RL's Experiences
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Experience description:
I was late for breakfast at my boarding school. I ran down the
stairs and twisted my ankle on the bottom step. The last thing I remember
consciously is hopping on my good leg while shouting "ow!".
Next thing I know, I am
talking to God?! There was an incredible feeling of total, accepting, enveloping
LOVE. God "asked" me something like "How is it down there?" (although it was
more like a "feeling") and I replied with a "feeling" that life was all just
about admin and rushing around trying to survive and that there was very little
time or place for anything "higher". He then "told" me I had to go back. I
didn't want to leave, I felt I was at home, safe and loved.
Unfortunately, I then
got flung back into my body, it felt like I landed through the center of my
chest. The instance I "landed" back into my body I felt as if my lungs were
static and I took a big gasp of air to try and re-animate them and the rest of
my body, at the same time my body jerked back upright (I had been lying on the
floor of the corridor) and as I came back to a sitting position, I found I was
surrounded by a flock of boarding school girls, teachers, maids etc.
I was a little
hysterical, as it felt as if I had travelled a million miles in an instance and
I was very disapointed to be back, I kept crying that "I SAID I didn't want to
come back!".
I got sent for an EEG
(everyone assumed it was epilepsy or something, as something similar had
happened before), but nothing turned up and I have been healthy every since and
never had anything similar happen again in 12 years.
The previous experience
I had, I choked on an orange while laughing at a friend's joke one night. That
was the last I remember, as it felt as if I was flung through the sky at a
tremendous speed, to end up hovering in the sky above the city where my parents
lived (1000km+ from my boarding school). It was only for a couple of seconds and
again I got flung back into my body, leaving me reeling, as it felt as if I had
travelled an insane distance in a very short time.
These 2 experiences
have enriched my life greatly, as I no longer fear dying and I have a certainty
that there is more to "us" than mere biology.
Was
the kind of experience difficult to express in words?
Yes All communication was through "feelings", rather than actual words, but
in order to describe it anywhere near accurately I have to use words like "I
said".
At
the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
No
At
what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness
and alertness?
Same level all the time through, but no experience of "seeing" or "hearing"
anything, only "feeling" sights, thoughts etc. I knew where I was, but I wasn't
physically experiencing it.
How
did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience
compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?
Normal consciousness and alertness
Same level all the time through, but no experience of "seeing" or
"hearing" anything, only "feeling" sights, thoughts etc. I knew where I was, but
I wasn't physically experiencing it.
Did
your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect,
such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of
solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?
Uncertain I didn't actually "see" anything while I was "speaking to God"
and when I found myself hovering over my parent's city, it was about 300m above
a lake and about 1km from a mountain close to where they lived. It was dusk at
the time, so everything was kinda dark.
Did
your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any
aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness,
etc.)?
Uncertain Didn't exactly "hear" anything. Just felt it.
Did
you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
Yes
What emotions did you feel during the experience?
When speaking to God, I felt an incredible sense of permeating,
unconditional love. When back in my body, I felt a great sense of loss.
Did
you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?
Uncertain When I got flung through the air to go hover in the sky close to
my parents house, it felt as if a clothing hanger had been stuck into my shirt
and I got shunted on a rail to a "railway station". From there I got shunted to
my parent's city incredibly quickly. On the way back though, it felt as if I
just got sucked back into my body.
Did
you see a light?
No
Did
you meet or see any other beings?
Yes Spoke to God, no one else. Well, I didn't exactly "speak to" or "see"
anyone. I rather felt as if I was surrounded by and part of God, like I had been
absorbed into God, which is why I could feel the incredible love, it was all
around me and part of me.
Did
you experience a review of past events in your life?
No
Did
you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience
that could be verified later?
No
Did
you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or
dimensions?
No
Did
you have any sense of altered space or time?
Yes When I spoke to God, I felt as if I was "high" above my body (but not
anywhere earthly) and the other time I was clearly not in the same city any
more.
Did
you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
Yes Yes, it felt as if I was home.
Did
you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
Uncertain I was just told to go back and I couldn't resist.
Did
you become aware of future events?
No
Did
you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience
you did not have prior to the experience?
Uncertain Well, I can kind of see halos around people's heads, but I assume
that's just because my eyes are quite light sensitive.
Have you shared this experience with others?
Yes Yes, immediately after it happened and now and then when people have
asked my opinion of religion, etc. I'm not sure how influenced people have been
or what they think of it, but I consider these experiences to have been a great
gift and a cornerstone of my view of life.
Did
you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?
Uncertain Well, I always thought it was just a tunnel of light when
you died or something and I have never been really religious or anything.
How
did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it
happened:
Experience was definitely real I was fully convinced of the reality of my
experiences. I definitely spoke to God, I definitely flew through the air to be
closer to my parents.
Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or
significant to you?
The
feeling of incredible love, going through you and enveloping you and seeming
without ending, I will never forget. When I think of religion now, I think in
terms of that feeling of unconditional love.
How
do you currently view the reality of your experience:
Experience was probably real I say to myself that maybe it was all just
electricity in my brain causing these visions, but I don't know, it felt very
real, I literally felt slammed back into my body on both occasions. 12 years
later, these experiences still feel like they were real experiences. But I am a
scientist, so I say to myself, you have to keep an open mind :)
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your
experience?
No
Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your
experience?
Yes
I
don't feel uncertain about religion any more. I feel like I can understand other
people's religious experiences and I don't fear death.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
Uncertain
Did
the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and
comprehensively describe your experience?
Yes