Pam H's Experience
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Experience description:

I have seen deceased relatives, but I mostly see deceased "strangers". They normally like to communicate w/me & sometimes you "feel" as if you already KNOW them, but don't. It is very strange. You travel almost always as if you get a floating/flying sensation. You can also GO THROUGH things like walls, windows, etc. I have even "accidentally" crashed into another spirit. You will see colors and be able to hear a sound when you go through something, except for glass. That doesn't sound different, but LOOKS blurry as you go through it. If you go through something like a wall, you will actually see the inside of the wall and it also sounds kind of muffled. When I mingled w/another spirit by accident, the color was red and it looked a zillion little molecules like you'd possibly see on a static television station. It also has a brief static sound. You can travel up & down through the different astral layers, but you are only allowed to go as "high up" as you spiritually evolved to go. The farther down the level, the dimmer and less color the atmosphere is. The feelings are "spookiest" at the lowest levels.

The farther up you go, the more vivid the color, but mostly the more HAPPIER & PEACEFUL you become and everybody in that one level is at the same happiness level. If you go down, everybody else there mostly involves themselves in earthly pleasures. The further up you go, the less earthly pleasures you have, but you get more "emotion & feeling" w/a sense of complete pleasure, peace and a closeness to GOD. Some areas look like teaching areas and some look like here on earth. Some look like a choreographic musical and everybody is singing and dancing. I have also been able to be in the future looking at now. I know it doesn't make sense, but it IS possible. It is very awesome. Time periods can be viewed almost as "rooms". In many instances, "higher spiritual" beings have observed me. Almost as if I was an "alien" to them. They want to know what I can see and have only a few times, received warnings. They are not allowed to give you a lot of information. You can ask for considerations of changes in your current life and they can actually "pull up" your chart. However, they are not allowed to look inside of it. They can only psychically guess what has happened in the past and have you confirm it. It is impossible to lie, because everyone has the ability to read your mind.

If you float above a great crowd, it sounds like chatter but if you focus on a certain individual, you are automatically conversing with them in your heads. You can only converse w/one person at a time. Some visits seem to be "tests". Possibly to see if I'm allowed to advance to the next level. When they first started happening, I was only allowed at the lowest earthly levels (or lower) and it is very frightening. You have to face the fear of them or else they will feed off your energy and will try to take over your soul. It can be very dangerous. It helps me to ask for protection before I go to sleep. You can not only see in front of you, but your peripheral vision is perfect. You can see almost all the way around you, except for exactly in back of you. You can view ahead like you do w/your eyes or you can actually "see" yourself, but not usually from the front. It is a view behind you and slightly above yourself. Being over there takes a lot of practice especially getting your bearings. You no longer need legs to walk and at first, your speed is slow. With more practice, you can gain magnificent speeds which can feel almost rollercoaster like. There is also a type of hierarchy there. Think of it as GOD as the big CEO of a company. Then, there would be presidents, vice presidents, executives, administrators, and then the workers. Everybody that is in the evolving stage basically has a "job" to do. They are either evolving spiritually, learning, preparing for life or helping others here, including animals.

If you really want to see something or change your "chart" or a circumstance (i.e.: job, etc.), you can ask your spiritual helpers that are assigned to you to go "further up" and ask on your behalf. You can also pray directly to GOD or his Angels, Saints for interceding, but if you are speaking directly to GOD, all communication with them is automatically "shut off". Your prayers are private. Only between you and Him. If you want your helpers to help you, you have to be very specific. If you say something like I really need help finding a job, they will help, but it may not be the job you were hoping for. You'd have to say something like; Please Angels, intercede on my behalf. This is what my SOUL needs to evolved towards Christ. You would ask (in prayer) that you want a job that you will thoroughly enjoy and will be part of your "passion". If it involves your soul evolving (or especially feeling hopeless) they are more apt to ask your higher-ups and try to help you. You are absolutely able to change your chart (life plan) but that has to go even higher up and most likely have to be in a stand still emotionally or at a desperate time emotionally.

I had it happen to me and I even was able to "take part" in the panel of Elders associated with the life change I was asking for. It was totally awesome. Almost everybody there (except higher up) appears as adults. Usually maybe looking around early thirties. I think there is a significance to the age 33 which was the age of Christ's death on the cross, but I don't know enough about that yet. The only people that appear older are what I refer to as "Elders". These people are usually in teaching areas and appear as teachers or speakers. Also, your personal helpers who are watching out for you can appear as older. If you see a deceased relative, you will see them at the age you remember them as. If you have a cousin or friend that died as a child, they will appear to you as a child. That is so you can recognize them when you see them. However, anybody can change anything physically about them; hair color, eyes, body shape, etc. I have so much more to tell, but my arms are so tired from typing. Much, much more that happens over there. FASCINATING!

Was this experience difficult to express in words?  Yes


DEFINITELY! I try to tell everyone when I first wake up because I tend to forget after I'm more lucid. I am in a kind of "babbling" state. Not much information comes out except solid details. That is very hard though because everything (except traveling) is mostly experienced telepathically AND with emotions.

