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The first instance of my double was my daughter and friend "A" who heard my loud shrill whistle from the kitchen while I was quietly in my bed 30 feet away just almost asleep, except for their shrieking and giggling that I wanted to stop.  

The second instance was the shower/horse stall episode where I hesitated on the steps and went to shower instead of feed. I gathered clothes while the phone rang and my daughter and friend "B" were raiding the fridge and chatting. I came to accuse them (after I screamed at the top of my lungs) of not coming to get the phone for me, they went pale/screamed and asked how I'd gotten from the stalls to the hallway with my clothes in less than a second. The friend "B" even told me she'd been in my room just before the phone stopped ringing: she hadn't seen me, I hadn't seen her. I separated the girls and asked them both for details to which they corroborated exactly.  

The third incident was when I was exhausted ( a hallmark of when my double is seen) and picking apples on a ladder in our orchard to jam and can with a friend. With a skirt full of apples my son rounded the corner of the house and looked ashen when he asked why he just saw me walking into the greenhouse, just about 10 feet from where he stood. He explained that I looked "misty" and then just vanished.  

The fourth incident was when my son was messing with the goats and teasing them (an activity I've forbidden him to do) He looked at a bush near our kitchen door and I was there from the waist up, as he described: "ten times my usual size" and just looming at him glaring. He stopped messing with the goats!  

The fifth incident was when I had hemorrhaged at a hospital on a Sunday last Fall. The phlebotomist who was checking my hemoglobin that evening said "Hi, nice to see you again". I told her I hadn't seen her, to which she gave me the classic "don't call me a liar" look, and explained that not only had she seen me the day before on her shift, but clearly remembered my name and having had talked with me (I was out of it the Sunday the ambulance brought me in and could barely life my head off my pillow, let alone carry on a conversation on the verge of a needing a blood transfusion.) In hindsight, I couldn't have talked with her earlier even if she was mistaken about talking to me the day before instead of earlier Sunday. I'd gotten just enough strength back that evening to answer short questions. The day she reported seeing me, I was at a Bar-B-Que 20 miles away with multiple witnesses, went home and night and went to bed without leaving my town.  

The sixth incident was just a short while later when I went for a checkup after I'd gotten my hemoglobin back up on bed rest at home. I usually do my own carpentry, but was too weak still and with winter coming on, I hired a friend to replace three failed windows. I was with him the whole day and remembered at the last second about my checkup. I raced to the appointment and when the doctor came in she looked me up and down and said "I saw you earlier today" to which I replied that she hadn't and got the classic "look". She went on to describe me, my clothes I was wearing, my hair etc. and insisted it was me. I just replied that a lot of people were saying that these days ..and changed the subject.  

The seventh incident was when my son and his friend were talking with me near our loganberry patch and my son suddenly said, "hey, there you are coming from the kitchen. But it's not you, it's just your dress with the red flowers with no head, arms or legs". I turned around and nothing was there. His little friend was turned away at the time and didn't see anything; she was facing him as was I and looking the opposite direction.  

The eighth incident was my tenants, which are a man and wife, their adult son and girlfriend, all saw me walking with someone else as clear as day up at the main house just a fifty feet away. The wife had something she wanted to tell me, and they turned to see me there. The others urged her to run up just before they left and tell me; to which she did. As she approached with her husband seconds later, I simply "vanished" before their eyes. Apparently the son and girlfriend hadn't followed the action and were fussing with their car. They thought I'd run off, again since their brains couldn't compute that kind of info like vanishing, they ran around the house, barns, shop etc. and could not locate me or the person I was with: apparently a man... when I asked if they were certain it was me or maybe someone else come to see if I was home, they all simultaneously insisted (with that classic "don't you call me a liar" insistence that I've become familiar with in witnesses) it was absolutely me. I've stated before I have unusual angular features and am very distinct looking in frame and form.  

Then it dawned on them when they didn't see my car around that I had left early that morning to drive to a town some 300 miles distant to drop my daughter off on a flight to Chicago. They still pounded on my door and no one answered.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     No      

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes    

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Uncertain      It was discovered during this period that I may have been slowly becoming critically anemic due to excessive fibroid bleeding in my uterus each period I would have.

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?           Conscious, but extremely fatigued in each case.
            Was the experience dream like in any way?   Sort of, in that now my dreams and waking state seem to overlap, commonly when I am tired.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Uncertain      Again, from my perspective I didn't notice anything very unusual, yet certainly a separation of some sort must have happened.  People commonly call this a "doppelganger".  I think this website should have a separate category for that phenomenon, even though I suspect it's all interrelated.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Fatigue.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           No, only that in one case I was SCREAMING at the top of my lungs and my daughter and her friend apparently did not hear me at all just 20 +- feet away down the hall with open doors.

LOCATION DESCRIPTION:  Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?    No           

Did you see a light?           No      

Did you meet or see any other beings?           No      

Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state? No      

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Uncertain      Actually it was what I didn't observe that was curious.  Apparently in the phone-ringing case my daughter's friend reports that she entered the room I was in as the phone rang there, but it stopped just as she came in.  Then she went back to the kitchen.  She didn't see me in there getting my clothes and I didn't see her come in.  Which is impossible since that room is open and anyone would've seen another as clearly as day.

Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different?          Yes     I was tired in all cases, and my senses felt a bit numb.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes     Time seemed to freeze.  Well it must have?

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    No      

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?             No      

Did you become aware of future events?       No      

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?       No      

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?   Yes     Since then I have been able to read people's thoughts at random, again especially when I'm tired.  Also curious is that very young children now will stop in their tracks, look right at me and start smiling a huge beaming smile...to where their parents need to pull them away..apologizing, with the child still craning around to see me as s/he walks away.  Also, animals will either warm right up to me or go berserk, again when I'm especially tired.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes     I realize that our concepts of space and time are limited and that we need to look into alternative ways of describing these phenomenon.  I believe for sure that the spirit is very capable not only of existence beyond the body, but somehow of projecting an image of solidity as well.  And this gets me to thinking that all solidity, or "physical" mass, is merely a projection of thought.

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?       Oh my goodness...where to begin?  Well I'm left with feeling disconnected with humanities obsession with the mundane details of daily life...to put it in a nutshell (pun?).  I see right to the heart of things and when I mention this, people are instantly offended, usually in direct proportion to how much I nailed the bulls eye.  I find people's defensiveness about their egos and their quirks of behavior very tiresome.  I delight when I stumble over someone who has had the same "shift" as I have.  The energy exchange is somehow more easy to tolerate.  I guess people fixated in their routines just wear me out now.  And this is a lonely thing since SO MANY people are like this.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Yes     Yes, now I have to rearrange my priorities in line with the new concept I have of what is real and what isn't.  I thought things that were real were solid objects.  Now I'm not so sure.  Yet I also know that we must behave as if they were or things could get rocky really fast.

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     Well, the one friend of my daughter with the phone incident refused thereafter to ever come back to our house..their friendship shattered soon thereafter.  People usually get really freaked out.  Why shouldn't they?  What I'm saying goes against every bit of "common knowledge" they've had since they were knee-high.

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  Marvel. Surprise.  A little fear, due mostly to the assumption that doppelgangers usually herald the person's imminent death.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      Best: knowing that there is more to life than we think.  This gives me hope.