Randolph N's Experience
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Experience description:
Went to a
TM introductory class of about 30 people. A trainer gave us some background and
mentioned that if any one started to have an OOB experience, to try to avoid all
that for now since we were all new to TM. I didn't pay much attention. I had
some knowledge of Zen from my own reading, but no meditation experience. The
trainer privately gave each of us a mantra. My wife was with me. I don't
recall my mantra. We meditated in a lotus or modified lotus position. I think
I was in a full (though unrefined) lotus. Eyes were closed. I can't recall if
I was saying the mantra out loud or whether we were saying it to ourselves.
After we began meditating, trying to clear our minds, I became very peaceful and
gradually became aware that I was surrounded by a large clear ball that had a
distinct golden hue and at the same time my body and the ball floated off the
ground to the upper left. The ball reminded me of a giant soap bubble, not a
solid glass-like ball. It was big enough to surround me with a little clearance
around me so I was comfortable, but no room for anything else. It was firm yet
flexible, supported my body without distortion to the shape, and the color was
particularly strikingly golden. I felt warm, glowing in sort of a sunshine, and
protected, yet very alert and cognizant that I was meditating yet could see out
of the bubble, able to look around, and attuned to the experience. I was aware
that I was having a very special experience. I am not spiritual in any way, and
did not feel this was religious in nature, but more like it was an experience
that I was one of the least likely people to have. My personality is
analytical, rational, not given to such an unusual experience. While the
experience was going on, I felt that I had accomplished it so easily that I had
a special skill or ability to drift into the state of mind necessary to have an
OOB experience. I felt that so strongly, that weirdly, I never took another TM
class, almost never meditated again in the succeeding decades. Never tried to
reach that mental state again. It's as if I did it once, I can do it at will
and therefore don't need to do it again. Rationally, I seriously doubt this is
true, but the experience was so memorable that I can't shake the confidence that
I can do it again if I wanted. I don't know how long I was in the meditative
state, but I think the trainer wanted to keep the experience to about 20 minutes
and when he started to bring everyone back, he began talking softly and I then
moved my golden ball back to where I'd been sitting. I think I felt as though I
was about 8 or 10 feet into the air and about the same distance to the left of
where my body was physically sitting. At this late date, I can't recall what I
was able to see during the experience, I think I was more conscious of the
comfortable feeling, calmness, happiness, even blissfulness, and the golden hue
and the unusual nature of the experience than I was aware of what I was looking
at. I recall that I felt more optimistic about the relationship between my
spouse and myself. I think at the time, I was more conscious of what I was
looking at and the thoughts I had, but can't recall them now. The only negative
feeling I had was a little degree of anxiety that I might not be able to resume
my physical body, that I'd gone too far and had no one to guide me through the
process of returning to my body. I consciously decided to not let that slight
insecurity disturb me too much, and continued with my experience, but I did
retain that awareness that I would have to resume my physical form and not just
remain in this state of mind. When I was ready to end the experience, I
gradually did so, and when I'd moved the ball to my physical form, and one body
merged with the other, the ball disappeared and I became "conscious" again,
emerging from the meditative state. The trainer asked if anyone had an OOB
experience and I said I had. I think one or two others also said they did as
well, but I'm not certain on that point.
Any associated medications
or substances with the potential to affect the experience?
No
Was the kind of experience
difficult to express in words?
No
At the time of this
experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
No
What was your level of
consciousness and alertness during the experience?
High
Was the
experience dream like in any way?
I had more control in my
experience than I do when dreaming.
Did you experience a
separation of your consciousness from your body?
Yes My body in my experience
was identical to my physical form. I just floated away from my physical body.
What emotions did you feel
during the experience?
Comfort, peacefulness, though not
sedated.
Did you hear any unusual
sounds or noises?
Not that I recall.
LOCATION DESCRIPTION:
Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar
religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or
amazing creatures?
No
Did you see a light?
Yes The light enveloped
me in the form of a golden ball. Not a distant light.
Did you meet or see any other
beings? No
Did you experiment while out
of the body or in another, altered state?
No
Did you observe or hear
anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be
verified later?
No
Did you notice how your 5
senses were working, and if so, how were they different?
Yes vision was no different,
hearing was probably diminished significantly, no smells in this environment, no
sense of touch since I wasn't physically touching with my hands, but I was still
aware I was sitting, no opportunity to consider sense of taste.
Did you have any sense of
altered space or time?
Yes Time felt slowed though things were happening and moving.
Did you have a sense of
knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
Yes Hard to recall, but knowing
that of all people, I could have an OBE made me feel as though there was
something special to be experienced in life that I'd not considered yet and that
others could experience.
Did you reach a boundary or
limiting physical structure?
No I imposed my own barrier
beyond which I elected not to go because my experience with meditation and OBE
was so very limited. But I didn't feel as though I limited my experience in any
significant way.
Did you become aware of future
events? No
Were you involved in or aware
of a decision regarding your return to the body?
Yes I consciously elected to
return to my body when I felt the trainer was expecting us to begin to conclude
our meditation.
Did you have any psychic,
paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have
prior to the experience?
No
Did you have any changes of
attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
Yes It certainly broadened my
belief in the range of experiences we could enjoy, but the feelings were
generally short-lived and I was over it within a day or so. I still enjoy
recalling the experience because it made me feel somewhat unique and that I had
a special ability that others didn't. It also made me feel that my narrow view
of what the human mind was capable of could be broadened.
How has the experience
affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career
choices? It initially
made me feel more loving toward my wife, made me want to resolve the issues we
had, but that feeling gradually went away. For a while, I saw the world with a
little more beauty, but that diminished as well. No effect on me spiritually.
I didn't regard this as a religious experience.
Has your life changed
specifically as a result of your experience?
No
Have you shared this
experience with others?
Yes Briefly with my current
wife. She was intrigued but sharing it had no impact on our lives.
What emotions did you
experience following your experience?
Calmness, happiness, blissfulness,
desire to resolve personal problems, curiosity about the experience, confidence
that my limited view of what the mind was capable of was in fact limited, but
that I had an ability to rise to a higher level of consciousness.
What was the best and worst
part of your experience?
The happiness I felt at knowing I
was having a unique experience.
Is
there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
No.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
Uncertain I recently had an OBE due to a medical emergency, but the
experience was completely different from the above.
Did
the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively
describe your experience?
Yes