Sandra S
Experience
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Experience description:
I remember being
suspended in the top corner of a room looking down on a human baby. What I
"felt" up against me must have been the walls and the ceiling. I tried to move
but couldn't. I may as well been frozen inside a block of ice. Something was
wrong. I wanted to know WHAT I was, where I was, how I got there, and WHO did
this to me. Not knowing these things angered me greatly. I was also frightened
which added to my anger. I couldn't even emit sounds. All I could do was think
up there. I looked down again at the baby and tried to make it move. It didn't
work. I was beginning to realize the baby didn't work either. I don't know how I
came to this conclusion but I became aware that something wanted me inside the
baby. Then I must have come down because the next thing I know I was in the baby
looking up at the ceiling and slightly around the room because the head of the
baby wouldn't turn very well. I thought I would have a better chance at moving
in this "body." This didn't happen. I was resigned after a time as there was no
getting out of my situation.
Then I saw my mother
appear from the darkened hall to my right. I don't know if I heard her or saw
her first. I was not afraid of her. Now I am remembering more. This could not
have been my first memory of my mother because the first time I saw her I saw
only her top left face. I reared back because this "thing" was right in my face.
I did not know what an eye or eyebrow was. Then I saw her mouth and chin. I
didn't like this at all so I did something against her. She pulled me away from
her then toward her again. Years later I figured out what I was doing to her. I
was biting her as she tried to nurse me. Talking to you has made me realize the
first two events of my life came in a different order. That's why I wasn't
afraid of my mother when I saw her after my out of body experience. I had
already seen her at least once before.
At age 3 I recited
prayers and began drawing. My personal artwork today reflects the unusual
experiences I've lived through for the past 56 years. At age 4 more out of body
experiences began. This one was fun and recurring. When it got dark outside I
would go onto the back porch. It was made out of cement and had no rails. There
was a yellow uncovered lightbulb above me for light. The edge of the porch was
lit but over the edge it was pitch black. I would stand at the edge for a few
seconds then jump. This was a 6 foot high porch. I would float down and get the
feeling of weightlessness I so loved. But just before I jumped I would come out
of me and go to the top of the big pear tree at the end of the yard to watch
myself do this. Also for some reason my body was a different color once I became
an onlooker in the tree. Has anyone had this kind of thing happen? I don't even
want to tell you what color for fear of not being believed.
Still 4 years old. The
same house. My two sisters and I slept in a double bed. I was always the one on
the outside by the tall narrow window which was open on good days. One night a
violent storm woke me. It was loud, the lightning was heavy, and I was getting
sprayed from the wind. (About 2 yards outside this window a lightning bolt
struck the ground between my older sister and me while I was running after her
one day. I was only about three or four feet away. My mother witnessed this. I
don't know what it is about my sister and lightning. She attracts it. Her shoe
got singed.) I'm getting sprayed and I'm up against my electric prone sister.
Not only that but when the lightning struck it showed the shape of tree limbs on
the ceiling. All of this together terrified me. I ran and woke up my parents
crying. They explained what was making the shadows on the ceiling and closed the
window so I was calmed down and thought I'd make the best of it. And I did.
Until part of the ceiling to the left of me disappeared. I wasn't getting wet
anymore but things were worse. I could see some of the lightning bolts through
the ceiling. I knew I'd get into trouble for waking my parents up again so I
talked to myself calmly about checking the window with the ceiling and see if
there was a connection. There wasn't. Then back I ran to tell my parents of this
new development. Of course they were mad. I think I got a swat. I just closed my
eyes and didn't look anymore. I fell asleep. This wasn't the last time of
disappearing walls. However, it was my son and a nurse I worked for who had the
experiences. Those stories I will tell later.
When I was a teenager I
started having nightmares. I would immediately get out of bed and turn on the
light. I would sort it out and turn the light off and go back to bed. That
didn't work well after this one nightmare. In my dream it was daytime and
raining. I was walking across a green field that had a fence in the middle. I
was almost there when I tripped. I grabbed it to break my fall and found out it
was an electric fence. I couldn't get my hands to open up. Bright rays began
shooting out of me and I was vibrating under the current. I died and Jesus came
to take me with him. At that moment I woke up. I went to turn the light on as I
normal. I hesitated for some reason and thought I was being tricked. As I turned
the switch on the light burned out just like I suspected it would. After that
every time I was afraid to turn on the light it would blow out.
Still a teen. I had a
very bad experience that is too personal to tell. My step father thought it was
funny and made jokes in public about it. He had a camera and when he had me
crying hard enough among all these people he thought it was an opportune moment
to take my picture. I prayed that he wouldn't get what he wanted. He was going
to produce this picture for the rest of his life for kicks. The camera was
expensive and he used the best film available. Every picture turned out perfect
except the one I willed ruined. It was pure black.
Any
associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the
experience?
No
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
Yes Events are numerous but will be entered at intervals.
Was
the kind of experience difficult to express in words?
Yes I did not know words at that time.
What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?
High
degree
Was the experience dream like in any way?
Not
at all
Did
you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
Yes
LOCATION DESCRIPTION:
Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar
religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or
amazing creatures?
No
Did
you see a light?
Yes
Did
you meet or see any other beings?
No
Did
you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience
that could be verified later?
Yes
Did
you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they
different?
Yes
Did
you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or
purpose?
Yes
Has
your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes
Have you shared this experience with others?
Yes
Did
the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively
describe your experience?
Uncertain The questions are fine it's my memory that isn't.
Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.
I
think you are thourough and thought provoking. Thank you for your service.