finally felt like Del had gone, and it hit me, grief appeared. I understood what the loss of a loved one feels like, the emptiness that they have truly gone. I went to visit our teacher to hear what they had to say about Del's sudden disappearance.

I knelt where I had spent so much training alongside Del, and by myself before Del arrived. Our teacher appeared, and I asked them what happened. This is what happened to Del.

Del had continued her task of moving around the world, some places were beautiful, some more violent and hellish. In this case, Del had been told to go to Iraq, to discover what was there, and to continue her journey of understanding through attunement to the energies in the atmosphere.

In her wandering, she came across a young boy trapped under concrete rubble, whom was desperate to get out. She came to the boy and said, ‘Hello, are you okay?’ and the boy pleaded that he needed to escape, and he needed to return to his family. Del took such great pity on the young boy, and realizing also that the boy could see her, because he was close to death. The boy asked her ‘Are you an angel?’, and then Del realized exactly what all of it was for, every lesson, every challenge, every trial, everything she had been taught and learned had been to be right here at this very moment to help this boy. She understood what she had to do. She responded to the boy ‘Yes, I am an angel, and I'm here to save you.’

In that moment she channeled all of her energy into the young boy for great strength, courage and otherworldly power. Del placed every single bit of life force she had into the boy, dissolving all that she knew she was as energy completely into the boy, saying her final goodbyes ‘I love You’ - where the love that she felt was the pure love she knew she was as she dissolved and returned into great love, and the 'you' that she said, held the vibration of every single person and being and place she had ever known, and she knew that she was them also.

In that moment she disappeared as pure energy into the boy, and the boy pushed through the rubble, and escaped and went to find his parents in the warzone.

The story has shaken me ever since, and has been a guide for me in this life, to understand what truly matters. There is many forms of sacrifice, and often they are made for those whom we know and love dearly, and we know we would die for them if need be, let alone actually do it.

But this sacrifice was so all knowing, so all understanding of the sacrifice for someone whom you do not know, in their greatest hour of need, to give them everything, including one's own life to surpass the supernaturally difficult odds of survival, this is a form of true enlightenment, and I learned this from Del, the woman who became an angel, and taught me one of the greatest mysteries and lessons of life.

At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?   Yes  Well, not for me, but for my friend whom had been killed in an accident.

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  No    

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?      Firstly when I woke from the dream, suddenly. Then when I saw Del for the first time at the end of my driveway. Then many times when I would be surprised by the adventures and changes of Del in such a short time period.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?      More consciousness and alertness than normal   It simply felt much more alert. Natural. I have always had a natural tendency to work with others through paranormal plots such as this. It makes me feel truly alive to be alive in an adventure of the paranormal.

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   Much clearer, especially seeing a spirit form. Del was nearly as clear as a person, but was most solid when I first saw her at the end of the driveway.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   My clairaudience was the same as usual

Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?   Yes   The whole story above, is a sort of Shared Death experience.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?   I felt alive, as in, vividly alive, doing what I know I am meant to be doing in this world. I would do this every single day if I could. It's my dream to be on the cutting edge of paranormal science.  

Did you pass into or through a tunnel?   No  

Did you see an unearthly light?   Yes   In the first instance of seeing my phone vibrate for the call, to hear about Del's death it was brighter than normal. I was much more lucid. Throughout the time spent with Del, I witnessed many intensely 'alive' light sources, in various forms. THe greatest and most moving of the lights was in hearing about her dissolution/sacrifice of turning into the pure light, I can feel it and it still moves me.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?   I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
I encountered my friend Del, as well as our shared teacher, whom was a being that was incredibly ancient.

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)?   No  

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?   Yes   Yes, Del was my ex girlfriend from my high school years.

Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?   Yes   I was made to recall the significance of Del in my life, the journey we had been on together in this world.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?   Some unfamiliar and strange place
When using Del's eyes to see through her lens, I was able to see things beyond the normal range of perception.

Did time seem to speed up or slow down?   Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
This occurred when I used Del's eyes to perceive objects through her lens of perception by over laying her eyes, within my eyes.

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?   No

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?   No

Did you come to a border or point of no return?   No

Did scenes from the future come to you?  No 

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (“life after death”)?   Yes   I am very certain, that life can exist after death after this experience.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist?   Yes   The Light I saw, was pure intellect and sound thought.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist?   Yes   The Light

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose?   Yes   I learned SO MUCH through this one week of intensive learning, through the shared relationship with Del. It wasn't long distance correspondence. We lived together, and spent plenty of time together. We shared so much, including what she learned, including the old man gifting her the robes, and so much more. The ultimate sacrifice on her complete essence to save a being she never even knew for knowing it was for that divine moment she was meant to be there...this is the gift of life.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s difficulties, challenges, or hardships?   Yes   I ascertained, that even ghosts who stick around can suffer. I also have experience with many other spirits that are similar.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love?   Yes   Oh yeah. Ultimate love and compassion, is the most powerful force in existence.

During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives?   Yes   There are realms with beings beyond our perception, that exist there naturally as we do here. Some are hidden away in sigils and in caves. Some people whom may seem utterly mundane may have the greatest esoteric knowledge and experiences we could not imagine.

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?   Yes   I know that I came here in this world, this life, to study the mysteries of magic. In my efforts, I have been reduced to ash and died many times before I die. God hollows us like caves.

What occurred during your experience included:   Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience   I didn't know I could see ghosts. I thought spiritualism and mediumship may have been a hoax, but I had no evidence otherwise. I hadn't heard of NDE or SDE or anything like it...but I also knew innately that death wasn't the end...it was instinctual.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience?   I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of th   Since I thrive in the esoteric, and doing magical quests in this world and others, I often remember plenty of things related to these once in a lifetime sort of series of events.

Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience:   I knew without a doubt, magic is real. That's always what I seek to study every spare moment of every day. But after this experience, I know, I am meant to be studying magic.

My experience directly resulted in:   Moderate changes in my life

Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience?   Yes   The Ultimate Sacrifice, is truly the gift of love and compassion to the highest order of learning.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience?   Yes   Attunement to temporal/spatial data within a coordinate. (Tapping into the echoes of the tunnel of time)

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you?     All of it. I love that woman still. I wish she was still alive, and I could take her out for icecream, and go on more adventures.

Have you ever shared this experience with others?   Yes  I was refrained by my teacher from sharing it with others. I shared it once with permission, and then I do not tell it often.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?   No  

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:   Experience was definitely real   I learned to many things, I experienced to many things, I heard so many things, that couldn't have been a fantasy.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time:   Experience was definitely real   The more I look into SDE and NDE, the more I am certain.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?   Yes   Del's family do not speak to me after what I told them. I also don't really worry about it when anyone dies.

Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?   Uncertain  

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?   Uncertain
 
Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?   Yes   I have explained.