Sally's Experience
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Experience description:
It was in Acting 101 in
college. My first acting class. I was finally taking a step towards living my
dreams out loud away from the disapproval of my parents. I spent many days
memorizing a comedic monologue I chose for the class final. On stage, in front
of about 100 classmates, I released the butterflies in my stomach and performed
the words and actions I'd rehearsed. Suddenly, I saw myself from behind my head,
and to the right, but through the sockets of my eyes as if I was in a grand
theater holding up binoculars, as myself acting (autonomously from this dual
conscious thought) with words and movement on its own, and this dual conscious
thought was also watching the audience in front of my physical body as they
laughed boisterously at all the right moments. I also felt my body reveling in
the enjoyment of this intense high, that these people were so enthralled by my
comedic performance, and caused my physical movements and verbiage to be more
pronounced, inciting more laughter. I remember thinking wow, I'm having this
completely separate thought while the rest of me is there, continuing to do what
is warranted creatively. I remembered this feeling. I've experienced it before,
twice, in grade school, during my piano recitals, when I tended to memorize
parts of songs rather than sight read everything. Back then, when I checked into
this dual consciousness, I was bewildered, then I freaked out and dropped into
my physical body and had to stop playing because I suddenly didn't know where I
was in the book.
Any associated
medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?
No
Was the kind of
experience difficult to express in words?
No
At the time of this
experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
No
What was your level of
consciousness and alertness during the experience?
High
Was the experience
dream like in any way?
Kind of - in that I was
left to my own thoughts.
Did you experience a
separation of your consciousness from your body?
Yes
I described it above -
that I was having this separate conscious thought and discussion with myself
whilst still processing the physical body and vocal performance
What emotions did you
feel during the experience?
Elation, excitement,
ecstatic resonance. It's a high I've been trying to recreate since....
Did you hear any
unusual sounds or noises?
No
Did you recognize any
familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or
encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?
No
Did you see a light?
No
Did you meet or see
any other beings?
No
Did you experiment
while out of the body or in another, altered state?
No
Did you observe or
hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be
verified later?
No
Did you notice how
your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different?
Yes
Hearing was more
muffled
Sight was increased in
landscape
No taste
No touch but I could
feel my body and its feelings
Did you have any sense
of altered space or time?
Yes
Time slowed down and I
got to enjoy the moment of doing what I always knew I loved
Did you have a sense
of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
Yes
This feeling and
this knowledge is what I need to understand to reach my purpose
Were you involved in
or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?
Yes
I returned at
the end of my monologue.
Did you have any
psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did
not have prior to the experience?
Yes Intuition.
Did you have any
changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
Yes
Self confidence
in what I believe to be true.
How has the experience
affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?
Career choice - I
tried to pursue two careers at the same time and didn't work to satisfy the
parents and myself. Now I'm pursuing what I love to do.
Has your life changed
specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes
Always seeking
answers to the unknown.
Have you shared this
experience with others?
Yes
I haven't found anyone
who've had a similar experience yet.
What was the best and
worst part of your experience?
Best part was
recognizing the dual consciousness as an experience and hanging on to enjoy the
ride instead of freaking out. There was no worst.
Following the
experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or
substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No