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          Yes

            Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:            Sometimes while just waking up or falling asleep I will hear people having conversations. I am usually in a very drowsy and relaxed state when this happens. I often hear (only Men so far) speaking like in a Latin/Hebrew language and also speaking some sort of scripture. If I'm already "over there" I hear people just fine. However, you hear them very fast, mostly because their "thinking" fast. Their level has kind of a higher frequency or vibration, so I have had to tell people to slow down so I can understand them.

            Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated?  Yes, knowing (feeling the feelings) but speaking with telepathy.

            If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive?           Deceased more speak in thoughts, not noise. Most of them are strangers so they have their own distinct voice like you & I. Relatives tend to speak to you with your voice in your head. Hard to explain.

            Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           Nope

            Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?   Only sometimes a higher vibration and faster communication that we're used to.

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?            Yes

When I saw my deceased uncle after his death & appeared to me, I went to hug him and forgot that I wasn't in the physical and my arms went "through" him. We both cracked up!

            Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar?   Unfamiliar.

            Was anything communicated by the touch?  See Above.

            Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?  Absolutely not.

Did you see the deceased?         Yes

Strangers will sometimes appear in the fashions of the time when they lived. Mostly, you rarely pay attention to what someone is wearing. For some reason, I usually don't see them down past their waist. For some reason, they are usually "legless". Probably due to the fact that unless you are looking to see what they are wearing, you will not notice it. You normally only pay attention to their face & head (for telepathic thinking)

            How clearly did the deceased appear?            Spirits are usually very clear, but I have had apparitions show me how they appear from energy to almost an orb to a transparency w/an outline, then color, then full form with full color.

            How much of the deceased did you see?       Usually only see them from waist up. Except for times when they are dancing, etc. A relative is more likely to show you their full body image. (Probably because that's how you remember them). Strangers really don't care how you see them. They have no earthly worries or expectations to live up to.

            Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?       At the age they died or at the age you last saw them.

            How healthy did the deceased appear to be?            Happy & Healthy. They have no physical deformities or limitations.

            Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           Nope, they're all people I've never seen before. I'm positive about that.

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?      Uncertain

            What smell, scent, fragrance or odor did you smell?           With strangers, usually no. With relatives, not so much smells but familiar surroundings you are used to seeing them in.

            Was the smell, scent, fragrance or odor familiar?     n/a

            Was anything communicated by the smell?   Memories.

            Is there any possibility that the smell, scent, fragrance or odor was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?        No, my Grandma's rose garden is NOT in my bedroom while I sleep.

How long did the experience last?        No Sense of time. Seemed like forever. However, realistically, it usually all happens within 2 hours at most.

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?         I've experience both, but more typically sudden & spontaneous and uncontrolled.

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           Yes

Absolutely. It's all feelings over there!

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?  Sometimes.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?           Experience was definitely real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:           More lucid & vivid than real life or any dream. The "good places" are more colorful too!

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   No  Nothing like a dream.

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:           I've felt every emotion at different times. Some scary, some happy, some peaceful, etc.

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?           Yes

Absolutely. Grateful & very emotional. Sometimes just happy, sometimes sad or scary and sometimes absolutely Heavenly. A feeling of closeness to God and a feeling of wanting to worship God & being happy to do it! Has brought me to tears, down on my knees, enlightening and blessed.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      Too much to explain here.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Yes                 Describe:      My soul has, not so much my "life".      

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
   Yes     Took several years though.

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?            Yes     I don't think I should share that.

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?        Yes

Compact w/my family members. No not the deceased I experienced.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Uncertain They have yet to happen.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Total and udder THANKFULNESS. Blessed & enlightened.

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?           No

No, although I continually try to wake family members up with my astral body.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes

No sense of time.

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Yes

Yes, not sure to share. God respects humbleness.

Did you become aware of future events?       Yes

Have yet to see if it happens.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         Yes

Kinetic energy & visions. Spirits seem to follow me around from house to house.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Uncertain

Don't understand the question???

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?            Yes

Yes, see above.

Did you see a light?           No

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?            Yes

Astral & Earthly planes.

Have you shared this experience with others?        

Yes     Only family members mostly and only people I trust. I don't care about strangers like you though because you don't know me & can't judge me. I have learned not to tell a lot of people because sometimes they look at me like I'm nuts. I've gotten negative feedback from professionals before. They look at me like I'm crazy & I'm Skitzo. I don't tell them. People here judge. People over there DON'T.

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?            Yes

Family, but nobody has ever contacted me.

 Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?       Would like to be in touch with someone that is interested in doing serious research or would like more info.

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?            Uncertain

Not really I think. I can have them whether or not I'm taking medicines, but I do notice more "activity" when I've taken something to sleep like Benadryl, and I routinely take a common anti-depressant for insomnia due to it's sedating qualities. I have more activity when I'm in a DEEP sleep.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No 

They keep happening now. I have these experiences with the dead at least once a week. I'm used to them now.

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?           No 

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes

Except one, above.