Experience description:

My experience began one night in 1995, this was during an extremely traumatic period for both me and my family.

I was 34 years of age, married with three young children. 

After the Black Wednesday crash in the UK in September 1992, it left businesses around the UK fighting to stay afloat, and desperate to avoid insolvency and bankruptcy, with the dramatic interest rate rises.  We were no different, we were desperate not only to save our marital home but also to preserve the repossession of an apartment within our home which belonged to my elderly mother.

We spent three years drowning in debt, every day we were fighting to keep receivers from the door, and desperate not to lose our home and business, I was suffering from a nervous breakdown, and desperate for any way out.

I'd gone a month without sleep, no respite, and desperate for help, I prayed for some kind of intervention, someone/thing to help us.

On this night, I was in our bedroom, my wife lay to my left sleeping.  I thought once again another night of insomnia, another night of worry and depression, just staring at the ceiling. I often notice particles, when you stare through the darkness at the light-colored ceiling,  there is movement rather like electrical noise,  like photography grain. This night was very different the 'Particles' got to a level where I couldn't see anything but particles, and everything started to vibrate.  I look down my whole body started to reverberate and blended with everything else, the bed, the room, the house,  Then everything became one vibrating fusion, the house the earth, the sky, and I was centered in the middle of it all.  At this point, I felt both material and spiritual at the same time.I felt extremely calm and content throughout the early part of my experience.

As I elevated higher, the only way I can describe is I felt slowly the material part of me falling away, and in doing so becoming more and more at peace. I continue to rise further, and almost like a metamorphosis, the remaining dark vibrating particles fell away from me, and eventually, I became a single sphere of pure white light. I traveled, I cannot remember how long?  I met other spheres of light, It was clear to me then, that I remembered everything of my past, this is the place I came from, this is the place we all ultimately return to.  Instantly, I knew who the other spheres were, there were no spoken words, I knew every single thing about them, past present, future, and they knew everything about me, we greeted each other like a long lost family someone who you love dearly, and they loved me, I felt that this place has always been my home. 

We communicated together and once again, I knew what to do, in a blink of an eye we joined what seemed like millions of other spheres, in what I can only describe as a big dipper, a river of light, I have not felt so much love, it was rapturous, completeness love and wholeness, I have never felt so valued, so important, and at once I knew just what to do. The only way I can describe, it was like a bird murmuration, we joined millions of other pure spheres, and we danced to a vibration sound together in what only can be described as the purest love you could ever imagine.  Once again, Instinctively I knew exactly what to do, there was communication throughout when to move forward, sideways, backward, and at the same time communicating everything there was about each other in this flowing river of light and intelligence.

I have no memories of how I returned, the rest is all very cloudy, I just found myself back in bed. Initially, I did want to tell everyone about my experience, but after describing it to a few people, I felt ridiculed,  I felt people did not take me seriously.  So I buried my memory.

Incidentally, after this event, I was declared bankrupt,  in 1998 we lost our house, my mother's apartment, my business, and most of our possessions. 

We had to start over again.  This year we will be celebrating our 37th Wedding anniversary, and our marriage is stronger than ever, our Children have very little recollection of that period, as we successfully shielded them from the heartache and hurt during this period.

At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?   No 

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  Yes     I described to the best of my ability in my story, but this falls well short of my actual experience

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?      Yes

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?      More consciousness and alertness than normal   Thinking on multiple levels, non verbal communication

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   With more clarity, 360 degrees

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   No difference.

Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?   No  

What emotions did you feel during the experience?   Elation  

Did you pass into or through a tunnel?   No  

Did you see an unearthly light?   Yes   Pure white orbs or spheres of light.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?   No


Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)?   No  

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?   No  

Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?   No  

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?   A clearly mystical or unearthly realm
A river of light, which i joined

Did time seem to speed up or slow down?   No

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?   Everything about the universe
I did at the time, but i feel this was taken away

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?   No

Did you come to a border or point of no return?   No

Did scenes from the future come to you?  No

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (“life after death”)?   Yes   I remembered everything about where I went, I have no doubt I have been there before, and I will return.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime?   Yes   I remembered everything about where I went, I have no doubt I have been there before, and I will return.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist?   Yes   I remembered everything about where I went, I have no doubt I have been there before, and I will return.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s difficulties, challenges, or hardships?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives?   No  

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?   No  

What occurred during your experience included:   Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience   I really had no beliefs about any religion whatsoever

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience?   I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience  

Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience:   I have lost the urge to possess material things, try to be kind and considerate.

My experience directly resulted in:   Large changes in my life

Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience?   Yes   Less materialistic, appreciation of every living thing

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience?   No  

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you?     I am extremely sensitive to peoples feelings

Have you ever shared this experience with others?   Yes  Ridicule, laughter. I pick and choose who I tell, my experience was 27 years ago, only three of four people know my story.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?   No  

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:   Experience was definitely real   I remembered everything about where I went, I have no doubt I have been there before, and I will return.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time:   Experience was definitely real   I remembered everything about where I went, I have no doubt I have been there before, and I will return.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?   No  

Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?   Yes   I pray, I no longer attend church ceremony

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?   No  

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience?   No

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?   Yes   Yes