Paul K's Experience
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Experience description:
The
month was June, 1977. I was a deck hand on a sewerage tanker employed by
General Marine Transport, Bayonne NJ. I was in an on and off relationship
with my high school sweetheart, currently off. I generally worked 1 week on
and 1 week off, living on the ship for that time. We had finished loading our
cargo at one of the sewerage plants and were heading out to the dump site 12
miles off Sandy Hook / Ambrose Light. All went well and we dumped our load
about 6 pm and turned around to head back in and to our next pick up. It was
Friday but I was not scheduled to be relieved until Sunday night. After we
turned, I did my usual check list and decided to lay down for the long ride in.
As I lay there, listening to the drone of the engines, I decided to try self
hypnosis as my older brother said it was sometimes possible. So I lay there,
focusing on the sound and the swaying of the ship, trying to clear my head of
everything .
I
began to feel like I had changed my level of consciousness, not sure at first,
but I tried to maintain my focus on nothing at all. And then I felt another
level change and it began to get easier. As my concentration increased, I felt
yet another level and so on until I perceived the last and final level, # 7. I
new I had reached the " bottom".
It was like I had taken a slow elevator down through these seven levels not
really knowing why or how. At that moment I saw some sort of tunnel and began
to journey through, as I recall, there seem to be souls of people that new me or
were there to guide me, not sure. Then I saw a brilliant light, warm and
inviting, all consuming, all knowing. It knew everything about me, I needed not
to speak but communicated none the less. As that encounter ended I found myself
leaving the ship and my body, drawing away at a steady pace, seeing the ship and
its trail in the moonlight.
As I
headed away, I remember thinking, " I hope I can find my way back". I kept
moving over the water at a height of what felt like 50 or 100 ft. Not sure. No
idea where I was going and how much time had passed,,, soon I came over a beach
and up and over a boardwalk and came to rest outside the stone pony, Asbury park
NJ. I waited for someone to open the door and I went in. It was like I was being
shown around the place, looking at all the people as I passed but not being
acknowledged . As I studied my surroundings, I came across one table that my
girlfriend was seated at with some friends. At that moment I knew she was the
purpose of my journey and I became frightened I would not be able to find my
body or my ship, after all, it had been steadily moving across a lot of water.
I began to recede slowly, the door opened and out I went, up and over the beach/
boardwalk and back out over the water. I felt a sense of calm as I realized I
was not in control of anything. I proceeded directly back to the ship and my
body and back up through the seven levels of consciousness , awakened and felt
completely rested and not quite sure what had just happened.
I
went up to the bridge as was my habit to assist with an extra set of eyes at
night as we entered the crowded waters of New York harbor. To my surprise, the
captain says we are heading to port for crew change. Two hours later I was
heading straight to Asbury park. And who do you think I met at the night club
that night, my x girlfriend and we fell in love all over again and got married
had two kids and then divorced and I dislike her to this day. God answers
prayers if its what you truly want, even if its not a divine path, he is a
loving god and in control.
At
the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?
No
Was
the experience difficult to express in words?
Yes
At
what time during the experience were you at your highest level of
consciousness and alertness?
Wow, this is a tricky question after what I just wrote. I was aware at all
times but in a different sense. I just didn't have a body or I should say I was
not confined to my body
How
did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience
compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?
Normal consciousness and alertness During my experience, the body seamed in
insignificant. To this day, I have no idea how long it took
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that
you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.
Overall, it was darker than normal. But it did happen at night and I saw the
ship in the moonlight
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that
you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.
Unaware of any change
Did
you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your
consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?
Yes
What emotions did you feel during the experience?
At
first, absolutely none, then apprehensive as I reached the bottom level. Through
the tunnel, curiously scared, the warmth and penetrating love. As I think of it
now, I would say my emotions were working normally during the experience
Did
you pass into or through a tunnel?
Yes
Did
you see an unearthly light?
Yes
Did
you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable
voice?
I
encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did
you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who
are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha,
etc.)?
Uncertain Who I encountered gave me no name. My perception tells me Jesus
Did
you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?
Uncertain I actually can't remember who I encountered in the tunnel, I know
there was " people" there but it was a long time ago and they were not the focus
of the event and I don't want to add something I'm not sure of
Did
you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?
No
Did
you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?
Some
unfamiliar and strange place
Did
time seem to speed up or slow down?
Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
I
have no idea how much time passed except for the fact I came back to the ship
around 5 hrs. Later, or awoke as it may seem
Did
you suddenly seem to understand everything?
Everything about myself or others
In a way. But I didn't tell anyone about it for a while, but I did realize you
don't have to be near death to experience this
Did
you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
Yes
Yes, it seemed like I couldn't go through things. " doors"
Did
you come to a border or point of no return?
I
came to a definite conscious decision to "return" to life
I felt I needed to return , I was afraid I would not be able to find my body
again, after all, it had moved. But I returned without incident
Did
scenes from the future come to you?
No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly
life (�life after death�)?
Uncertain I would know how to explain it otherwise. There is clearly
something other than our reality
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist?
Yes The light knew everything about me, no need for words. Clearly all
powerful
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime?
No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not)
exist?
Yes This being was surely good and in control, loving and compassionate
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
regarding earthly life�s meaning or purpose?
No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
regarding earthly life�s difficulties, challenges, or hardships?
No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
regarding love?
Yes It searched my soul and revealed to me where I needed to be if I wanted
to pursue the love of my girl friend, even though it was a difficult one
During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information /
awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living
our earthly lives?
No
Did
you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?
No
What occurred during your experience included:
Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of
your experience
How
accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events
that occurred around the time of the experience?
I
remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred
around the time of the experience
Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your
experience:
I
don't like calling it a near death experience because I was not near death to
the best of my knowledge
My experience directly resulted in:
Unknown
Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that
occurred as a result of the experience?
Uncertain I just don't know. I think I live my life the way I would have
anyway. That experience didn't change me, other things that have happened did
though. I love and fear God in all that I do
Do
you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience
that you did not have before the experience?
Uncertain I have always felt a little psychic, although I'm probably not
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful
or significant to you?
Not
now
Have you ever shared this experience with others?
Yes
A few years went by before I told anyone in detail except my mom
Did
you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your
experience?
No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to
weeks) after it happened:
Experience was definitely real
What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time:
Experience was definitely real
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?
No
Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result
of your experience?
No
At
any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the
experience?
No
Did
the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and
comprehensively describe your experience?
Yes