Experience 1 & 2

Experience description #1:   

Just put my children to bed. My husband were sitting in bed, talking - all of sudden, I felt a tremendous pressure in my head and there was an audible vibration in my ears. I closed my eyes for a second to try and find some kind of balance. At which point, it felt like I was moving very fast. I could feel a massive amount of energy and pressure surrounding my body - the sensation wasn't painful or anything, just incredibly powerful. I remember thinking to myself "hmmm, I wonder how far I can go with this" My curiosity at the time was tempered by the fact that I was only in control of the choice of whether I wanted to continue or end it. I had no control over the energy that was sucking me through this long vortex like thing. As I continued moving, I could feel myself gaining momentum - the vibration and noise was deafening, although it didn't hurt my ears. At some point, my curiosity was over ruled by my sense of autonomy. In the instant I said "no" - everything stopped and I dropped very fast. I opened my eyes and looked at my husband - he was still talking as if nothing had happened...it had only been seconds.  

About two weeks prior - I had the same experience, yet at that time I was frightened. I had been pulled up in the same manner but, I was not curious in the least. In fact, almost immediately I thought "No WAY" and I dropped right beck in my body. One of the reasons why I was curious as to how far I could go was because during the first experience, I was able to stop it with a mere thought. The second time - I knew I could stop at any time, so I was curious. 

The only thing these experiences gave me was the realization that my will is as powerful as that vortex. It was a very interesting and dynamic experience. At the time, I wasn't training in the martial arts. I began training in 1998 - it was a very traditional structure that incorporated mind, body & spirit training. For ten years, I trained 6 days a week - 3-4 hours a day. I learned how to exist as a balanced observer. I became increasingly aware of my chi and I realize now that it was made of the same energy that I had experienced when I left my body years ago.  

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?   No   

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words?   No   

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?   No   

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?   Highly alert

Was the experience dream like in any way?   No

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?   Uncertain   I still existed as myself but I was part of the energy...just a perception

What emotions did you feel during the experience?    Curiosity with a little fear that might have turned into anger. You have to understand, I was being drawn in without permission - I was aware of that. However, my curiosity prompted me to find out who or what had the power to draw me out of my body. I suppose my instinct recognized some danger, that's when it ended. It has never happened again - I don't think that I would allow it unless it I decide to do it.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?    Loud vibration, static...energy. Heavy, thick multi leveled sound...incredibly loud but, did not hurt my ears.

Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?    No   

Did you see a light?    Yes    Blinding white light of energy - with prismatic colors, that looked kind of like static atoms.

Did you meet or see any other beings?    No   

Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state?   Uncertain    Explained above

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?   No   

Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different?    Yes    I remember sensing on all levels

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?    Uncertain    The experience lasted about 2-3 minutes...back at the ranch it had only been a second. So...I guess "yes", time was funny.

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Yes    Even though I didn't know where I was going, I could control the event by consciously choosing to end the experience.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?    Uncertain    Somewhat. Even though I was not constrained - I was a little bothered by the organization of energy which kept me contained. It felt contrived and controlled...in a sense.

Did you become aware of future events?    No   

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?    Yes    Absolutely, as explained above.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?    Yes    Not any more or less than the usual

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes   

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?    No

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?   No   

Have you shared this experience with others?    Yes    A few people

What was the best and worst part of your experience?   Neither, it was a learning experience

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?    I'm putting it together now

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?    Uncertain          

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?    Uncertain     

Experience description #2:   

I was in some sort of box with other people, including my mother. We were outside of the earths atmosphere rising up in this box that had no walls - we could see the stars. It was kind of like an elevator. I look up and there appears an enormous space ship - it was at least 200 levels, I couldn't count. All I know is that it was huge - like the size of a city times 200 in width. It was silver-ish and it was just floating in space.

Like in any experience or dream, if I sense that I am being manipulated - it agitates me. My mother was next me and she seemed to be in this dull and unresponsive state - this concerned me. The other people traveling with us were also in this "duh" state - yet, I was very aware and paid attention to as many details as possible.

We arrive at the ship and the next thing I knew my mother and I were in this pod like room with other women. The room was circular with large tiered steps leading to a central open space. There weren't that many women in this room, although by the bed count - it could house about 50. My mother wanted to go to sleep-I directed her to one of the top tiers as far from the door as possible. Each bed was recessed into the tier - the looked like form fitting jacuzzis, made of some kind of ceramic material with these funny black holes with mesh over them. I remember thinking "what the hell is that?...that is not a bed" I told my mother "do not sleep in there!!" She was so tired, she didn't care. I sensed that if I left her there she would never come back. I had to find out where we were - something wasn't right.

