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We lived right across the street from my Grandmother and I often spent the night at her house.  Usually I slept with her, but sometimes on the sofa.   I was sleeping on her sofa.  We were having a wind and rain storm.   I fell asleep and woke up to find I was about 50 feet or so above the houses on our street.  Someone/something was holding me and there were two of them holding me.   I could feel their hands and arms around me and I had no fear of falling or them letting me fall.  But, it was dark, and the wind blew us all around, up and down and sideways.  I felt it very keenly, and I felt secure, but frightened that I could not see the two who were holding me.  I felt the wind, and it was strong.  It was  the middle of the night and no  house lights were on.  I told no one about this experience because I didn't think they would believe me, that it was real.  It was more real than in the daytime and unlike any other dream to this date. 

SECOND out of body experience;   I was 17 years old and having sex with my steady boyfriend.   I had no sex information/training or anything.  While we were having sex, my spirit (?) or something major shot out of my body and I was "just out there!"  Out there, where?   I don't know.  Shortly I was back in my body.   I tried to explain it to my boyfriend and he laughed and told me I had experienced an orgasm.   Well, today I am 65 years old. and have never had anything like that transpire during sex or an orgasm.  I was shot out of my body and I felt it and it scared me badly.  It was very real.  I can remember it as if were 5 minutes ago.

THIRD out of body experience; I was 23 years old. and had three children.  We had all gone to bed and to sleep.   I woke up and could not move any portion of my body.  My brain and mind was very awake.  I could not move my hand to reach the phone to call the operator, police or anyone.  I was frantically hysterically afraid that I would never be able to move my body.  It seemed like a very long time, but perhaps it was minutes that this lasted?   I did fall back asleep, still not having been able to move my body parts.  When I woke up in the morning, I was normal. 

When I was 32 years old., I was in a shelter for abused women in Anchorage, AK, with my three children.   We shared a room.  We were all asleep.  Suddenly, I was out of my body...again....and standing on a grassy, sort of hill, with long grass and weeds and standing at a fence. It was dark.  About 30 feet from me was the most beautiful cemetery. The sun was shining on the cemetery.  There were rows of startlingly white crosses that marked each grave and I saw them for as far as my eye could see. The white crosses were the whitest white, and the grass was the greenest green I had ever seen, but did not see the sun directly.  Then;  from my right came Jesus.  HE was walking slowly.  I could hear the quiet, if you can understand that?  I could.   He was walking slowly along the rows of the graves with the white crosses.  He knew I was there, I could feel that He knew I was there.  He did not speak to me. He did not look directly at me. But, I saw him clearly.  He wore a long white robe, with the larger opening at the sleeves, with a gold rope at the waist. Brown sandals at His feet. Long hair and short beard.  He was so beautiful.  I was very much aware of the fence between us, the darkness on my side and the light on His side. He was magnificent to look at.  I could see the love in Him. And then, I woke up.   I was crying.  It was not a dream.  I was there, and it was far more real than any experience of my life to that point.  I was not a Christian at that time, but I was after this vision of Jesus.

I was 47 years old. and was an apartment manager at that time.  I was under stress of managing alone with no help and in the early morning, I heard a female voice, clearly tell me;   "Focus on the positive forces of the universe." This was not a dream.

I was 47 years old. and just weeks after the voice came to me;   I again in the early morning heard a former boyfriend who was deceased say to me;   I love you and I am waiting for you.  This too was not a dream or a wished for thing.  It scared me.  It was his exact voice. 

I was 53 years old. and driving home from work, fully awake, on I-5 going around 60 mph.   9:30 A.M.  I was in the middle lane of three lanes.  Suddenly, the Heaven's opened up and I "FELT"  all the love in the universe.  It was overpowering.  It was awesome.  It was like the love you have for your children, but magnified a million times or more.  It lasted just a few seconds, but when it closed back up, I began to cry.  Was I close to dying from a car accident, I asked myself?  Was a heart attack or other physical trauma about to come?   While I so enjoyed beyond description, the feeling of all that enormous, (not the right words to describe) LOVE, I was angry that it happened while I was driving and it could have made me crazy and crash the car!  I wished it had happened when I was home sitting down or in my bed.  I cried and I marveled at this experience all the way home, another 25 minutes.  I never related this experience for many more years.

