Suzanne P's Experience
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Experience description:

My earliest memory was just before birth and suddenly indescribable light and whirling around. Indescribable harmonious melody, peace, oneness with all. Communication was extremely fast like a vibrating buzzing sound within the all engulfing light and a total understanding of the purpose of the event. The event was moving so fast I asked to "please help me remember". 

I am 70 years old now. Throughout my life the experience has continued through lucid dreaming and talking with deceased relatives. When I say "lucid dreaming" I mean "coherent" conversation with real people. I've spoken with my Mother with much apprehension because I knew she was dead. So I asked her, "Mother, you know you are dead don't you? She said "so...what's the difference?" She has talked with me about how she felt about my sister and me and the good times we had together. The lucid dreams always started with a ringing phone and she was on the other end. My Grandson died in an automobile accident at age twenty...killed instantly. He was a difficult child with many problems. I dreamed of a house and saw him walking out the door and he came toward me and took off his baseball cap and said "Grandma, I always knew you felt I wouldn't make much of myself (he had a sad look on his face) then I heard a familiar voice (my Mother's) say...."I'm home" and my Grandson turned and walked toward the house.

What ever happened to me was long, long ago but I will never forget the "feelings" which were indescribable and an indelible stamp on my soul. I've had many surgery's with anesthetics but I keep going back to my birth as the beginning of the experience and I distinctly remember asking to "please help me remember."

 Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes     No worldly words to describe

 At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Uncertain      my mother had several abortions/miscarriages

 At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    The whole time

 How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    More consciousness and alertness than normal

 If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:            The whole time

 Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  Yes     I was not seeing with physical "eyes". I was the landscape, melody, harmony, peace, love, a sense of oneness with all.

 Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
            Yes     This was not a "normal" sensory experience.

 Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Uncertain

 What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Joy, Wholeness, Connection

 Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          Yes     I felt I was on a "path"

 Did you see a light?           Yes     The light was all encompassing, warm, welcoming, peaceful, comforting

 Did you meet or see any other beings?           Uncertain      Communication was high pitched and very fast, pleasant and reassuring..truthful

 Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    Uncertain      Reassurance, ready to resume life on earth, blessed.

 Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Uncertain      The information was coming fast. I felt a sense of calmness and oneness.

 Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?            Yes     A sense of complete oneness, unity, peace, assurance, acceptance. The "light" is indescribable and all encompassing.

 Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   No      

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Yes     Life in this world is meaningful, a stepping stone, one can make a huge difference by action and deed

 Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No       Yes, I was born.

 Did you become aware of future events?       Uncertain              At the time I was not aware of future events. I have since become aware.

 Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     Yes     I experienced being in the womb.

 Have you shared this experience with others?         No      

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    No      

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real    The experience continued to positively affect my life.

 Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?    A life changing event. I am more perceptive, aware, sensitive, grateful, thankful.

 How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real            The experience positively affects my life as I grow older

 Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           Yes     Yes, more positive reaction from those around me.

 Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            No           

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No      

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        No, it changed my entry into this world.

 Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Yes     I feel the experience was/is real and positive toward my relationship with the world.