Rebecca's Experience
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Experience description:
I was fighting with my older sister, it was ANZAC day in New Zealand.
I had a friend over and my friend went off with my sister and I was sad.
My sister had a marshmallow lollie and got me to get the matches from the
high up cupboard (we were not allowed to get to) but I climbed up and found
them. They used the matches but did
not share them with me. Playing with
matches, I was lighting my dress and watching the flame. Then blowing it
out. But of course as the circle got
bigger, I could not blow it out. My
dress was engulfed with flames. I
was screaming and my mum (an RN) came running out she ripped off my dress.
She then wrapped me in wet towels and took me to the hospital.
I had 2nd and 3rd degree burns to 60% of my body.
The near death experience was in hospital. I think it was the first day it
happened when I was hospital in emergency. I had been put in a bath then I was
laid on sheets. I remember this, as
they moved me off them and the sheets stuck to my skin causing great pain.
I remember feeling the burning heat but freezing cold of my legs which
were not burnt. The experience I had
was once. I was in a tunnel of
light, and I felt like I was being made to come back to consciousness, this
world, and I was not happy about it.
I came back too, to extreme pain and months of this to follow.
I was in a tunnel with bright light.
I was safe and comfortable there not in my body.
At the time
of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?
Yes
Burns by fire.
Was the experience
difficult to express in words?
No
At what time during the
experience were you at your highest level of
consciousness and alertness? when I was moving
through the tunnel to come back.
How did your highest level
of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal
everyday consciousness and alertness?
Normal
consciousness and alertness
It just seemed normal to me. I was 8 so it
"just was"
Please
compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had
immediately prior to the time of the experience.
I can't compare. I was 8 there was not a lot of thinking going on.
Just happening.
Please
compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had
immediately prior to the time of the experience.
Cant remember hearing anything around me, it was
blissfully peaceful until I had to Come back or wake up.
Did you see
or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your
consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?
No
What emotions did you feel
during the experience?
Peacefulness until I had to come back then I could
feel the pain in my body as the light got brighter and brighter.
Then I felt that I did not want to come back.
Did you pass into or
through a tunnel?
Yes
Did you see an unearthly
light?
Yes
Bright
shinning bold and peaceful light. I
was in it.
Did
you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable
voice?
I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly
origin
I knew I had to come back, that something some
one was making me but I saw no one, heard nothing.
I just knew that.
Did you encounter or
become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by
name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)?
No
Did
you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?
No
Did
you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?
No
Did
you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?
A clearly mystical or unearthly realm
It did not feel
unfamiliar, or strange, but I am not sure I can call it mystical or unearthly
either. It just was.
Did time seem
to speed up or slow down?
Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or
lost all meaning
I was very very much in
a bad way. It was massive trauma so
I don't remember in that instance, the whole experience was not remembered.
Did
you suddenly seem to understand everything?
No
Did you reach a boundary
or limiting physical structure?
No
Did
you come to a border or point of no return?
I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against
my will
Did scenes from the
future come to you?
Scenes from my personal future
very rarely but its happened a few times.
Once was about a woman who was in a
relationship for a man that beat her.
I used to flat with them for a short time 6 weeks.
I moved out, and I cant remember how long after maybe weeks or a month, I
awoke at night to the same bright light from the tunnel but terrified of this
ball or entity. I was too scared to
get up out of my bed. I went
to visit this woman, the partner answered the door and said she was sick, I was
pushy and got my way into the house, and she was in the bedroom beaten head to
toe, but would not leave him. I
offered to rent a trailer to get her out, move her but she said she loved him.
I could never go back. Didn't
ever see her again. I was 20 years
of age. The other two experiences
were around the same year.
During
your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly
life (�life after death�)?
Yes
Just a feeling I was left with, and it did
not frighten me at all.
During
your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God
or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist?
Yes
I don't know about God, but something,
there's something there.
During
your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you
either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime?
Yes
Yes but not until I was 29 years of age.
