Tami C's Experience
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Experience description:
My mother had always told me not to discuss what I saw to anyone else, I thought she really meant that this was a personal, private and family thing that was not discussed with people outside the family. I had always had the obe's, and thought they were normal, that everyone did that. I believe it was because of my parents response that I just continued to have them until I told my girlfriend what we were going to do and she said I was crazy and no one could do that. What a blow that was! We were 15 years old and I had seen she and I in some activity but when I shared with her that I knew we were going to do this (this was at the time we were engaged in the activity I had seen) she was totally in rejection of what I said. I told her the next time I saw us doing something together
I would tell her before and prove to her that I was not lying. Being thought a liar was really a blow, having been raised that you do not lie in any circumstance. Later I did describe to her exactly what we did, where we went, what we wore and how we acted and later when it came about I remembered and said now do you believe I am not lying? look at what you are wearing and what I am wearing. That was also the last time I ever had experiences exactly as all of them had been up to that time, I believe that once I found out I was not "normal" I willed myself subconsciously to be "normal" and lost the easy access I had had till then. You must remember this was in the 40's and 50's, if articles or books existed I knew nothing of them, nothing was ever spoken of this nor was anything on television about this. My experiences were all the same during those years, I would find myself floating above a scene in this world and watch with curiosity until I was "back". They were exactly as though you look around wherever you are now and whatever you see or hear I would see and hear, the only difference is that I was always above the scenery. Very importantly everyone of my trips always happened exactly as I had seen it at the time it was supposed to happen and never deviated in the smallest detail. They did actually happen while I was standing in the outfield playing baseball, I came back to my cousin calling my name, I believe I was swaying on my feet. I still do things, like go directly to my husband when I have absolutely no idea where he is and have never been there nor knew anything about the place before, I just needed to find my husband and drove to where he was, through a large town, down an alley and through a backdoor to find him where I was sure he would be. I did not KNOW the name of where he was nor did I get any direction I could just hone in to him. Drove 50 miles while asleep once when I was exhausted during a family emergency and woke when I parked in front of the house, that I believe was my guardian angel. Little things like taking bread or toilet paper, etc to families home, I would just find the item in my hand as I was walking out the door. Used to turn around and leave it at home until my mother would ask me to run to the store for her to pick up whatever I had left at home. Came home from work early once after telling my boss I had to leave (not knowing why, just a feeling of urgency). My middle son was riding to work with me at that time and as I got close to where I would usually pick him up I felt a strong urge to go to his job even though logically I knew it would be hours before he was off. I drove over anyway thinking it would be a short trip out of the way in any case, but there he stood waiting on me. He had gotten laid off at noon and was standing there wondering how in the world he was going to get all the way home. Also I have been saved from certain death a few times by warnings that changed what I would have done. God is Good.
Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? No
What was your
level of consciousness and alertness during the experience? normal life, maybe at times while I slept, I really do not know. I only remember when I was just going about a normal day doing whatever.
Was the experience dream like in any way? Not at all, it was like passing from one room to another if you can allow for floating above and somewhere, usually behind yourself in the next room.
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Yes I was floating above a scene in my life but from the future.
About 10 feet high or so, and would follow my self in a future day for whatever distance the experience lasted. My future self would talk, laugh, play whatever and my other self would watch, but "I" was the floating one, even though I was no less the one walking also.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Curiosity mostly, never fear or concern. But as I said before I do not know of a time I did not do this.
Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state? No response
I did not try to
change anything. Strictly an observer.
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? Yes As I said it always happened, usually within three months of viewing it, exactly in the smallest detail as I had seen it.
Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different? Yes I had all my normal senses and they were the only ones I had, nothing unusual
Did you have any sense of altered space or time?
Yes I knew I was in the future but nothing about getting there. I would just be there and returning just as quickly, I would just be back .
Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? No well, later in life I did know where to go or what to do, but no special revelation.
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No
Did you become aware of future events?
Yes always accurate to smallest detail as I have said. I was there like you are wherever you are now.
Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body? No
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience? No just always had whatever was needed at the time, but I cannot sit down and make myself do anything, it just happens when it is needed.
Did you have any changes
of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? No I always have had a deep faith in God.
How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices? People think I am strange, I think. Especially if I tell them anything. I am a loner, I love people but don't have much in common with most so usually will avoid them. If I am in a social situation I do enjoy the time Ii am there, just hate the getting ready and going.
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? No Only
during the time at 20 years old when I had a cardiac arrest and woke up 3 days later with a residue of an overwhelming cloak of pure love, I do wish I could keep that always, but then you can not live in this world with That much love or you would not live long enough sense nothing anyone can do to you would make you fight for your life, you would still just be concerned for them , I believe.
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes My parents have passed away now, I wish I had asked them when was the time I first started these and what they thought of it all.
What emotions did you experience following your experience? Nothing unusual, just right back to whatever I was doing.
What was the best and worst part of your experience? The best is knowing that God cares for us and protects us even in the smallest of conditions, The worse was when I was not believed and found out that not everyone did these things. up to that time I thought we all did on a daily basis. I just thought no one talked about their experiences because it was a personal thing.
Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
Not really, I could fill a volume with different things, but they are mostly trivial and of no consequence.
Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Uncertain I'm not sure if you are interested in just a daily occurrence like these, but have often wanted to share some of my experiences.
Please offer any suggestions you
may have to improve this questionnaire. the questions are thorough for a one time experience I think