Stephanie B
Experience
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Experience description:
Earlier this month I was traveling on the interstate I-70 near Frederick,
MD on my way to Richmond, VA and was carrying a lot of stuff in my car as I was
moving at the time. It was late at night and I had made the decision that I
wasn't far away from home and to just continue the drive. I was traveling at
about 70mph, the posted speed limit and came upon a construction zone very
quickly. I could see the entire road in front of me go dark and there were no
lights other than the construction zone to my right. I could not quite clear the
zone and slammed head on into a piece of construction equipment and the concrete
barrier. My car instantly went airborne and rolled over many times (I counted at
least three), very violently and at a high rate of speed. Eventually I landed in
a ditch and I was screaming and shouting and thought I had died. All I could
hear was the sound of my own voice. I could see the workers standing there and
one of them reached in on the passengers side and held up my head and they were
telling me to calm down while paramedics were arriving. They pulled me out of
the car and while I was traveling in the ambulance I did not feel any turns, it
was a straight shot to the trauma center. I couldn't believe I was still
completely conscious. While in the ambulance I could hear a woman respond to the
paramedics over the phone and she sounded exactly like an old friend and
roommate of mine who had married my ex-husband and I. I was given many tests and
CT scans at the hospital.
While lying on a bed, I heard others around me but I felt myself filling up
with my own water, is the best way to describe it. I met a different version of
my old friend, with the same voice I had heard earlier and she seemed annoyed
with me. I heard someone near me say something about just getting up and
walking. I thought to myself, I cannot believe that I do not feel much pain. The
only pain I felt was at the back of my head and this went away. I sat up with a
neck brace on and my neck didn't hurt. After checking me out the trauma team
released me with no injuries. The taxi driver told me after he saw me and heard
what happened he knew I needed help. I didn't understand how he knew. He and his
car seemed to be from a different era, yet operating in this time. That was not
the only instance of this phenomenon I noticed. When I left, he told me I was
part of the 'world family' and that he was honored to help. Later when I had
access to get things from out of my vehicle, I couldn't believe it when I saw
the damage. The front of the vehicle was practically molded into a tube from all
of the violent rolling. Both doors had been removed and the entire wheel and
axle (had be sheared completely off) were sitting on the drivers seat. The front
windshield was cracked to such a tiny degree that it looked like a mosaic. Stink
bugs were all over my things. Keys were torn out of one of my keyboards. My
sound bar was bent, the subwoofer gashed. Those were just some items in the
trunk. All of this yet I was fine, with only a few bruises. Everyone told me it
was a miracle and they'd never seen anything like it. I was in a parking lot a
few miles from the location of the accident and a man says to me 'we're going to
save your life today'. I didn't even have the words to say anything back. A hair
band was laying on the floor in a perfect trefoil shape another day I woke up.
Other things I noticed like this were common. I am still adjusting to my new
reality. I realize I have been given the chance to live for a reason. I know I
want to help others.
I started to realize that everything was an aspect of me and that we are
all like this. Some additional details of my experience were that items had
materialized within my belongings that I had not brought on the trip such as
papers that were not mine, jewelry that I would best describe as having 'put
itself together' such as an old pendant that I had lost was on a cord from
material I didn't pack. Items and souvenirs in a bag from a trip I had lost.
Some items later appeared by themselves in the same bag that I reported to the
towing company that I searched earlier that were no where to be found. Time
seemed to be in 'sub-periods' of time in itself. A picture on a wall in a hotel
that was blurry the night before and later re-materialized as a scene in an
album I had seen. A saleswoman described a small cross that had broken off of a
necklace I had worn during the crash that I held in my closed hands even before
I ever saw her or went into the store. I bought bread in a store from a woman
that told me it must be good because it actually didn't exist. Another strange
occurrence with time was when I was stopped at a stoplight while I was dropping
my roommate off at work. I saw the light turn green and started the car forward.
A second later my friend says, hey don't go yet the right is red. The previous
day I was attempting to get a rental car and I had to phone the rental service.
They were surprised that I had already picked up the rental as they registered
that no time had passed between the request and the rental.