I grew up around addiction and had very low self esteem about all my
scars. I lost my left breast and
nipple. Along with a lot of skin.
At the time it happened I never told anyone as it was at the beginning of
6 months of utter pain in hospital, drugged, operations to change bandages and
then skin grafts from legs. I had to
learn to walk twice. So that was
just how it was. At 29 I got into therapy
with a Gestalt Psychotherapist, and it was only going back to things like this,
that it came back to me. I started
doing Yoga and Meditation and then was like, Oh I can do this easily I can get
myself out of my body that's easy.
After the NDE I was in intensive care. I used to count the tiles on the ceiling
to avoid the pain in my body. I have
heard other victims of trauma do the same thing.
During
your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a
mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist?
No
During your experience,
did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life�s
meaning or purpose?
Yes
During your experience,
did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life�s
difficulties, challenges, or hardships?
No
During your experience,
did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love?
No
During your experience,
did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not
shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives?
No
Did you have a sense of
knowing special knowledge or purpose?
Yes
Now as I am older I am very spiritual
person. No god in mind, just know
that some thing exists. I am not
afraid of death.
What occurred during your
experience included:
Content that was entirely not consistent with the
beliefs you had at the time of your experience
I can't tick any, I didn't have formed opinions to answer these questions
due to age 8.
How accurately do you
remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around
the time of the experience?
I remember the experience as accurately as other
life events that occurred around the time of the ex
Discuss any changes
that might have occurred in your life after your experience:
I just want to say that age 8 I was made to go to
church but I was at an age I did as I was told.
I was exposed to religion and church but at 8 I did not have "beliefs"
these are adult concepts. I just
watched Heaven is Real the movie, which made me look for something like this, as
I am more and more spiritual with age.
My
experience directly resulted in:
Large changes in my life
Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that
occurred as a result of the experience?
No
Do you
have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that
you did not have before the experience?
Uncertain
I have answered this.
When I was young I could sense a lot and was scared of the dark.
But nothing more. I became a
drug and alcohol user age 13-29. So
5 years after my accident. I stopped
went to therapy then unraveled my past, including that trauma, and have had a
few physic experiences but mostly instinctive and with PTSD left over from the
trauma hyper sensitive, hyper vigilant.
Are there one or several parts of your experience
that are especially meaningful or significant to you?
Just that it made my life very very hard the burns, the fact I had the NDE
was tiny part of it. It meant
nothing to me until I was older.
Have you ever shared this experience with others?
Yes
Just my therapist at 29 years of age.
A couple of people I've met now as Massage Therapist whom have had major
trauma themselves i.e. car accident.
Did you have any knowledge
of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?
No
What did you believe about
the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:
Experience was definitely real
Just was.
IT was what happened I never thought about it, afterwards I was in too
much pain for a very long time.
What do you believe about
the reality of your experience at the current time:
Experience was definitely real
I think it was from the third eye or
between the eyes channel. It was an
experience probably out of body, to avoid the pain and trauma maybe unconscious,
and I was 'made to come back' I did not want.
IT was very simple.
Have your relationships
changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes
I always feel like I live a foot in this world and
one in the next. So that makes me
harder to live with. I have a very
loving man now. I am very lucky!
Have your religious
beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes
I do not live life as it its for ever.
I am acutely aware that a point we die.
We don't have control of that. Life's not a dress rehearsal. I am not
money focused, (lucky my partner is) and I am not interested in material things.
Life to me is about evolving into a more compassionate human being.
Learning to grow and be as kind and generous as possible.
Help where possible.
At
any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?
Yes
Only meditation.
But nothing as bright as that light or as I was way down that tunnel!
Is there anything else
that you would like to add about your experience?
Just good to be able to discuss it! At 45 I am more and more
interested in supporting others and helping to be a supportive person, and to be
positive.
Did
the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and
comprehensively describe your experience?
No
Just they are adult questions, not
questions for children, but I feel like you will get that.
Are there any other questions that
we could ask to help you communicate your experience?
I guess that having questions for children?