When I was 53 years old. also;  I woke up one morning and told my husband that we had to go to Bingo that night because I was going to win on B-11.  He laughed.  We didn't have the money to go.   We borrowed the money to go....and yep, I won on the 11th game, on B-11.  I sure did.  But, I didn't like it.  I don't WANT to know the future!  This scared me.

I was 56 years old. and working as a CNA for Hospice.  I had spent the afternoon with a favorite patient, who was non-responsive.  That Friday night, I saw in a vision;   a dark wood pedestal, and on it was a very bright, very white perfectly folded large cloth.  In a small well lit room.  Then, to the side of this cloth on the pedestal, was Jesus!  He was holding a body, that was draped with this same cloth!  He was standing about 15 feet from me.  I didn't know who it was, but I knew someone close to me had died and they were with the Lord.   That morning, Saturday, I got a phone call from a supervisor telling me my patient had died in the night. Normally, notification is done on email, but she phoned me because she knew we were close.  I told her, "yes, I know, I saw her and she is with Jesus."  I did not feel right telling her this as I am so afraid no one will believe me and think I am nuts.  But, I did!  And more real than in the daylight waking hours!

When my Father passed in 1995, and my Mother passed in 2001, I saw both of them!  A spirit I could feel and was aware of, but could not see, took me to Heaven and held me at the window of a large building.  My Mother was sitting at the end of the pew, and I could tell she was in a lecture hall of some sort, lots of other people there.  She was young again!  And, she was so beautiful!  Beyond description. She was not aware that I was there and got to see her.   

My Father was always a heavy built man, with many health issues over the years. He came to me one day, in a sun-lit room.  He was smiling, He was healthy, he was  young and walked so happily and briskly. He no longer used his cane or had his limp. HE was slim of build too.   I was amazed at how good he looked and how happy he seemed.  Both parents were Christians, late in their lives.  HE knew I was there, but we did not speak.....I was speechless at the surprise of seeing him.  I thank God that He let me see them both. 

  I was 61 years old.

I had money problems and worried about losing my condo.  I was working part time and barely able to make it financially.   New neighbors moved in downstairs and were boisterous and domestically violent towards each other.  The police were there 1-2 times a week.  I was divorced and felt there was no one in the world who could or would help me cope with all my deep felt stresses;  My daughter and I were estranged as well.  I went to bed on the last day of April.  That was the night of May 1st, 2007.  Just as I lie down, I physically FELT a spirit lie down right on top of my whole entire body.  It did not frighten me.  It felt warm.  It felt full of so  much love.  It stayed for several minutes and it stayed until I fell asleep.  When I am stressed out, all I have to do is remember;  "that feeling."

When I was 63 years old. I lost a long term lady friend who was Native American Indian.  I attended her funeral, it was Indian with the herbs and incense burning.   It was very unusual.  Three days later in the early morning hours, I woke up "smelling" the burning herbs and incense!  It scared me half to death!  I  know Gail was there telling me good-bye, but I wish she hadn't, she scared me badly.  I am sorry, I don't like these things, except for when the spirit lay down on top of me and held me with such love, and seeing my parents, and Jesus.  Especially Jesus.

Twice;  I have seen Satan.  He appeared in the night as I was sleeping, but this was not a dream in any sense of the word.  He was seated in a very dark room.  No light whatsoever, The room was black.  However, he was many times darker black than the room and it scared me more than anything I have ever experienced or can imagine happening.  I got up and was afraid to turn on the light and go to the bathroom, I was shaking.  He did not speak to me.  We just looked at one another. 

God is real.  Satan is real.  I have seen them both.  I was in my late 30's when I saw Satan.   

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     No      


Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes     Can't adequately describe intense feelings or the things I have seen.


At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          No      

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?           Extremely high.  More so than when awake. 

Feels more real if you can imagine that?

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   NO, unlike any dreams, ever.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes     I have had several paranormal experiences.  I do not like them.  They scare me greatly.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Same emotions as when awake, but far more finely tuned, sharper, clearer, more precise, had never heard the "quietness" before.  Had never seen such vivid colors, so much brighter than ours here and what we know.  Didn't sense "time."

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           If this is an acceptable answer;  I did in fact hear the quietness, the complete and total lack of any sound whatsoever for the first time in my life.  <  on some of the occasions. 