Also I had an experience two days before the NDE where I sent a text to the
letters 'Jesus' that I was confused at the events that were happening to me and
the response back some time later that 'circumstances can be uncertain when you
not able to see clearly'. I attended the Veneration of the Cross service that
Sunday at my church in Minneapolis. The church service could be best described
as otherworldly. The church itself seemed too look different than what I was
used to and objects looked as if they were made in heaven. The lighting was
luminous, unlike any light I had seen on earth. I heard voices and singing which
I could not see the participants actually singing. There was one voice in
particular which was markedly higher than the other voices. It sounded like it
could be an angel? After the service, I walked up to receive bread from the
father. He handed me a small wooden Jerusalem cross which smelled like it was
just smoked. That same small cross broke off of my neck and the bottom portion
was found in the wreckage of the vehicle. I had been in Minneapolis briefly and
was to speak with the Father about conversion on that day. After the text from
Jesus I immediately had the thought I needed to have my eyes checked as I had
not done so in over twenty years. The eye doctor stated that I had super human
vision of 10/20. It was that I only needed eye drops to clear the blurriness. It
was three days later that the accident occurred in Mt Airy, MD.
At the time
of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?
Yes
My car was traveling at 70mph on an
interstate when I saw the road in front of me turn black. I had seen
construction signs before the accident and the only area to escape this was the
construction zone to my right. I did not have much time to clear the area and
hit the construction equipment and the car flipped and rolled violently.
Was the experience
difficult to express in words?
Yes
I cannot describe some of it because time
and the sequence of events did not follow our notions of normal time
At what time during the
experience were you at your highest level of
consciousness and alertness?
Just before the accident
How did your highest level
of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal
everyday consciousness and alertness?
More consciousness and alertness than normal
I was aware just before I hit the construction zone, I felt like I felt
everything in the universe at once, is the best way to describe it. I felt
everyone's happiness and hope and joy as well as sadness and grief.
Please
compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had
immediately prior to the time of the experience.
It was somewhat blurry before the experience and now clear that I am using the
eyedrops after the conversation I had with 'Jesus'.
Please
compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had
immediately prior to the time of the experience.
My hearing has always been better than normal, this
did not change.
Did you see
or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your
consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?
Yes
I was conscious but I could hear familiar
voices, like my friends voice over the ambulance radio.
What emotions did you feel
during the experience?
I felt wonder, timelessness, a feeling of the
present moment, no future or past existing
Did you pass into or
through a tunnel?
Uncertain
I saw the entire road and everything turn
black, the only thing I could see was the lighted construction area which I had
no choice to turn my vehicle towards.
Did you see an unearthly
light?
Yes
I would see the unearthly light when I
would make decisions that would help others. When I was moving out of my
apartment a few days after the accident an incredibly bright light came through
my window, it was so bright that it was blinding and did not dissipate even up
to the point in which I left. The other unearthly lights were at the church
service.
Did
you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable
voice?
I heard a voice I could not identify
Upon waking after the accident one morning, I
heard an otherworldly voice say with wisdom that I needed to wake up.
Did you encounter or
become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by
name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)?
Yes
Yes, Jesus was present during this
experience with the text message about my vision and me finding out that I had
superhuman vision.
Did
you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?
Yes
I believe that after I left the hospital
in Baltimore a deceased friend of my grandfather met the nurse and I and
discussed the taxi that was to take me home. I saw the same man later in
Richmond across from the car rental facility.
Did
you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?
Yes
These past events felt like present
events. I felt like all events I had experienced in the past were actually all
happening at once.
Did
you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?
Some unfamiliar and strange place
There was a time just
before the accident where I thought I had driven into heaven. The road signs
were different and unusual and the people seemed to live on this earth but that
were outside of this dimension. I even saw some license plates with 'Kingdom (of
Heaven)'.
Did time seem
to speed up or slow down?
Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or
lost all meaning
Yes, please see my
description of time in my summary. It seemed as if I was creating time based on
my own observations and responses. If I was nervous or acted quickly, time would
speed up. At the eye doctor, I noticed that if I waited just a few seconds
longer to respond I would see that the people I was speaking to would actually
forget what they just said.
Did
you suddenly seem to understand everything?
Everything about the universe
It felt as if I was apart of everything and that
everything was a part of me. I sensed that no being is more important than the
other and that we can all have equally as great of affect on one another no
matter how 'popular' a person is.
Did you reach a boundary
or limiting physical structure?
Yes
As I was driving I could no longer see any of the
road in front of me, it was like boundary void
Did
you come to a border or point of no return?
I came to a definite conscious decision to return to life
I didn't have any choice, it seemed as if I was
supposed to hit that barrier
Did scenes from the
future come to you?
Scenes from the world's future
It was more of a feeling than a scene really? I
would say that it seemed like humanity is creating its own chaotic events on a
personal scale adding to a collective consciousness of this.
During
your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly
life (“life after death”)?
Yes
From my experience, it's as if new
experiences or if possible timelines are created from our own experiences and
that we are actually the one's creating new life. The experience at the hospital
of coming out of a violent high speed car crash and all of the events leading up
to it and after and that I still have awareness of my existence and others have
awareness of me.
