Suzette J's Experience
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Experience description:
Saturday 7th July
at 16.30h
It was a Saturday
afternoon as usual. On this day I decided to go to the market close by,
getting a pizza and some cheese that we were finally eating on the spot. It
was a magnificent sunny day.
I came home around
14.30h, and decide to take a good little coffee to rest, as a meal without
coffee is simply not possible.
Then I went to take
a shower, started the computer and listened to my music play-list. After
this nice short moment, I laid down on the sofa of my sitting room, I was
taken by a tiredness and decided to take a nap.
No noise
surrounding me, I even put the telephone off.
I'm in this deeply
sleeping state, laying on the back, legs stretched and than I decide to turn
to sleep on my side. I wanted to move my right leg, impossible to lift it. I
tried several times, but to no avail.
So afterwards I
decide to open my eyes and, no reaction. And there something strange
happened, I heard the noise of the wind approaching me. With, in the
background, the sound of a drum.
Regarding
sensations, at the same moment I had the impression that an entity was
entering my whole body through the top of my head.
A disagreeable bad
feeling at the moment of this entering, humming, frictions, and a long and
powerful sound was ringing. I didn't know at that moment if it was a good or
evil person.
I had, all things
considered, this fear of the unknown, and was very scared. And then after a
few seconds, I calmed down as if somebody was dictating it to me. This
humming sound went down at the level of my belly, transformed into a ball of
white translucent light surrounded with blue, that I felt but did not see it
(important). Colors can be perceived at the energetic level. For me it was a
feeling.
Suddenly this light
mounted some 10cm above my belly. And there I don't remember this lapse of
time more or less short. The only thing that I try again and again, is to
get my right leg moving, I realized that I could lift it and get it down but
the problem was this, that I went through the sofa, so no physical contact!
I then got the
awareness that I was at the exterior of my physical body. I positioned
myself at about 10 cm above my outstretched body. I evaluated the distance
between this energy that I felt I was, and my body, which means that I also
felt the vibration of the sofa.
And I could
evaluate the distance approximately. I wanted to be really sure, that I was
not this physical body, and that I was not dreaming.
At those moments,
the fear of the lack of understanding came back. Then I was so frustrated
that I had to stop the experience instantly and couldn't go on with it.
I woke up very
slowly feeling all numb, I think it took about 30 minutes to really wake up.
The most impressive
thing was that when I got up I was so shocked, that I didn't realize what I
had experienced. I remembered it only 3 hrs later, as at the moment it was
so disturbing, that I just wanted to forget it and to think about something
else. So I continued my daily routines like ironing, the kitchen ...
End of my account.
At the time of your
experience was there an associated life-threatening event?
No
Lets use an animal like
a parrot as a guinea-pig and ask him please explain your experience? Coco is
telling his girlfriend Lili, something unbelievable happened to me, you know
what I'm sharing with you, telling us our emotional stories... of our whole
life.
And it is wonderful,
but in this other world, words are much more fluid, filled with as much emotions
of fear, as of joy, to describe to you what I think, with words.
The only solution is
that you are coming with me.
It can be explained,
but I think it's much more difficult to comprehend.
I think I focused on
what happened to me. And without seeing, there where many things to assimilate!
While this happened the
focus that you put to hearing is strong, as the sound is not outside of us, but
is present inside of us, a distinct sound that you perceive at the level of the
head, in my case.
I was too absorbed to
understand what happened to me physically.
There was too much
frustration.
It was sparkling more
or less depending of my thoughts.
I had the impression
that in this realm there was no more time, that everything was slowed down.
Moreover, here we have time surrounding us everywhere, wherever we are, the
world turns around time, as well as people. In this other realm it doesn't
exist, at least not what I could notice until now.
During some time I
didn't recognize myself, I didn't know anymore who I was.
This can be very
disturbing, but at the same time not worse than during the time I felt not good.
Now I know that I'm not
this body of matter.
This was a shock, as
soon as I spoke to myself inside, I got an answer but not through words, but
more through sensations.
And now I know that
this supreme energy is everywhere around us. The energy is everywhere inside of
all matter.
I perceive beings
around myself, and some of them talk to me.
So, yes, when this
happened it was like a revelation for me.
Now I know that any
miracle can happen.
Either it is life or
arriving at a certain limit it is death..
During months I found
it quite difficult inwardly, I didn't know what to do and had nobody to talk
about it, as even I could not understand it, so as of the first day I started to
write down in an agenda all my experiences in every detail.
I felt released of all
this weight.
Then the internet freed
me of all this difficult lack of understanding.
As I didn't know at all
how this could happen, I never made the link with this.
I was distraught and
the only thing I wished was to leave, with no obvious reason, an there, for me,
I was at the last limit.
With a new way to look
at the world, that I was lacking, but that started to come slowly.
Yes, for me this is
part of my reality, and thanks to that I feel better and better, and I started
to develop a taste for life.
Nobody, even not my
relatives could have been of help to me.
Not my family, not a
psychologist, nobody and nothing, seen the stage I was at.