On some >  I did in fact hear the (Angel?) tell me, "focus on the positive aspects of the universe."  And I also heard my deceased former boyfriend say to me;   "I love you and I am waiting for you."  In his own voice.

LOCATION DESCRIPTION:  Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?            Yes     The two times I actually saw Jesus, I don't know where we were?

The time I was driving on the freeway, I KNOW when the Heaven's opened up, it was what it is like in Heaven.  I KNOW that to my heart.

Did you see a light?           Yes     I saw the light both times I saw Jesus. 

I too, saw the dark on my side of the fence that separated Jesus and me.

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes     I saw my Hospice patient lying under the ultra-white burial cloth.  I did not see her face, just the body.  Later that morning I was informed of her death and knew it was her.  She had told me weeks prior that she was a Christian, but her daughter was not aware of the fact.



Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state? No      

The three times I was out of body;  as a child 6 years old., it scared me, no other people, just the two whatevers that were holding me up in the air.

As a 17 years old., no, I did not see anyone or anything. 

As a 23 years old., my spirit was gone, but my mind and body were left on the bed.

Very scary all 3 times.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Yes     My Bingo was very real!  It scared me.

Yes, my Hospice patient was indeed dead.

Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different?          Yes     OH YES!  My senses were like never before!  All were ultra-heightened to the max!   I to this day can remember the exact precise same feelings of all the above mentioned episodes.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes     No time was present, that's why I don't know how long I was being carried thru the storm that night.  Nor, how long I stood at that fence.  Nor, how long I felt all the love in the universe! 

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Uncertain           

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?             Yes     Yes!  I knew I could not go across the fence to go up to Jesus.  I don't know how or why I knew, but I did.

Did you become aware of future events?       Yes     Winning at Bingo.

And other insignificant happenings, all small.  But, scary just the same.

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?       No       I was out of body, then I was in body.  I had no control.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         Yes     Bingo winning.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes     YES!   After seeing Jesus the first time, I realized the reason I was behind a fence that I could not pass, even though it was only about three feet high, was that it was because I was not a Christian.   Well, I am now!!!!!

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?       The paranormal experiences have greatly effected my whole life.  I went to Sunday school as a child but was not a committed Christian for several years.  Seeing Jesus makes one KNOW there is a God, and an afterlife.  And have a strong desire to share what I have seen and experienced with others.  But, afraid to tell them, for fear they won't believe me, and the few I have told, I can see in their faces they do not believe me.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Yes     As a true committed believer, I feel sorrow for those who do not believe. 

I at one time deeply criticized believers thinking they were religious foolish people who went around Bible-Thumping and trying to live in the next world, IF there was one at all.  Now, I know there is.  I KNOW there is, I have seen God.

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     I have shared these multiple experiences with a very few people.   One, was a strong Christian, but she did not appear to believe me.   This hurts very much.  To have experienced such dramatic  life events, that I was not seeking, or even understood, they just came to me, and no one who believes me.  It was all real, every single incident, God knows it was.

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  Emotions:  Mostly a very vivid memory of each micro-second of the episodes.  All of them as if  they occurred just moments ago. 

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      Seeing Jesus Christ my Lord and Savior was the best.

The worst is that this stuff scares me, badly.  And seeing Satan is the scariest thing on earth, believe me!  He is so black, you would not believe your own eyes, and his eyes glow.  Those I could see in the dark.

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        In a way I wish they would stop completely.

In a way, I can't wait for the next one!  (smiling)

I have always been afraid of drugs and alcohol.  I am not a nut-case!  I have held very responsible employment with psychological testing on some of them prior to employment acceptance.  The only One who believes these things have occurred in my life, is God.  And I am ok with that.  HE knows.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No       Absolutely not!  Nothing even close.

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes     for the  most part.  What's so hard  is to describe or explain is the feelings of seeing Jesus.  We can't adequately describe things when we don't know how to or have insufficient words with which to do so.  It's frustrating. I just KNOW.  And that's not enough.  I want everyone to know, so they will come to the Lord as well.  Hell is real and Satan is real, and it's for....ever.  God doesn't choose, we do.  By not choosing, we have chosen.

Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.    No, I don't believe so. 

And this is the first time I have related my experiences to strangers, but it might help them to seek the Lord?  I hope so.  I pray so.  And I am sorry I waited all these years to do so.  And I am still drug and alcohol free!  smiling.....