During
your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God
or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist?
Yes
I did actually write a 'letter' to God in
detail two months prior to the accident asking him what was going on with me and
if he could show me in any way. I feel as if this was answered, as well as my
encounter with Jesus and my vision.
During
your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you
either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime?
Yes
There were papers and items that were not
packed with me in my car for the trip and that I hadn't even seen before that
ended up in the accident wreckage that may prove multiple timelines exist and
that I did not exist in the same timeline as the me that packed those papers.
During
your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a
mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist?
Yes
I feel that after the accident we are all
connected, I could see how we are all part of the same consciousness.
During your experience,
did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s
meaning or purpose?
Yes
I experienced that the challenges and
difficulties we create ourselves because we need to learn that we never actually
need to worry about anything. Experiences are in and of themselves to be
appreciated and lived to the fullest, it has nothing to do with time, because
attaching time causes expectations and expectations can lead to disappointment.
During your experience,
did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s
difficulties, challenges, or hardships?
Yes
I experienced that the challenges and
difficulties we create ourselves because we need to learn that we never actually
need to worry about anything. Experiences are in and of themselves to be
appreciated and lived to the fullest, it has nothing to do with time, because
attaching time causes expectations and expectations can lead to disappointment.
During your experience,
did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love?
Yes
I learned that the male counterpart to me
is me. The single most important thing I learned about love is that it is not
harmonious when we operate with expectations. This goes back to the notion of
time. The most obvious example of this was at the church service. The male side
of the congregation did the holy kiss at a different time than the female side,
just slightly before. They had actually heard the service at a different rate
than the female side (!)
During your experience,
did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not
shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives?
No
Did you have a sense of
knowing special knowledge or purpose?
Yes
This knowledge is not necessarily special,
but I do feel as though I was allowed to see everything as it occurred with no
kind of 'glasses' but I could see it for what it was. This goes back to the
strange experiences of time. I was checking a voicemail and heard three
different recordings go off at the same time. The same events happened when I
was at a store. I could hear
'echoes' of events as if I was observing them at the same time
but on different timelines (I'm not sure if my description makes any
sense)
What occurred during your
experience included:
Content that was both consistent and not consistent
with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
I would never have believed some of the events which I had experienced
prior to and after the accident. I do have an open mind but I had no idea that
some of the experiences with time and different but simultaneous realities could
actually occur. I may have heard them mentioned as only theory but to actually
experience it is a different thing altogether.
How accurately do you
remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around
the time of the experience?
I remember the experience more accurately than
other life events that occurred around the time of th
Because of the nature of the events, it makes this experience stand out to
me and I have forgotten little since I occurred.
Discuss any changes
that might have occurred in your life after your experience:
I no longer have any fear, I have respect for all
life on this planet and I understand and have seen everything is highly valued
and is important and equally
My
experience directly resulted in:
Large changes in my life
Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that
occurred as a result of the experience?
Yes
Importance of compassion, patience, resilience, respect for others and all
life
Do you
have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that
you did not have before the experience?
Yes
I can see things just before they actually
happen, I can see in brilliant colors
Are there one or several parts of your experience
that are especially meaningful or significant to you?
I feel that my other half, the male part of me wanted me to experience this
but he was no where to be found before, after or during the experiences. I find
that especially significant but I do not know why yet.
Have you ever shared this experience with others?
Yes
I shared it the next day, they all believe
it is a miracle and that I am blessed to help others see a new awareness
Did you have any knowledge
of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?
Yes
I had a prior NDE where I went unconscious
for no reason. I believe I may have met relatives because witnesses said they
'could hear me speaking to others'. This was a different NDE and the experience
was different but I do feel as if they same beings could have been involved with
this NDE to increase awareness.
What did you believe about
the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:
Experience was definitely real
I believed it was real because I could
compare it with others experiences at the same time.
What do you believe about
the reality of your experience at the current time:
Experience was definitely real
I still believe it really happened due to
the amount of evidence that I still currently have.
Have your relationships
changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes
I find it much easier to communicate with others
and share with others since the experience. Before that I was very shy and aloof
and even afraid of others.
Have your religious
beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?
No
At
any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?
Uncertain
Not that much time as passed after the
experience that I had and this report.
Is there anything else
that you would like to add about your experience?
I feel that due to the awkwardness of this experience and the
large amount of evidence and that fact that I can remember it I can help others
who are suffering from depression, fear or uncertainty.
Did
the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and
comprehensively describe your experience?
Yes
I do feel as though I described my
experience accurately with the questions provided.
Are there any other questions that
we could ask to help you communicate your experience?
I think these questions are sufficient