EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION
The following, I believe, is a memory of what happened just before my (re?)
birth.
I
sit on a grassy hill gazing into the distance, all is peaceful, all is well.
Very suddenly dark storm clouds fill the sky before me. In seconds I'm sucked
into the biggest tornado you could imagine. Then it's as if I'm stuck in some
weird space that reminds me of old TV static and white noise. I feel like I'm
trying to move through molasses and that some force is sucking away everything I
know. I remember begging 'them' Not to take it all away because It's the most
important and wonderful information ever. I will never forget this. I had bad
dreams about it until I was 13 or 14 years old. I'd be so close to getting that
wonderful memory back and then I'd wake up. I know it all sounds like a
compilation of The Wizard of Oz and Poltergeist, but it's stuck with me these 62
years as if it happened yesterday
My first
cognitive post-birth memory is at approximately nine months. This is when (I've
been told) I took my first steps. I remember sitting contentedly, in a white
porcelain sink full of warm water and rubbing my hand slowly along the slick,
ribbed drain board. It must have been morning because I could hear, smell, and
feel bacon frying. A few tiny droplets of grease that popped out of the pan
would land on me from time to time. This was not painful or alarming to me, just
an interesting sensation. I remember the woman I now know to have been my
maternal Grandmother, lifting me from the sink in a towel and carrying me to a
bed where she diapered and dressed me in a pair of red corduroy snap crotch
overalls, a white t-shirt and the high topped, white leather, rigid soled 'baby
shoes of the day' (this was 1954) Years later my mother confirmed the red
coveralls as their was no color photography for the masses back then. The sweet
smell of baby powder as it rained down made me cough and sneeze a bit. At this
point, I remember becoming somewhat indignant and thinking the words, 'What the
hell!' She swung me up from the bed with both hands as adults will do with a
baby, lifted me above her head as she cooed baby talk to me and quickly, but
gently, stood me on the floor. This whole lifting, swinging, gently dropping and
standing episode, not to mention the slightly choking powder cloud, left me with
my stomach in my chest and powder in my sinuses. I had every intention of taking
her to task over it. I remember thinking the words, 'How dare you? Who do you
think you are?' but as I attempted to turn around and go after her my legs were
unable to do what my brain commanded. I opened my mouth to shout the words,
'You! Stop!' but not throat, tongue, or lips would cooperate and all that came
out was senseless baby babble and spittle as I lost my balance and careened onto
the hollow hardwood floor with a loud thud.
Any associated medications or
substances with the potential to affect the experience?
No
Was the kind of experience
difficult to express in words?
Yes The knowledge taken from me
At the time of this experience, was
there an associated life threatening event?
No
What was your level of
consciousness and alertness during the experience?
Ultra high
Was the experience dream like in any way?
Absolutely not
Did you experience a separation of
your consciousness from your body?
Yes I felt that I looked as a child of
4 or 5
What emotions did you feel during
the experience?
Serenity,
disappointment and resignation
Did you hear any unusual sounds or
noises?
White noise
LOCATION DESCRIPTION:
Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar
religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or
amazing creatures?
Uncertain
Did you see a light?
No
Did you meet or see any other
beings?
No
Did you experiment while out of the
body or in another, altered state?
No
Did you observe or hear anything
regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?
Yes Red coveralls and white
high-top baby shoes
Did you notice how your 5 senses
were working, and if so, how were they different?
Yes
Working as normal
Did you have any sense of altered
space or time?
Yes Felt like swimming in thick
molasses
Did you have a sense of knowing,
special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
Yes
I had the most incredible and perfect
knowledge ever before 'they' took it.
Did you reach a boundary or
limiting physical structure?
Yes That would be the thick molasses
void I was sucked through, I think.
Did you become aware of future
events?
No
Were you involved in or aware of a
decision regarding your return to the body?
Yes I'd say I became aware during the
experience
Did you have any psychic,
paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have
prior to the experience?
No
Did you have any changes of
attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
No
How has the experience affected
your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?
I have longed my entire life to
have that perfect knowledge back
Has your life changed specifically
as a result of your experience?
Uncertain
Have you shared this experience
with others?
Yes Some take me at my word, some
think it must have been a dream.
What emotions did you experience
following your experience?
NA
What was the best and worst part of
your experience?
Having the
knowledge and then the loss of it
Following the experience, have you
had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced
any part of the experience?
Yes Dreams