Nena J's Experience
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Experience description:
I had spent two months
working and studying at a Baha'i summer camp in Michigan. It was enjoyable,
challenging, etc. but not a grand spiritual experience (I was not a particularly
spiritual person, at the time). In fact, I had on-going clashes with the camp
leader who I called "Das Commandant" and we were not sorry to part company.
I returned to Canada
early in September where I rented a very cheap room for a month and paid the
tuition on a month of secretarial school. After that, I had only a few dollars
leftover for the whole month. I calculated that I had enough money for 1 loaf of
bread daily and a return bus ticket to school. Nothing else. This was very
worrying so I went for a walk, wondering how I would survive on just bread.
I was walking along on
a tree-lined street, on a beautiful, sunny day when I suddenly thought, "I know,
I'll trust in God!" I was instantly transported into an absolutely heavenly
place where I stayed for the next two weeks. At the end, heaven gradually faded
away. There was no way I could stop it but I was not extremely distressed as I
knew I would be able to return someday in the future.
I did not see this
place with ordinary eyes. I can't describe it. I was also always in the
ordinary world. But it was heaven and not ordinary at all in terms of: spiritual
beings; extraordinary knowledge whenever I wanted it; incredible joy at all
times.
I can't really say what
I learned (far too huge) except that I knew this was reality and the ordinary
world was not. I also knew it is always available to anyone who would simply
accept the will of God. Nothing else matters. I believe (now) that I had to come
back in order to be able to relate to people in ordinary reality and also to
unlearn family patterns I had adopted at birth.
Many people have
described moments like I had (during prayer or meditation, particularly) but no
one I've met has stayed there for two weeks. All of us identify it as reality,
not a dream.
Sorry I can't be more
articulate.
At the time of your
experience was there an associated life-threatening event?
No
Was the experience
difficult to express in words?....Yes....Impossible.
It didn't belong in this time or place so there are no words.
At what time during
the experience were you at your highest level of
consciousness and
alertness?....More
consciousness and alertness than normal Almost the entire two weeks was
"highest level", except for a few moments when it was fading away at the
end.....I was in almost constant communication with spiritual beings on a myriad
topics. Any question was immediately answered. In between, I felt joy which I
had never felt before in my life.
Please compare your
vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately
prior to the time of the experience.
Just before I
went into the experience, the autumn was stunning (trees, sunshine) and this
helped me propel my acceptance of God's will, I think. After, I only saw the
ordinary world but was entirely consumed by Heaven. Weird, I know.
Please compare your
hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately
prior to the time of the experience.
Don't remember.
Did you see or hear
any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness /
awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?
Yes Both here and
there were real most of the time.I was often unaware of my body but not outside
it.
What emotions did you
feel during the experience?....Joy.
Joy. Joy. (lol, this was before I married my husband and Joy became my last
name).
Did you pass into or
through a tunnel?....No....
Did you see an
unearthly light?....Uncertain....I
think I did but don't remember with my brain.
Did you seem to
encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?....I
encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Many beings.
Can't describe them. They were just there. I was one of them.
Did you encounter or
become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?....Uncertain
No one I knew so, again, I don't know if they were beings of that place or had
previously lived here.
Did you become aware
of past events in your life during your experience?....Uncertain....Don't
remember. Could have been because it was like lifetimes.
Did you seem to enter
some other, unearthly world?....Some
unfamiliar and strange place....Strange
and unfamiliar, infinitely beautiful, full of all the knowledge of the universe,
past, present, future and beyond.
Did time seem to speed
up or slow down?....Everything
seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning....Lost all
meaning covers it. I didn't care about yet. Yet, I went to school, etc. on time.
I was here and there at the same time but here was meaningless except I needed
to do it, I suppose.
Did you suddenly seem
to understand everything?....Everything
about the universe....Lol,
too big to describe. I don't know most of it any longer but some stayed with me
-- no words, though.
Did you reach a
boundary or limiting physical structure?....No....
Did you come to a
border or point of no return?....No....I
had NO desire to ever come back. I wanted to stay there but it slowly faded out
of my awareness.
Did scenes from the
future come to you?....No....Maybe,
but I don't know. Not overt, in your face scenes.
Did you have a sense
of knowing special knowledge or purpose?....Uncertain....Yes,
but nothing unavailable to anybody else who is willing.
Discuss any changes
that might have occurred in your life after your experience:....Large
changes in my life....I know where I am going and how to get there (accept what
IS as the will of God -- doesn't mean I shouldn't change it, though)....
Did you have any
changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result
of the experience?
Yes Just that I
know the spiritual Universe is 99.9% of reality.
Do you have any
psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did
not have before the experience?....Uncertain
I've always been a bit on the psychic side but now I pretty much function that
way. I trust it completely which is perhaps more than I would have. Not sure.
Have you ever shared
this experience with others?
Yes Don't recall. I
share it often with people who are (or want to be) spiritual. They react well
(I'm believable or at least they don't suggest I'm not) -- no idea of influence.
Did you have any
knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?....Uncertain
I think I may have had something as a baby but I'm not sure. No effect on the
later experience except it did seem a bit familiar.
What did you believe
about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it
happened:....Experience
was definitely real To think anything else would be to deny all reality. It
was more real than me or you or a Mac truck or an elephant I'm looking at at the
zoo. Just real.
What do you believe
about the reality of your experience at the current time:....Experience
was definitely real....Same thing. Nothing real-et has ever happened to me.
Have your
relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?....Uncertain....I
expect I'm more tolerant of the varieties of human experience.
Have your religious
beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?....Yes
I
take religion and the spiritual a great deal more seriously
At any time in your
life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?....Yes
Yes, a few times for short periods. Usually at the end of a weekend of spiritual
learning/activity. Ordinarily, I am very concrete, down to earth, prosaic. It
takes something out of the ordinary to break through that but then -- there's
Heaven, again! Always there.
Did the questions
asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe
your experience?
Uncertain Too much
emphasis on specific information. That just didn't correlate with my experience.
Are there one or
several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant
to you? No,
the whole thing was one thing. It didn't come in parts.