Rodney G's Experience
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Experience description:
As
stated earlier, the one feeling of extreme pain and dread ( now i believe it was
when i was close to my death ). The pain was so unbearable and as if a presence
was nearby with unkind intent. The pain was just inhuman like no other type of
pain from head to toe. The other
was of the ghost like figures i saw in my room surrounding me after i came out
of the coma ( i think maybe the meds caused this...even though people i
described this to think it is weird, I don't.) not long after i saw figures some
i could see through, some not (like solid white). some short, some tall. First
it was like they tried to scare me by getting up in my face turning their heads
side to side or zooming in on my face quickly. They would be in the room with
visitors present. Nobody but me saw them. Always came out around dusk to early
morning. First night i was scared. Didn't tell nurses. But after
a few hours i realized they weren't hurting me physically. I thought it through
as an illusion by meds. Closed my eyes and saw nothing. Opened them they were
there. Sometimes there would be a room full of them sometimes only a few. But
they were in constant motion. Some of their faces were blank. Some had no eyes
and a mouth, or no mouth and big empty eyes, or big O eyes and mouths or one
eye. All seemed to be different in some little aspect. Never heard voices from
them or noises. But they would get into my face and wiggle theirs like they was
trying to say something or communicate with me. Oddest thing i ever encountered
in this life. Not long
before breakfast they would drift back into the walls and ceilings and through
the floors. Third evening as i watched TV. i saw them gathering together at one
end of room. my people were there visiting. these things just drifted by and got
as close to my face as possible then move on. the last few (2 or 3, not sure
now) messed with me only for a couple more hours and in constant motion. Waving
at me to come or go, and in motion. I even got the feeling they were behind my
bed (even though the head was backed against the wall.) I never saw them go
through any walls, floors, etc until just before they left each morning as the
sunshine fully took over the room. They appeared from my right around the
curtain and through the window and they were almost as transparent as the window
at that times. When i
awoke the third night to leak, i noticed them not around. No more other nights
thereafter my stay in the hospital. I only wish if they were real i could have
heard what they were trying to say to me. Any
associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the
experience: Yes
Explanation:
ghostly apparitions near dusk to early morning appeared to taunt and tease me.
no physical contact. but, showing their selves full bodied and facial
expressions. no two faces alike. Stayed for two full nights slowly leaving on
third night. Appeared a day or so after coming out of coma and life support. I
thought medications were the cause. not sure now. Was the
experience difficult to express in words?
No response
What was it about the
experience that makes it hard to communicate?
different from above. at one point, whether before coma or coming out
of....there was extreme pain..worst i ever felt...hard to describe in speech or
words. the most gruesome pain...wondered if this was hell or something
worse...while a side feeling of something most gruesome near.. At the
time of the experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
Yes
Describe:
went into hospital sick and weak. Last thing i remember was getting into
hospital bed. Then a week or more later came out of coma. I guess the doctors
told my family i would not last long, maybe gone by morning at one point. What
was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?
oh yes, in the evening before dusk they would arrive. throughout the night i
would see them at various stages of wakefulness. Nurses came in two or
three times of the night to check blood pressure and such Was the
experience dream like in any way?
now it seems like it....but as i was then it was so surreal. Did you
experience a separation of consciousness from your body?
Uncertain What
emotions did you feel during the experience?
fright at first, then dread, then acceptance of a sort. Did you
hear any unusual sounds or noises?
no Did you
see a light? Yes
Describe:
during the pain experience i described in two places earlier there was bright
and dim light to no light at all. All with extreme pain it seemed like from head
to toe. Did you
meet or see any other beings?
Uncertain
Describe:
no beings i never saw before...more like a cartoon, for three days. More detail
above. Did you
have any sense of altered space or time?
Yes
Describe:
during the pain experience....it seemed like it lasted forever. no end in sight.
During the pain i wondered if this was a form of hell or a twisted heaven. Did you
have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
Yes
Describe:
that all religions were of human design and there-for useless for the afterlife
(if there is any). Religions of the world further the human ego which feeds on
all aspects of emotion, in which the sins of the so-called righteous hurt the
true meaning and feeling of the god of all. Has
the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices
etc.? Career choices? i
once saw my-self as open minded....now i see that i can be closed minded and
open minded. Now i have the key to open doors or step back out if i wish, or
just throw a brick through the window and climb in. Have you
shared this experience with others?
Yes
Describe:
no.....i made no pretense that what i saw was the true reality. So i always told
afterwards that it was the good pills the doctor handed out, which caused my
ghostly buddies to show up. What
emotions did you experience following your experience?
glad that i was alive and not the opposite there of.... What was
the best and worst part of your experience?
the pain.....and the fright the first night. Is there
anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
i want to know what they were trying to say to a live person.....why it couldn't
wait until i cross over in the future. Has
your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Uncertain
Describe:
watch my sugar intake Following
the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or
substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No Did
the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively
describe your experience?
Uncertain
Explain:
more I'm sure if i sit and think...try and relive the event....meditate on
it...but hey...its over now.