Teri M's Experience
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Experience description:
Years age, I was giving natural childbirth to my third daughter. The pain was so
intense and long in duration. There were three people in the room besides
myself. My husband, the doctor and his nurse. I was in such excruciating pain-I
THOUGHT I was going to DIE. I asked for an epidural or drugs of any kind to
lessen the pain. The doctor told me it I was too far past the point for drugs.
It would be too dangerous for the baby. I did NOT think I would be able to
continue.
During a short break between contractions, I felt myself lift up out of my
physical body and literally walk around my husband who was standing to the left
of my physical body on the labor bed. I stood there next to him and looked
around the room in total amazement. I was watching myself from a spectators
view. I looked up at my husbands face and watched his expressions as my labor
continued. I watched the doctor and nurse interactions. I was able to watch the
hands on the clock tick away directly above my "physical" body head. I had NO
pain whatsoever. I was at peace. I placed my hand on my husbands that was on
the bedside railing.. I felt it as physically as if it were my physical body
touching him. He did not react. He was busy helping to raise my physical body
up to prepare for another contraction along with the nurse who was located on
the other side of the labor bed. I literally could see the expression of my
physical face as I leaned forward and bared down intently. This went on for 35
minutes or so. Then without any warning, my spiritual self worked its way back
around my husband body and positioned itself behind my physical body's head at
the head of the bed and I entered back into my body. At that time I heard the
doctor say, "Ok" give me a nice big cough"! I said, "a WHAT"? He said, the
baby is right there, no need to bare down hard, just give me a nice cough.... I
was dumbfounded.
So,
I coughed and out came the baby. Just like that. I was so relieved the pain was
over and the baby was here. Later, My doctor made a comment that in all his many
years of delivering babies, he has never seen anyone with the high tolerance of
pain that I had demonstrated. He said, I had introduced several hemorrhoids,
broke blood vessels in my face, shoulders, back and chest from pushing so hard
and for so long. I had torn in the vaginal area as well. What astounded him so
much was I never cried, screamed, whimpered or yelled at all throughout the
entire process. He knew I was in a great deal of severe pain and continued my
pushing without complaint. He felt so bad that he could not provide me with any
drugs during the delivery. He said, he had never witnessed such composure and
inner strength in his entire professional career. It was unheard of. The nurse
added her amazement too. I never told anyone about my experience, thinking no
one would believe me or think I was just crazy. To this day, I remember it
clearly. With no hesitation that it was indeed real. I have no idea what
prompted it or why. I wish I could be able to experience it again...NOT the
labor and deliver but the amazingly awesome peaceful calm I experienced. No
worries, no fear, no insecurities, no anxieties. I want to learn how to be able
to do that at will. Anyway, thanks for allowing me to share.
Any
associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the
experience?
No
Was
the kind of experience difficult to express in words?
No
At
the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening
event?
No
What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?
HIGH
Was the experience dream like in any way?
NO
Did
you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
No
response
What emotions did you feel during the experience?
PEACE, HAPPINESS, CALMNESS and AMAZEMENT
Did
you hear any unusual sounds or noises?
NO
LOCATION DESCRIPTION:
Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar
religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or
amazing creatures?
No
Did
you see a light?
No
Did
you meet or see any other beings?
Yes Just the three people present in the room... husband, doctor and nurse
Did
you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state?
No
Did
you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience
that could be verified later? The
clock above my physical body ticking away. My "spectators" view of myself giving
birth from the foot of the labor bed. I witnessed my own facial expressions. I
could hear all the conversations in the room.
Did
you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they
different?
Yes NO PAIN at all....No anxiety.
Did
you have any sense of altered space or time?
No
Did
you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or
purpose?
No
Did
you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
No
Did
you become aware of future events?
No
Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the
body?
Yes The spiritual me began to work its way back over to the head of the
labor bed. ( I had to walk around my husband)... I instinctively knew why and I
was reluctant. I wasn't ready to go back in. I didn't want what was waiting
for me back in my physical body. I mentally kept saying "NO NO not yet" I like
it here. But, the spiritual me kept heading towards the physical me to renter.
I had no control of it. I was so NOT wanting to go back.. If I could cry I
would have. But the peace and calmness would not allow me to be anxious and
scared. It is like my spiritual self reassured me that it will be all right.
Did
you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience
that you did not have prior to the experience?
No
Did
you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
No
Has
your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?
No I used to think I must be SPECIAL or unique. I since then feel I was
given a brief insight of what is possible for me. Only to realize I'm no that
special. I think that experience somehow tricked me into believing that there
were special things in store for me in my life. That I was going to obtain
special unique awareness to help me in my life's journey. It is like chasing
that proverbial pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. It always eludes you-or
you just miss it somehow. Now I am middle aged and nothing to show for it
accept regret, pain and unhappiness. (no drugs or alcohol to blame).
Have you shared this experience with others?
Yes Within the last couple of years... My children and my 2nd husband of 22
yrs.
What emotions did you experience following your experience?
Amazement and wonderment.... Wanted to be able to that again. But, since I had
no idea how it happened or what I did to bring it on, I had-have no idea how to
do it again.
What was the best and worst part of your experience?
WORST>Going back into my physical body. I liked the peace and calm. A world of
happiness and peace. No anxieties or insecurities. BEST>Being able to
experience a world (even if it were minutes) of happiness and peace.
Is
there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
I
have tried to search this experience out. Find out if others have experienced
it too. How can I duplicate the experience. Try to find someone who can teach
me how to find the core of the inner peace and happiness I felt. I have never
experienced a sense of peace and happiness before this moment and never again
after. I long for it so much. Life has left me battle weary. Beat me up big
time. I so desperately need peace and contentment. A sense of self loving and
acceptance. I know it is possible. I just don't know how or where to start. I
sometimes hope for death. I have never been afraid or anxious of death for
myself. I just want the badness and pains go away.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Did
the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively
describe your experience?
Yes