Natasha G's Experience
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Experience description:
I was 12 or 13 at the
time with my biological mother, step father and 3 step brothers. Our financial
circumstances were very poor. My stepfather was an alcoholic. My mother was
extremely violent and mentally unstable. She was extremely violent and both
physically and emotionally abusive towards me. My brothers got the bulk of
emotional caring and warmth. I was mostly sidelined. My maternal grandmother was
my only source of comfort. I cant remember the events of the day only that I
"woke up" from being asleep. I was not ill at all. I was not emotionally
distressed at that point but I was completely and totally drained and exhausted.
I was in an environment that was non-ending. There was not point of reference to
begin or end. It was not black but more grey. There were 100's of beings with me
standing together. They were human form but had no physical human body. I
remember feeling very calm safe and comfortable. I had an extreme sense of being
in a natural state. I asked to go with them because I simply couldn't keep on
living with my family. I desperately wanted to die and be with these beings.
They said no, I have a life to live still I cant go with them yet but that I
will be ok. There was a central figure of authority but there was also an
equality with everyone. I accepted this and then simply woke up the next
morning. These being were not of a specific sex and I did not know anyone. Death
was never discussed but was regarded as a shocking taboo. You don't speak about
it.
At the time of your
experience was there an associated life-threatening event?
No
Was the experience
difficult to express in words?....No....
At what time during
the experience were you at your highest level of
consciousness and
alertness?....More
consciousness and alertness than normal During the entire experience....I had
an extreme sense of being in a natural state and environment.
Please compare your
vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately
prior to the time of the experience.
Unsure how to
comment. My vision was the same.
Please compare your
hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately
prior to the time of the experience.
The same
Did you see or hear
any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness /
awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?
No
What emotions did you
feel during the experience?....Calm
relaxed and very content. No fear or anxiety whatsoever. A strong sense of
acceptance.
Did you pass into or
through a tunnel?....No....
Did you see an
unearthly light?....No....
Did you seem to
encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?....I
encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you encounter or
become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?....No
Did you become aware
of past events in your life during your experience?....No....
Did you seem to enter
some other, unearthly world?....Some
unfamiliar and strange place....
Did time seem to speed
up or slow down?....No....
Did you suddenly seem
to understand everything?....No....I
had no sense of needing to know anything or of human reasoning. Just a
definitive sense of acceptance.
Did you reach a
boundary or limiting physical structure?....Uncertain....The
other beings had a human resemblance but they were not physically human. I was
the exact same as them but I did not see myself from a different angle. I was
grounded in myself if that makes sense. I was aware of me and who and what I am
as I am right now.
Did you come to a
border or point of no return?....I
came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was "sent back" against
my will....I
wanted to go with the other beings but was denied this. I accepted it wholly and
did not feel disappointed or unhappy.
Did scenes from the
future come to you?....No....
Did you have a sense
of knowing special knowledge or purpose?....Uncertain....I
had no insight or knowledge or reason for my earthly life only that it was
something I had to finish. I have no choice in this.
Discuss any changes
that might have occurred in your life after your experience:....Unknown....My
views on equality has changed. I believe in absolute equality on all levels be
it sex race religion human rights etc.....
Did you have any
changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result
of the experience?
No My beliefs is
what I formed through life experiences. My NDE cemented that there is life after
death but that it is possibly without god.
Do you have any
psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did
not have before the experience?....No
Have you ever shared
this experience with others?
Yes I don't share my
experience with anyone. I have told my children and my husband and maybe one or
two others. I feel it is very personal and private not because of feeling
embarrassed by it but rather that it is sacred to me.
Did you have any
knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?....No
What did you believe
about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it
happened:....Experience
was definitely real
What do you believe
about the reality of your experience at the current time:....Experience
was definitely real....
Have your
relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?....No....
Have your religious
beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?....Yes
I
believe in a life after death but it has nothing to do with religion. I despise
religion.
At any time in your
life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?....No
Did the questions
asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe
your experience?
Yes