Experience description:

I was feeling postpartum depression overwhelm with my life. Taking care of 4 kids and living in 2 shared room with other roommates. I had previously had several suicide attempts before this one, but this time I had a specific memory in which resulted in the last time I would attempted to commit suicide to date. I took like a handful of sleeping pills after I put my children to sleep. My youngest was only 5 months old at the time. I started hearing my daughter voice crying and tried to wake up to hold her. My hand went through her body, suddenly I saw a bright light and pray toward the light that please help me my daughter need me right now I will never attempt to kill myself again if you help me. I woke up and remember the time was 6:48am and I looked toward my daughter and attempted to touch her. I felt relief and at peace that day that someone knew my children needed me. Since that day, I did not attempt to kill myself yet. since I was 16 I attempted like around at least 15 time. I do believe there is something beyond us that would watch over our life to help at time when we need the most.

At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?   No 

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  No    

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    when I heard my daughter cried and my hand went through her body

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?      More consciousness and alertness than normal   I felt more responsibility in my life

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   blurry

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   very alert

Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?   Yes   my daughter crying for me

What emotions did you feel during the experience?   scare, I felt my daughter needed me.  

Did you pass into or through a tunnel?   No  

Did you see an unearthly light?   Yes   the light was bright

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?   No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)?   No  

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?   Uncertain   I just heard my daughter crying

Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?   No  

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?   No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down?   Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?   Everything about myself or others

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?   Uncertain

Did you come to a border or point of no return?   I came to a definite conscious decision to "return" to life

Did scenes from the future come to you?  No 

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (�life after death�)?   Yes   there was definitely someone or thing trying to help me or else I would of gone to some place into the light.  the light was like a passageway

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist?   Yes   some supreme being does exist

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist?   Yes  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life�s meaning or purpose?   Yes  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life�s difficulties, challenges, or hardships?   Yes  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love?   Yes  

During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives?   Uncertain  

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?   Yes  

What occurred during your experience included:   Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience  

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience?   I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience     

My experience directly resulted in:   Moderate changes in my life

Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience?   Yes  

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience?   Uncertain       

Have you ever shared this experience with others?   Yes 

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?   Yes  

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:   Experience was definitely real   because my hand went through my child body and there was a light and I pray for help and was overcome by emotion

What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time:   Experience was definitely real  

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?   Yes  

Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?   Yes  

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?   Uncertain     

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?   Yes