Experience description:

Fifteen months after the passing of my wife, of 25 years, I was experimenting with binaural-beats to deepen my new practice of meditation. I had taken up open-awareness meditation to help me overcome my deep grief. Using a binaural-beat generator, I created a theta brainwave induction process (sleep) and a delta (deep sleep) brainwave induction process. After mastering the theta process without falling asleep, I began using the delta process. During my second delta induction, I suddenly became aware the only conscious awareness I was experiencing was the awareness of having no other conscious awareness. I was in a sheltering dark void. I slowly became aware that my body felt like I was floating. I knew I was sitting, but I could feel no bodily pressure points. A wave of unexplained euphoria overwhelmed me without words of recognition or explanation. I began to feel like I was drifting toward some beautiful unknown place. I experienced looking down on a large grassland valley surrounded by foothills. There were several buffalo grazing in the valley. I saw a young Native American man standing on a distant foothill guarding a remuda of horses tethered to a long rope at the bottom of the foothill behind him. Then I experienced being in the body of the Native American and realized I am him and I am a Lakota Sioux warrior loved and honored by my tribe for my bravery. I looked down at my leather pant legs and moccasins. I felt, then saw the strands of my long black hair. I could see three-hundred sixty degrees around me and knew the Lakota native could not see what I was seeing. It was nearing nightfall and I saw two Pawnee Natives skulking among the horses, but I knew I was unable to warn the Lakota native. I knew the Pawnee were enemies of the Lakota and these natives were there to steal some horses. I saw my outstretched arms, as the Lakota native, wrapped a hairy buffalo hide around his shoulders. I left the Lakota's body and saw one of the Pawnee's unsheathe an arrow, load his bow, and let the arrow fly. The arrow pierced the buffalo hide and penetrated deep into the Lakota beneath his left shoulder blade. Blood gushed from the Lakota's mouth and nose as he fell dead. The next thing I witnessed was a young Lakota woman finding her man dead on the hill. She screamed his name that sounded like do-con or to-con. I knew at that moment she was the incarnation of my current deceased wife Renee and that we are soulmates. I wanted to ascend to the afterlife, but something was barring that.

I suddenly left that vision and entered a series of quick flashes of the Lakota's life before he was slain. Next I saw the Lakota sitting with a French trapper on stacks of pelts. We were drinking whiskey and he let me fire his muzzle-loader rifle at a tree. The recoil knocked me off the pelts and we laughed without sound. In the next vision, I was standing in the general store in aa small white-man's village. I handed the proprietor a bladder of gold nuggets and he handed me a burlap sack. As he counted and then put the nuggets in a register, I loaded the sack with whiskey bottles, ammunition, a powder-horn, and grabbed a musket. The angry proprietor approached me and tried to wrestle the musket from me. In the struggle he bashed me in the head with the musket butt. My head was bleeding as I pulled my knife out and stabbed him in the heart. I rolled him in a carpet and dragged his body behind the counter. I saw myself slowly ride my pinto horse out of the village. In the next flash vision, I was tethered to a tall maypole by long strands of leather strips attached to two sharpened eagle thigh bones piercing my skin just above my nipples. I knew I was doing the ceremonial Sundance to repent killing the proprietor and hopefully protect our tribe from revenge. In the last flash vision, I was riding my running pinto beside a running buffalo. I placed my hunting lance across my horse's neck and thrust it down into the buffalo's heart area killing it. I jumped off my horse, drew my knife, and cut the buffalo's throat. In the distance I saw my young soulmate waving. We both smiled as I returned her wave.

I left the vision and reentered the sheltering void. I once again experienced euphoria as I realized I was back at home, but didn't know what day it was, what room I was in, or what time of day it was. I felt the pressure points of being seated as I opened my eyes, looked at the clock, and saw I had been in this trance state for three hours. The one hour recorded delta induction had been off for two hours. My eyes welled with tears of joy and I laughed as I realized the vision revealed everything I've experienced thus far in life, was preparation for now knowing my true being, my purpose in life, and now how to fulfill my destiny. My grief was replaced by purpose driven wonderful memories of my soulmate and my renewed purpose in life as a professional and as a humane-being facilitating triumphs of the human spirit in everyone I encounter.

