Seba M's Experience
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Experience description:
My cousins and
I (all children) were at a family gathering at a rented summer cottage. There
was a narrow river channel leading to a lake, with a sandy beach - all in front
of the cottages. Across the river channel was a little island and we kids
decided we would cross to it (only a few yards), thinking we could walk/wade
across. Only one of the five of us could swim - and it wasn't me! Anyway, we
held hands and started across. The water was up to our necks and suddenly when
must have stepped into a drop-off, a deeper part of the channel. There was a
lot of screaming and panic.
I was in water
over my head and suddenly I could see myself! There I was, in my swimsuit, my
hands and arms crossed reaching up to my throat and chest. My mouth was open
and I was screaming under water. My long hair was flowing in the water well up
over my head. My eyes were open. Then I saw my eyes open wide (in what?
disbelief?) when the "me" that I was looking at, looked back! I was not in that
body that was me, though I knew it was still me, but I was also across from that
body, looking back at it! Like I was looking at someone else, but it was me.
And to see your own eyes go wide, wow.
In the next
instant, I was on my hands and knees and felt sand. I crawled up out of the
water onto the beach. We were all gasping and choking, but were very fortunate
to avoid tragedy that day. The memory of that event will always be with me. I
have often thought about it, tried to analyze it, but it is without explanation,
except that it seems to be that "something" must have left my body and was
taking a good look at me/the situation and assessing what was going on, what to
do. In recent years I've wondered about something else. When I saw the eyes in
my body go wide at what it was looking at, what was it seeing? I'd always
assumed another me (in same body form), but who knows? Although I was looking
back at my own drowning body, I have no idea what form "I" was in at that
point. I don't think I'll ever know, but it is intriguing.
Any
associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the
experience?
No
Was
the kind of experience difficult to express in words?
Yes
How
on earth can you describe seeing yourself as you drown and that you are looking
back?! At loss for words.
At
the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening
event?
Yes
near
drowning
What
was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?
fully
conscious and alert
Was the
experience dream like in any way?
no
Did
you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
No
I
don't know my own appearance or form apart from my body (see above), but I was
aware of being separate from my body, looking back at it, but my body was also
very much awake and looking back at me!
What
emotions did you feel during the experience?
shock,
disbelief
Did
you hear any unusual sounds or noises?
no
Did
you see a light?
No
Did
you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they
different?
Yes
very
acute senses
Were
you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?
Uncertain
I
believe that the situation was being assessed as to whether or not "it" should
return to my body.
Did
you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience
that you did not have prior to the experience?
No
Did
you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
Uncertain
only
confusion, doubt
How
has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices?
Career choices?
hasn't
Has
your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Uncertain
It is
very possible that this experience has changed my life, but I wouldn't know it
because I was only a child when it happened and had have nothing to compare it
to. It could have had an effect on me that I don't know about, I suppose.
Have
you shared this experience with others?
Yes
I am
very careful who I share this with. Some look at me like I'm spinning a yarn
and I resent that because I am an intelligent, practical, sensitive person who
doesn't make things up. Other people are fascinated or intrigued. In general,
it seems to offer hope that there is more to our existence, another level of
being beyond this one.
What
emotions did you experience following your experience?
puzzled,
confused
What
was the best and worst part of your experience?
no best part to
it. worst part -fear and panic at nearly drowning. To this day I don't like
going into water. As far as the out of body experience, no best or worst part.
Fascinating, intriguing. It just "was". It must have happened very quickly -
too quickly to say anything about "parts" of it.
Is
there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
Because
this happened as a child, I feel this experience was untarnished by the events,
experiences and knowledge that might have been in my head had it happened when I
was an adult. I had never read about such things, had no pre-conceived
notions. There was no time to think, my heart hadn't stopped (that I know of!),
I was still very much aware of my physical body and what was going on around
me. I did not enter another plane, did not see any lights, see anyone, feel
anything (except the panic), feel drawn anywhere, have any great revelations,
make any decisions. It just happened, fleetingly, and then it was done.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Did
the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively
describe your experience?
Yes
Although the questions do tend to suggest that warm, glowing, "follow the light"
stuff, which even I am sometimes skeptical of.