I preferred not to
exist, than somebody telling me that I was sick psychologically.
And now many things
come back to normal, I feel motivated in my whole life, with this impulse to
accomplish new things...
Was the
experience difficult to express in words?
Yes
These
experiences are so strong, that they are difficult to describe with words,
At
what time during the experience were you at your highest level of
consciousness and alertness?
I remember getting
aware of all the details surrounding me, at the moment when I found myself being
paralyzed and when I wanted to turn myself.
How did your
highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to
your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?
More consciousness and
alertness than normal
A completely different
state of consciousness, heavy body, feeling an extraordinary lightness,
sensations of humming, heard a noise of drums, and the breath of air of a power.
Please compare
your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had
immediately prior to the time of the experience.
As I said already, at the moment of my paralysis, I was sleeping so there I
couldn't see anything at all, fact is that while being outside I was above my
physical body, and could not have a vision around myself, as I was so absorbed
to understand why my body was blocked.
Please compare
your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had
immediately prior to the time of the experience.
Before the experience I was aware of outside noises, like the music, noise of
doors, but they were slight background noises, otherwise I would have woken up
for sure.
Did you see or
hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your
consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?
Uncertain
I had not
enough time to experience vision in this experience.
What emotions
did you feel during the experience?
I was relaxed,
stretched out, then when this thing entered my head and stabilized itself with
the noise, I was afraid at that moment, I didn't know what it was, then was told
to calm down, then I did so and after a few minutes this feeling went down to my
belly, incomprehension as I didn't know, then at the same time happiness of the
unknown.
Did you pass
into or through a tunnel?
No
Did you see an
unearthly light?
Yes
Yes, I saw a
white translucent light inside, and blue at the outside of it.
Did you seem to
encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?
I heard a voice
I could not identify
Did you
encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are
described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)?
No
Did you
encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?
No
Did you become
aware of past events in your life during your experience?
No
Did you seem to
enter some other, unearthly world?
Some unfamiliar and
strange place
Yes, another
state that I didn't know, completely different, unknown, of course if you don't
know that's the appropriate term, but a certain peace, a calm, then I had the
impression to feel less alone, as if there was a certain help around and a
certain kind of love, a feeling different of human love.
Did time seem to speed up or
slow down?
Everything seemed to be
happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Did you
suddenly seem to understand everything?
Everything
about the universe
Yes, as of this day my life changed, my way of conceiving life, the
comprehension of my whole past, people, the world, all became clear and a
happiness to live, incomparable to my past.
Did you reach a
boundary or limiting physical structure?
No
Did you come to
a border or point of no return?
No
Did scenes from
the future come to you?
No
During your
experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting
that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (�life
after death�)?
Yes
Yes, for me
life is continuing after death of the physical body.
During your
experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a
supreme being either does (or does not) exist?
Yes
Yes, I felt
vibrations that invaded my whole body.
During your
experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you
either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime?
No
During your
experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a
mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not)
exist? No
During your
experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding
earthly life�s meaning or purpose?
No
During your
experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding
earthly life�s difficulties, challenges, or hardships?
No
During your
experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding
love? Yes
Yes, that
there was something beautiful, of joy and filled with love.
During your
experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that
you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly
lives? No
Did you have a
sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?
Yes
All persons
can have various extrasensory abilities...
What occurred
during your experience included:
Content that was both
consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your
experience
Yes and no, I believed
in some things, but didn't know really in what.
How accurately
do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred
around the time of the experience?
I remember the
experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time
of the experience
I remember when I got
my driving license, and when I celebrated my 18th birthday, those days where
exceptional.., filled with joy and as well as all experiences of going out, or
of altered states of consciousness.. that I had until now, it is the same, it's
as if I experienced it yesterday. It became a part of myself as of the day where
I experienced it. It is a stage like my birth, it is staying engraved.
Discuss any
changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience:
If I had not
received the help of the Universe, whatever sign ... after all this inward bad
feelings, today I would not be at this stage of well-being and happiness, that I
didn't know, with this actual clarity.
My experience directly resulted in:
Large changes in my
life
Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that
occurred as a result of the experience?
Yes
Yes this
changed everything, as knowing who I really was, understanding of others, the
expansion of the Universe, the oneness, life, death ...
Do you have any
psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did
not have before the experience?
Uncertain
As it
happened, that means that I doubtless needed it.
Have you ever shared this experience with others?
No
Did you have
any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?
Uncertain
Yes at the
television I heard about it through short reports.
What did you
believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it
happened:
Experience was definitely real
Like a happiness to be
alive, a new knowledge of life, very disturbing at the same time, but as if I
got a second chance to stay on earth and to live.
What do you
believe about the reality of your experience at the current time:
Experience was
definitely real
Yes very real same as
those that I live actually.
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes
I have
a much more positive look at life.
Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result
of your experience?
Yes
Yes
for me, I don't believe anymore "I live it".
At
any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the
experience?
No
Did
the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and
comprehensively describe your experience?
Yes