Experience description:

Where do I start!  I was just dozing off when I awoke in my dream to someone (a male voice) telling me the life cycle - I was ecstatic to finally understand and it put me immediately at ease.  Then I saw the bright light and felt such emotion I still cannot describe the intensity to this day.  I then remember thinking I must of had a heart attack because I could not explain why I was dead. I then told myself I was not ready to die and wanted to go back.  I then awoke with the intensity and calmness and a wholeness - a sense of completeness.  Even though I felt I knew what was on the other side I could not attach it to anything I had experienced before.  I tried to remember what the voice told me but for the life of me I could not.  It was like "I gave you this to help you survive and not fear death - but you cannot know the truth until the end". I will never forget that feeling - it was wonderful - it embraced me - it surrounded me - nothing on earth has ever come close.  I have never forgotten this and often try to regain it but I cannot.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes     I did not have the words to describe the intensity of the feeling and the light.  It was like there was nothing on earth to describe it.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Uncertain      I was in remission from acute leukemia, 4 years post bone marrow transplant.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    At all times.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    Normal consciousness and alertness

            At all times.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  No      

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
            No      

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            The most intensive feeling of love I cannot attach or describe in any of my life experiences.  I feel I am highly evolved and in tune with the human psyche so I did not have to increase my senses to understand.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          Uncertain      It was not a tunnel as such - but a path to a light that was off to the distance.

Did you see a light?           Yes     The light was on a path I was moving towards but it was far off in the distance.

Did you meet or see any other beings?           No      

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No      

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No      

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?           No           

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes     The altered time was infinite - there was no end.  I found this difficult to comprehend because on earth we have a life cycle - this did not and I just could not fathom it.  It was like, a state rather than a journey.

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Yes            Someone spoke to me explaining what the afterlife entailed and at the time I fully understood it.  However, when I woke up I could not get my head around it, even though I tried to recall everything.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No      

Did you become aware of future events?       No           

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     No      

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     The very next day - I shared it with anyone who would listen - I still do to this day.  I don't know if they were influenced?

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    Yes     I have always been fascinated with people who have had the experience, always watching if on TV and reading the occasional article.  Curiosity more than anything.  Yes it did, because I felt I had experienced the same thing but in a different form.

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real    I viewed the experience as positive.  Even though it was a dream, I have always had excellent intuition when empathizing and understand people, and I think this may have had something to do with it.

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?            The whole process was meaningful, however when I heard the voice explaining what happens, that was particularly significant.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real    I viewed the experience as positive.  Even though it was a dream, I have always had excellent intuition when empathizing and understand people, and I think this may have had something to do with it.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           No      

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            No           

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No      

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        Even though it was a dream, I want you to understand I am a healthy skeptic with a belief in spiritualism such as karma - do onto others as you would do onto yourself.  If someone does me harm, I don't directly retaliate (even though sometimes I want to), I believe that the universe will take care of it - and it usually does.  I do believe we all have a gift of perception but all do not apply.  I have had lucid dreams my whole life, often having to wake myself up to get out of them - I don't know if this had something to do with it but I was conscious and acutely aware of the situation - this was no normal dream.

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Yes     Absolutely

Are there any other questions we could ask to help you communicate your experience?   I guess my experience does not formally fit the box - I just hope you don't throw it out and maybe give it some thought.