I saw a woman sitting at a table applying make up and doing her hair (like she was going out on a date). I asked her what she was doing here and why. She smiled happily and told me that she was treated very well in exchange for her participation. Of course, I asked her what it was she was participating in. She didn't tell me but I sensed that this wasn't some vacation spot...these women were being used for something and in exchange they were given creature comforts.

I look back at my mother as she lays down in this capsule like bed and I realized that if I didn't find something out soon - she would never wake up. I began to feel a surge of energy coursing through my body - granted, it wasn't happy energy...it was more like a creating an impenetrable steel barrier of protection.

I felt this calm awareness arise in my consciousness...kind of like being in a no mind state of awareness. I walked out of the room and proceeded to go through many passageways until I reach another room. This particular room was transport station. I never saw the beings that were running this ship, even though I felt them around me. For some reason, they did not appear nor did they make any attempt to stop me. It was almost like I had somehow been able to move without any detection.

When I entered the transport room - I saw about 20 men in military uniforms (carrying weapons) standing in the black box with no walls. They all had this dull look on their faces. I walked up to them and started yelling at them. "What the hell are you doing, you traitors...you're betraying your own people...how could you work for these monsters? Look at yourselves....you're all cowards, you make me sick..." etc... I was so angry at them, they were betraying our species - they didn't have the will power to resist these invisible manipulators. As I continued my rant, they shuffled nervously and I told them that they were weak and pathetic-they might as well shoot themselves in the head because they were useless human beings.

I left the transport room...my energy levels were raging but, I had them in check. I continued my search - not sure what I was looking for...some answers as to why we had been brought up. I continued down this myriad of passageways, there lots of doors leading to other rooms. I decided to open one of the doors - it was small room filled with some kind of video monitors and what appeared to an examination table...there were also couches - it was a weird room. A man was sitting in front of one of the monitors-he turned around and looked at me with that same dull look in his eyes - he smiled and said he had been waiting for me. I looked at him and told him to go f&*k himself, then slammed the door closed.

I continued down the passageways until I heard voices and laughter on the other side of another door. I opened the door and saw 100's of people in a line to get onto this huge rowboat, it was so long I couldn't see the bow. It was floating on a very deep blue sea and we were outside...the sky was crisp and blue. I watched as people were getting on this boat - curious as to how there was a big blue sea in the middle of space. There was a desk with people taking tickets to get on the boat. One of the women was my youngest daughter. When she saw me she gave me a huge smile and told me that she had my ticket. I asked her if she was coming with me...she just smiled and ignored the question. It was kind of like "Stepford Wives" ...She just ushered me into the line and said "don't worry mom, it's beautiful...you'll love it".

There were numerous men in uniforms helping the passengers onto the boat. The engines were running but something didn't feel hunky dory right...everything looked okay but, it still felt wrong. I think it was the ocean that distracted me - it was cold and it felt empty. I watched the men as they prepared the boat to leave...in an instant, I decided to push one of them off into the water....just to see what would happen. He sunk into the water and his legs were cut off by something - he surfaced with a blank expression. The other men pulled him out - both legs were gone. The men were almost surprised but then all of sudden both legs grew back. They then turned around stared at me with the cold, dead eyes.

At that point i realized it was time for me to leave, so I did and woke up.

I thought about the dream for several days and to this day I can't say for sure what kind of dream this was because, it seemed awfully real. One thing is for sure - the beings were not invincible. 

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?   No   

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words?   No   

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?   No   

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?   Deep sleep - lucid

Was the experience dream like in any way?   Yes but tangible

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?   No  

What emotions did you feel during the experience?    Curiosity, anger

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?    no

Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?    No            

Did you meet or see any other beings?    Yes    Strangers              

Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different?    Yes    Heightened sense of awareness

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?    Uncertain   

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Uncertain    I became an active observer

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?    Yes   

Did you become aware of future events?    Uncertain   

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?    Yes    I left the dream and woke up        

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes    Awareness defines the outcome           

Have you shared this experience with others?    Yes   

What was the best and worst part of your experience?   Recognizing unlimited potential