Tami L's Experience
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Experience description:
I went
into the hospital to have a routine hysterectomy. There were complications
during the surgery - a torn vein which resulted in loss of blood. (I had 7
units of blood administered to me..5 during the surgery itself - on the 27th of
September, and 2 more during a second surgery 2 days later - 29th of September
(It was decided that I might still be bleeding internally so the doctors decided
to go in a second time and clean everything up). A few days
later I was taken to the normal hospital room (I was previously in held in
critical care unit). At this time I was off of all respirators but was still
receiving IV's for pain, food, etc. I was awake and aware of my environment -
dozing off and on as best I could when I was comfortable. The next
thing I knew I was standing on a black sea. It rippled like small waves - but it
was solid like black silk. I turned my head to the left and I saw a bright
purple light as if it was coming from a doorway off in the distance. I remember
thinking to myself...this should be a white light, not purple... I then
found myself following a white orb that was down and to my left - about waist
height. It was spherical, with different colored small lights twinkling on and
off - most of them were white lights. I had the feeling that I was in space - I
saw darkness and stars above me. The orb took me across planets as if it was
taking me 'away' from something. I followed it willingly - no thought was in my
head except how fantastic this was. Then the thought came to me that I can't
leave now - my daughters are not ready for me to leave. I began to feel the
presence of another being, although I did not see anyone else. I told them I had
to go back, that we all (myself and my children) would need to go together. The
"presence" agreed with me, and I told him (as with telepathy but still hearing
words) that I would spend the rest of my life telling people that he existed. I
was taken back to the sea of black silk. The being 'hugged' me and repeated the
word "together" - but it was in a very funny sounding voice - almost
mechanical. I then had
the sensation of 'falling back down' and slowing coming back into my body - it
was a very heavy sensation - and I remember seeing the world through my eyes
again - and I thought to myself "I am going to open my eyes and the
nurses/doctors will be working on me as if my heart had stopped" - but I was
alone in my room. I later
noticed that I had developed something on my right upper arm (the same place
that I felt the hug from the 'being that I couldn't see'- it blistered as if it
had been burned - my whole arm swelled up (the reason for an extra few days stay
in the hospital). A dermatologist and infections disease doctor both came into
my hospital room to see my arm. No one had ever seen anything like it before -
no explanation but a few theories 1. fixed drug eruption and 2. Reaction to
the blood pressure cuff that I had on my arm during my two surgeries -- although
again, no one had ever seen anything like that before. It's been
six weeks, my arm is getting better but it is still blistered and itchy. This was a
very profound experience for me - somewhere between and out of body experience
and an alien experience. I don't know what it was that I was in the presence of
- and it bothers me that I can't make good on my vow to "spend the rest of my
life telling people that he exists" when I don't know really what or who 'he'
is. I do know that I had a very profound sense that this was real - and not a
dream. I know the difference between a dream, a dream that seems real, and an
'experience'. Lastly -
Remembering my family and how they still needed me...but left with the
overwhelming feeling that this separation was only temporary - that I would be
back.
Any associated medications
or substances with the potential to affect the experience?
Uncertain I was in the
hospital under many medications.
Was the kind of experience
difficult to express in words?
No
At the time of this
experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
No
What was your level of
consciousness and alertness during the experience?
Resting a few days after 2
traumatic surgeries.
Was the
experience dream like in any way?
No
Did you experience a
separation of your consciousness from your body?
Yes I was separated from my
body because in the end I had to come back into my body - but I remember
"standing" on the black silk sea, I remember looking at my feet (sort of
remember 'dancing' in rain???)
What emotions did you feel
during the experience?
At first - complete separation
from the world - not even a thought of anything except what I was seeing/doing.
Did you hear any unusual
sounds or noises?
Just the sound of the being
telling me the word "together". Maybe the sound of rain.
LOCATION DESCRIPTION:
Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar
religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or
amazing creatures?
No
Did you see a light?
Yes A bright purple
light in a distance - as if from a huge doorway
Did you meet or see any other
beings? Yes
Felt their presence, felt the 'hug' goodbye, but did not see anything except the
orb with lights.
Did you experiment while out
of the body or in another, altered state?
No
Did you observe or hear
anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be
verified later?
No
Did you notice how your 5
senses were working, and if so, how were they different?
Yes I could see color,
movement, and I could hear his voice, but that is all.
Were you involved in or aware
of a decision regarding your return to the body?
Yes I said I had to get back
to my kids, and the being agreed.
How has the experience
affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career
choices? It has only
been a few weeks since the experience. I am still at home recovering - and
contemplating.
Has your life changed
specifically as a result of your experience?
No
Have you shared this
experience with others?
Yes My family - they haven't
said much. It didn't happen during the surgery where I was in trouble - it was
afterward - and very much subdued, peaceful experience.
What emotions did you
experience following your experience?
Mostly Curiosity.
What was the best and worst
part of your experience?
No worst part, no part of the
experience was bad.
Is
there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
No
Did
the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively
describe your experience?
Yes
Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.
Nope -
good questionnaire. Thanks for listening.