Experience description:
As
a very young child I had I guess what I can only call a recurring 'memory'.
To this day, I have to assume it was a memory because my four-year-old
mind was not capable of thinking or imagining that deeply.
Even at that age, I associated it with (or assumed it to be) a memory I had of a
time before I was actually born.
It
always felt like it was a very short time before I was actually born,
like the moments that were leading up to the event if that makes any
sense.
I
remember very bright light blue mixed with white colors/light all around.
I can’t really say I was in a specific place or a room or a space even.
I was just somewhere and I was not alone, there was a lot of commotion
but it was not chaotic commotion.
Nothing about it was stressful or frightening. I was very relaxed and felt very
matter-of-fact about what was going on.
Even though I had this memory as a child, I didn’t see myself as a child
in the memory. I was just me, even
though was not walking or getting around in a physical body, I was moving
through an area/space leading to ...somewhere.
I don’t believe that I ever actually remember speaking with anyone or
being spoken to, not in words anyway it was more like telepathic communication
or thoughts that were easily understood that seemed to be going on all around.
All I knew for certain with that I was about to go somewhere and leave the place
I was in. From there, felt as
if I was falling, I could say I was flying but I’m not sure if that’s the right
word for it, descending maybe. From
above, down to the earth. (kind of
like if you zoom in on Google maps, but of course there were no Google maps 50
years ago). I could see it
from very far away and then things started closing in, land masses, etc..and
that’s where the 'memory' ends.
Again,
through all of these years I have to believe this was something more than just a
childhood fantasy.
Any associated medications or
substances with the potential to affect the experience?
No
Was the kind of experience
difficult to express in words?
No
At the time of this experience, was
there an associated life threatening event?
No
What was your level of
consciousness and alertness during the experience?
Wide awake
Was the experience dream like in any way?
I was a young child, so maybe yes
but it was recurring even during waking hours.
Did you experience a separation of
your consciousness from your body?
No
What emotions did you feel during
the experience?
No intense
emotions, it just seemed to be something that happened.
Did you hear any unusual sounds or
noises?
No
LOCATION DESCRIPTION:
Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar
religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or
amazing creatures?
No
Did you see a light?
Yes
That’s pretty much all everything was,
lights, in shades of white and blue.
Did you meet or see any other
beings?
Yes
They were around but I don’t remember
communicating directly.
Did you experiment while out of the
body or in another, altered state?
No
Did you observe or hear anything
regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?
No
Did you notice how your 5 senses
were working, and if so, how were they different?
Yes
I was definitely able to see what was
around me but I don’t remember sounds, just mental noise.
I don’t remember physically feeling anything.
Did you have any sense of altered
space or time?
Yes Definitely alternate space,
it was unlike any place I had experienced as a child.
Did you have a sense of knowing,
special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
Yes
I seemed to know that I was preparing to
arrive, here.
Did you reach a boundary or
limiting physical structure?
Uncertain I knew or felt like I was
descending to the place I was intended to
be.
Did you become aware of future
events?
No
Were you involved in or aware of a
decision regarding your return to the body?
No
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts
following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?
No
Did you have any changes of
attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
No
How has the experience affected
your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?
This among many other things just
reaffirms my belief in God, a higher being, and lots of other things that I just
don’t think we, as humans, will ever fully grasp.
Has your life changed specifically
as a result of your experience?
Uncertain
Have you shared this experience
with others?
Yes Probably a few, others likely
just assumed I was being an imaginative child.
What emotions did you experience
following your experience?
Nothing really
intense, just brought lots of other questions to my mind.
What was the best and worst part of
your experience?
Nothing bad,
just interesting, to me.
Following the experience, have you
had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced
any part of the experience?
No
Did the questions asked and
information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your
experience?
Yes