Susan
D's Experience
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Experience description:
I was very upset about
a personal situation that was causing me much pain and suffering. I had begun
to worry about it so much that, on this particular morning, I'd worked myself
into a state of sheer panic. My heart was pounding so hard I thought I would
have a heart attack. I was pacing the floor, unable to stay calm and praying
very hard to God that he would help me with this situation. At first I was
praying for relief from the problem, but soon began praying that God would help
me calm down physically. I knew my body could not sustain this severe stress
response much longer.
I paced into my kitchen
(I was home alone) and stared out the window into the sky praying and begging
for relief. All of a sudden and out of the blue a perfect calm descended on me
and I heard these simple words clearly in my head: "IT IS NOT TIME. JUST BE."
From that time on I was
fine--perfectly calm and my heart stopped racing. I was almost happy, even. It
was simple, yet amazingly profound. I knew everything was ok.
I felt that God had
taken pity on my distraught condition and loved me enough to help me. I assume
it was the voice of the LORD, but it could have been an angel or some other
heavenly being. I just don't know. But it was from outside myself, yet was
heard within my own mind.
The problem did not
spontaneously resolve that day, or in the weeks after, but my worry and stress
did. I thank God for His love and mercy to me.
Just for clarification,
I am perfectly sane, free of mental problems, and have never before or since
heard a voice in my mind. (And don't expect to.)
Any associated
medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?
No
Was the kind of
experience difficult to express in words?
Yes
How can you
explain that you heard a voice in your head that WAS NOT your own voice? The
extreme calm and cessation of panic occurred immediately after I heard the
voice. I was unable to calm myself prior and had been vigorously praying for
help from God. The complete calm lasted for days after. While the difficult
situation remained, I had a peace about it within me.
At the time of this
experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
No
What was your level of
consciousness and alertness during the experience?
I was awake and alert
and sober and sane.
Was the experience
dream like in any way?
Not in the least.
Did you experience a
separation of your consciousness from your body?
No
What emotions did you
feel during the experience?
At first I was scared,
worried and panicked. At the time of the voice I was overcome with calm and
peace. I have often wondered if this is what is described in the Bible as "the
Peace that passes all understanding." I felt loved by God.
Did you hear any
unusual sounds or noises?
Just that
voice...
Did you recognize any
familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or
encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?
No
Did you see a light?
No
Did you meet or see
any other beings?
No
Did you experiment
while out of the body or in another, altered state?
No
Did you observe or
hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be
verified later?
No
Did you notice how
your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different?
No
Did you have any sense
of altered space or time?
Uncertain
For the brief time
of the voice, time seemed suspended or slower. The only thing in existence was
the voice itself.
Did you have a sense
of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
Yes
Yes. I suddenly
knew that everything was going to be okay. I KNEW this deep within. This
knowledge came with the voice. It was a peace and certainty I cannot explain.
I knew that there was order and purpose to this event and all events in life. I
wasn't even told how everything would work out, I just was given the knowledge
that all is okay and it is always ok.
Did you reach a
boundary or limiting physical structure?
No
Did you become aware
of future events?
No
Did you have any
psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did
not have prior to the experience?
No
Did you have any
changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
Yes
I feel like I
have proof that God really does love us and cares for us individually. I also
now know that there is some kind of plan or order to the universe and everything
is not so random as I had previously thought. Everything really is ok-for all
of us!
Has your life changed
specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes
I trust that
everything is okay and in His hands. I'm going to be alright in this life, no
matter what happens. So is everyone else. We are loved personally!
Have you shared this
experience with others?
Yes
I didn't tell anybody
about it until at least a year later, and then only told three people. (Each of
these people had experienced a paranormal event in their own lives. I figured
they wouldn't think I was crazy.)
I have never told my
husband about this.
What was the best and
worst part of your experience?
The worst part was
having to suffer so badly that that God decided to intervene. The best part was
the relief from the suffering and being amazed that God actually speaks to
people and loves us personally!
Is there anything else
you would like to add concerning the experience?
I cannot in any way
begin to describe how I heard a voice in my own head that WAS NOT me. The whole
experience, though brief and not as profound as other peoples', is
indescribable. I will never forget that day. I am so thankful to God!
Following the
experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or
substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No