Experience description:

I have never ever in my life told anyone about this. But I know it did happen.

The earliest memory, is when I am in complete peace, I am happy and in a space where there is absolutely no maliciousness. I have my own way of getting around, I can move and I don't have to be anywhere, there is a feeling of having basically no rush and no time and no reason. I was in a dark space or void, that I didn't feel any threat.

The next I remember is I'm inside what I knew was my mother. This was a different space to the one prior, and I was 100% sure I was supposed to be there. I was conscious and it only feels like seconds pass when I'm forced to exit my place of peace. Because being in the womb I was safe.

Next memory, I saw a white light, very bright, and I am suffocating. I am unable to get back. I was able to breathe inside this space but now I cannot breathe at all as I am being squeezed out. I go back in for a moment, and being inside wasn't the same, I was chocking and suffering. I felt too big for the space.

The next memory is, I am aware of where I am, but I am not able to walk. I am not very happy at all for being put here, as I knew the mother wasn't the mother I felt safe with.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?      No     

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words?          No     

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? No     

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?    I was very alert at birth and conscious.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?  No, it felt real. An actual happening

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?   No     

What emotions did you feel during the experience?          Peace and quiet, a feeling of complete happiness. Prior birth.

To a sudden malevolent, despair. I didnt want to be there. During and after birth.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?         I don't remember sounds during this experience.

LOCATION DESCRIPTION:  Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?         No     

Did you see a light?        Yes    I saw a white light when I was ready for birth

Did you meet or see any other beings?         No     

Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state?         No     

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No     

Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different? Yes    I actually don't remember hearing anything, but I did see.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  Yes          There was absolutely no time or place prior to birth. It was just a vast space or void of peace.

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?         Yes    I only knew I was supposed to be in a womb.

At the time, I knew I was supposed to be in that place. I was aware of this.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?           No     

Did you become aware of future events?      Uncertain     I knew all my life, from birth onwards, my mother was not to be trusted.

I don't know why, but during my 5 years of knowing her, my feelings about her were already set.

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?          Uncertain     I almost feel uncertain, as I am unsure if I had asked to be removed from the space of after birth. But I do have a slight inkling that I had asked to be put back into the void..

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?      Uncertain     Pre birth experience.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?     Yes    I believe there is a being outside of our life, whether it be a God or another form.

I have been forced into Muslim religion, then into Christianity during my life, so I can't accept either. But I do believe in a Being if that makes sense. Basically I am an open book.

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?   Basically as above, I don't condone being forced into a religion. We all have a right to follow our hearts, and no one should change that.

I became a great auto mechanic, wonderful mother of twin boys and have an amazing husband. I challenge my body to do great things with sport.

My experience has helped me raise great boys and hopefully into great men.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? No     

Have you shared this experience with others?       No          What emotions did you experience following your experience? Sadness, sorrow, fear, unfairness and uncertainty for a while after.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?          The feeling of complete peace that I don't feel today.

And the feeling of betrayal that I feel to this day.

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? When I talk to friends or people about remembering life at the age of 2 or 3, they all agree that they don't remember anything before 4 or 5. I know my experience is unusual so I refrain myself from sharing it with anyone. If they think 2 or 3 years old is an unusual time to remember life, then there's no use for me to share further.