Experience description:

She was in incredible pain.  We tried to take a walk but only made it across the street to a lawn under a street light.  I saw a white substance coming out of Shasta and floating slowly out of her and moving to the left and then being pulled up into the sky.  It was thick and white.  I didn't want to touch it because I didn't know what it was and it scared me.  I thought maybe it was her pain or she was hot.  I was awake and conscience and I saw it with my own two eyes.  I love Shasta now and will forever.  I just want to know what it was that I saw.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     No           

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Uncertain      There was a White substance emitting from her body that was as white as milk.  It floated slowly from her and up and to the left.  I looked up to see where it was going but once it was out of the light of the street light I could not see it anymore.  It was a heavy white and thick substance.  I wondered if she was dying at that moment and leaving her body.  I wondered if it was the pain she was feeling coming out of her, I wondered if it was heat and the street light was making it visible to me.  The white substance came close to touching my lips and I jumped back.  I didn't want it to touch me for some reason.  I stood there and watched it for about 10 minutes.  This happened less than a week ago.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes            Shasta was a White Shepherd/Husky mix.  She did not bark, she howled.  She was about 90 pounds and quite a big girl.  She was scared of gas pumps because she thought they were monsters.  She also thought newspaper stands were monsters and anything that moved and made noise such as a windmill, etc.  I tried everything to ease her pain.  She would kiss my face for my efforts.  She went with me everywhere.  Her pain would make her wake me up in the middle of the night to take walks to make it feel better.  I would fall asleep on the sidewalk when she found some nice grass to lay on.  She tried to fight it and so did I, so long and so hard.

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?           I was perfectly awake.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   No

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     No      

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Curiosity, uncertainty, knowledge of her pain.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           No

LOCATION DESCRIPTION:  Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?    No      

Did you see a light?           Yes     White milky light substance coming out of her.

Did you meet or see any other beings?           No      

Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state? No      

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?     No      

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes     Everything seemed altered because I realized I was seeing something not normally seen by people.

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Yes            I realized she was trying to tell me she was dying and that she would be leaving me soon.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?             Uncertain     



Did you become aware of future events?       Yes     I knew she was trying to leave the pain of her body.



Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?       Yes            Understanding

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?  No      

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   No      

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?       I had to put her to sleep two days later.  My pain is too much to describe to you here.  It is too much for me to bear, I am sorry.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Yes     I am deeply saddened.



Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     They just don't understand.

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  Trying to understand.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      I need someone to clarify to me what she was trying to tell me, or what was happening to her.

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        I am forever changed from her loss.  I am not good at dealing with death.  I was very close to this animal, and I don't know if I will ever be the same.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No      

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?                     Yes     Done