Tim M's Experience
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Experience description:
One
Saturday I had arranged to go fishing with a friend who was to pick me up at my
house at 4.30 A.M. I decided that instead of going to bed I'd just lie on the
sofa until my friend called. I could never fall asleep on a sofa or chair and
still can't to this day so I simply lay relaxing thinking about the day to come.
What happened that night was utterly terrifying and I really thought I was
actually dying. As I was relaxing a very light 'buzzing' started in my ears,
almost at first like a fly or tiny insect was buzzing around somewhere in my
inner ear. I had not much time to react to this when this 'light buzzing' very
quickly turned into a deafening roar which caused me to instantly panic and
instinctively jump up from the sofa. I found to my absolute horror that I could
not move a muscle and when I tried to call out for help I couldn't speak a word.
I was fully conscious throughout. I found myself rising towards the ceiling and
thinking I was dying I said goodbye ( in my mind) to all those I loved. Just as
quickly I found myself back lying on the sofa with the roaring becoming less
loud and my mobility returning.
I
found the whole experience terrifying and more so as it happened perhaps six
times over the next few weeks. I suspected a serious health issue and visited my
doctor which did me no good at all. I explained what was happening and I knew by
the way he looked at me that he thought I was imagining the whole thing,
although being a very nice man he wouldn't come straight out and say so. This
recurred many times over the years and I gradually became somewhat accustomed to
it, however it was only about two years ago that I actually heard of Out of Body
Experiences and realized that this was something that has been much
investigated. I read a lot about the subject and over the last while I have been
trying to consciously control my actions when this 'state' occurs, always on the
verge of sleep. The terror that I experienced all those years ago has been
replaced by fascination and a conviction that during these experiences no part
of me actually leaves my body but enters some part of my consciousness that is
only accessible during the period between wakefulness and sleep. The fact that I
believe that I don't actually leave my body makes no difference to what is an
unbelievable experience, and proves to me that the 'unexplored country' is our
own limitless subconscious...of course I could just as easily be wrong, but I
intend to take every opportunity to find out.
Did
you have any sense of altered space or time?
Yes Time seems to move slower in these states and images are often slightly
blurred. It's as if there are many images all trying to 'crowd' into the same
space and one becoming superimposed over another.
Did
you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience
that you did not have prior to the experience?
No Various feelings and premonitions since childhood but all have been of
trivial happenings, although feelings about people have been very accurate.
Any
associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the
experience?
No
Was
the kind of experience difficult to express in words?
No
At
the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening
event?
No
What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?
Full
Was the experience dream like in any way?
No
Did
you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
No
What emotions did you feel during the experience?
Terror at first which changed to fascination over the years.
Did
you hear any unusual sounds or noises?
A
light buzzing at first which soon change to a deafening roar.
LOCATION DESCRIPTION:
Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar
religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or
amazing creatures?
Yes I seemed to travel through very familiar locations but strangely I
didn't recognize any of the people I saw there. Also they seemed to notice me
but did not look straight at me or try to speak to me.
Did
you see a light?
No
Did
you meet or see any other beings?
Yes Only normal people who seemed to be aware of me but did not want to
communicate in any way.
Did
you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state?
Yes
After experiencing this for many years I have only lately began trying to
'control' my movements but with only varying degrees of success. One thing is
certain, the more a location or place means to me the more likely I am to
'visit' that place.
Did
you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience
that could be verified later?
No
Did
you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they
different?
No
Did
you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or
purpose?
Yes It seems that I am on the point of grasping something of importance, but
it's always just out of reach.
Did
you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
No
Did
you become aware of future events?
Yes I have had various glimpses of events over the years in dream that have
subsequently come true, but they have all been of the trivial and meaningless
events.
Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the
body?
No
Did
you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
No
How
has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices?
Career choices?
I am
not religious and never have been, I am fascinated by these experiences and hope
to be able to control my actions in them when they occur in future.
Has
your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes I feel there is far more to us that we usually realize.
Have you shared this experience with others?
No
What emotions did you experience following your experience?
At
first terror, now fascination.
What was the best and worst part of your experience?
The
worst was the terror at the beginning, the best is now knowing there is no
danger and actually looking forward to exploring what I believe is a limitless
subconscious.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Did
the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively
describe your experience?
No
Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.
Has
anyone seen people they actually recognize during these experience and when they
see strangers did they notice if the strangers saw them? and what was their
reaction?