Raymond W's Experience
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Experience description:
Was
on a course and doing a lot of meditating . sat to meditate as usual and
transcended all thought . and not knowing anything till I found myself out in
space with the earth a long way away. My first thoughts were how vast the space
between planets is and that creation seemed really almost just empty space .
Then I realized that I was without my body and thought "Is this what being dead
is ...Bodiless and adrift in the universe " ? I felt calm feeling nothing of
cold or heat just observing . As I drank in the vastness and total silence I
became aware there was something else underlying 'everything', very faint at
first , it was a sense of 'Love' permeating everything omniscient . It grew
stronger and I found myself enveloped in and floating in a proverbial sea of
Love.
At
one point I thought " was in total bliss and the thought came " I could stay her
for eternity , and I really meant it . Here I was was in a void the space with
absolutely nothing and I needed nothing else for eternity , enveloped in the
most blissful completely fulfilled state one could ever imagine. I understood
that this was the basis and source and goal of creation and there was nothing
else . This for all intents and purposes was the creator , vast beyond measure ,
timeless and totally complete , absolutely 'everything else just faded into
insignificance . As it became stronger and more blissful it became overwhelming
, I couldn't handle the intensity , as though I would be destroyed or crushed by
the immeasurable , unlimited power and I was so small and fragile by comparison
.
The
discomfort grew and I had to retreat and found myself zooming back to earth at
great speed . As it grew larger I looked on and the many layers in which I was
embroiled , on a planet ,in an area , in a country , in an area of that country
in a house in a room , in a body , in a cranium , and that mind seemed so
limited with a lot of what appeared to be disgusting traits by comparison to
the sense of freedom and purity I had just come from . It all was very
claustrophobic , suffocating and horrible and small minded and I couldn't bear
the thought of returning .There was a split second a moment of hesitation , a
sense of urgency that I had to make this decision quickly or I could not go back
, where I had to make a decision on whether to go back or not . This was the
most complex part of the experience , because I had to weigh up the pros and
cons very quickly . There was the thought that I wasn't ready to stay and deal
with the intensity of what I had experienced and sense of disgust at limiting
myself to such a disgusting (from the current perspective) limited consciousness
and body .
The
only way I could return to this body was to let go and accept myself with all of
the limitations etc because it wasn't forever . And there was a "Ah ! what the
hell " and I let the force that was pulling me back into my body do its job ,
and with that , it was like my spirit was attached to a piece of super strong
piece of elastic that was stretched tight and I let go and my spirit just
slammed into my body and I came to as though I had been hit by a truck . I was
actually physically reeling from the impact as I came to with the shock of
impact. I was quite high and serene for weeks afterwards with a sense of freedom
and acceptance of myself , a bit like a mini enlightenment and have never
forgotten the experience . I always thought of it as a mystical experience but
now after hearing the radio interview I think it may have been a type of NDE ,
as my heart may have slowed down along with my breathing and possibly stopped
briefly until my body possibly ran out of oxygen and was under pressure to get
going again. However I believe the experience itself was real, more than real
and when people ask me if I believe in God , I say "No" ......" I know there's a
God.....Its not a question of belief anymore"
At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?
Uncertain
Was
the experience difficult to express in words?
Yes The direct experience of expanded awareness and love could never be
conveyed , I can only talk about 'What' Happened
At
what time during the experience were you at your highest level of
consciousness and alertness?
When floating in a sea of Love and just before returning to my body.
How
did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience
compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?
More
consciousness and alertness than normal An expanded sense of uncluttered
awareness
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that
you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.
No
comparison
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that
you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.
No
hearing just profoundsilence
Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that
your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?
No
What emotions did you feel during the experience?
Pure
unlimited Love , Fear being overwhelmed by it and at the same time disgust and
not wanting to return to my body
Did
you pass into or through a tunnel?
No
Did
you see an unearthly light?
No
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an
unidentifiable voice?
No
Did
you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who
are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha,
etc.)?
No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?
No
Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?
No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?
No
Did time seem to speed up or slow down?
Time
seemed to go faster or slower than usual
A
sense of comprehension that was instant so almost no time between thoughts
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?
Everything about
the universe
Love was everything and all and was the creator , nothing else mattered or
really existed and was so limited in comparison , there was only Love, vast
beyond measure timeless unbounded.
Did
you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
Yes
My own capacity to merge with something so enormous without being destroyed and
overwhelmed
Did you come to a border or point of no return?
I came to a
definite conscious decision to "return" to life
I was being pulled back and partly because I was not ready to merge with that
purity and overwhelming enormity of love
Did
scenes from the future come to you?
No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly
life (�life after death�)?
Yes I was a spirit outside my body and could exist without it
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist?
Yes Yes God as the only thing that exists as pure Love
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime?
No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not)
exist?
Yes experience only
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
regarding earthly life�s meaning or purpose?
No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
regarding earthly life�s difficulties, challenges, or hardships?
No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
regarding love?
Yes The experience that Love is all there is
During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information /
awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living
our earthly lives?
No
Did
you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?
Yes love is all there is
What occurred during your experience included:
Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at
the time of your experience The overwhelming nature was nothing I could have
anticipated
How
accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events
that occurred around the time of the experience?
I
remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around
the time of the experience
Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your
experience:
I
have had some psychic experiences which have given me a greater belief in a
purpose in life
My experience directly resulted in:
Moderate changes in my life
Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that
occurred as a result of the experience?
No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your
experience that you did not have before the experience?
Yes A higher self and voice on occasions giving me information I couldn't have
known , perhaps some healing ability ?
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful
or significant to you?
Just
the experience of overwhelming Love
Have you ever shared this experience with others?
Yes
Very soon
Did
you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your
experience?
No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to
weeks) after it happened:
Experience was definitely real It was much too spectacular
What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time:
Experience was definitely real Because it was so vivid
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Uncertain
I
don't think so
Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result
of your experience?
No
At
any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the
experience?
No
Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and
comprehensively describe your experience?
Yes In relation to 'WHAT' happened , yes but impossible to convey the
experience