In the years that have followed this experience, I have experienced an abundance of synchronicities that validate my visionary experience is real. I researched Lakota boy names and discovered the name TUNKAN (Toon-Kahn) is Lakota for stone of creation. My name Stan, is very old English for stone. As a Vietnam era veteran who served as an infantry soldier, I went to the veterans administration for an Agent Orange Exam. I have a scar on my left lung below my shoulder blade. The doctor said this is typical of tuberculosis, but I've never had that disease. The scar is in the same place where Tunkan was shot by the arrow. As a very young child my playground was the forest and I had feather I put in a bandana around my head and I carried a rubber tomahawk. I've been a nature lover, a fisherman all my life, and was a hunter before being drafted in the army. I learned all kinds of animal calls and still call them today when I wade fish in Florida salt marshes. After pleading for years, at age twelve my father bought me a pinto horse that I broke and trained. There are many more synchronicities.

I was unable to enter a heavenly afterlife, but I feel experiencing my prior life is meant to serve my spiritual purpose in the rest of this life. I wonder if what I experienced as Tunkan is a reciprocation for Tunkan's possible NDE in seeing his future life as me with our soulmate.

At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?   No 

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  No    

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?      When I realized I am the reincarnation of a Native American.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?      More consciousness and alertness than normal   I knew everything I was experiencing was going to reveal it's meaning and purpose.

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   Except in meditation my everyday visions have rambling loose connections and often seem meaningless. My regression vision was lucid, sequential, tightly connected, and was purpose driven.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   I heard very little during the vision, the actions were packed with knowing and feeling.

Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?   No  

What emotions did you feel during the experience?   Anticipation of meaningful and purposeful actions. A general sense of love permeated the whole experience.  

Did you pass into or through a tunnel?   No  

Did you see an unearthly light?   No  

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?   No


Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)?   No  

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?   Yes   I saw the previous incarnation of my current deceased wife.

Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?   No  

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?   Some unfamiliar and strange place
I was in a beautiful earthly landscape I've never visited in my current life.

Did time seem to speed up or slow down?   Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
As my vision continued to sequentially change, time had no place or meaning.

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?   Everything about myself or others
The events of my past, present, and destiny flowed with meaning and purpose.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?   Yes
I was unable to enter the afterlife.

Did you come to a border or point of no return?   No

Did scenes from the future come to you?  No 

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (“life after death”)?   Yes   The vision verified my scientific knowing that all creation is by intelligent design that everyone is eternally and infinitely connected to.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime?   Yes   I experienced my previous life.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose?   Yes   I felt a knowing  that what I was experiencing was filled with meaning and purpose that would be eventually revealed to me.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s difficulties, challenges, or hardships?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love?   Yes   I felt the whole experience was permeated with infinite love.

During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives?   No  

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?   Yes   I felt that during the whole experience that past, present, and destiny meaning and purpose would be revealed.

What occurred during your experience included:   Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience   I know as a behaviorist, that everything has meaning or purpose, even though I may not yet be aware of them. I was immediately unaware of the purpose and meaning of vision events, but 'knew' that awareness would be forthcoming.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience?   I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of th   The events I experienced were validated by numerous synchronicities in my current life.

Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience:   Life is a past, present, and future continuance of meaning and purpose wherein time has no relevance.

My experience directly resulted in:   Large changes in my life

Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience?   Yes   After the experience I realized all that has happened in my current life had to happen pursuant to my true beings purpose in all my lives.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience?   Yes   I read people's unexpressed emotions more clearly.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you?     My past life as a Native American explains my lifelong love of and spiritual connection to nature and my fellow humane-beings.

Have you ever shared this experience with others?   No 

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?   Yes   I am a psychology major and was exposed to NDE information in course work.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:   Experience was definitely real   My past and present purposes in life continued to be validated by numerous synchronicities following the experience. My destiny to facilitate others in realizing a triumph of the human spirit is renewed.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time:   Experience was definitely real   Because I was in a between lives dimension filled with love that proved to me it is a continuum wherein love is the only eternal and infinite reality.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?   Yes   No

Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?      Yes

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?   My current life is a continuance of upgrading my values and purpose realized in my prior life.   As a behavioral scientist I believed that everything from subatomic particles to the entire cosmos falls into patterns and all these patterns fall in various orders. In science the presence of order implies intelligence, thus everything exists by intelligent design. After my visionary experience, I no longer believe this, I know it is true.

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience?   Yes

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?   It was comprehensive, through, and well organized.   Coordinate their scientific NDE findings with scientific life between lives hypnotic regression research and the University of Virginia's Division of Perceptual Studies research on reincarnated children.