Your life will go in the direction of your thoughts�

PART 1

At three years old, I had a spiritual experience, I remember standing in the dining room, I felt the walls open up and disappear.   I remember saying �God, what am I doing here?

Why did you leave me here alone, God?�

At 12 years old I was put in an institution for child abuse and neglect.   From then on, my life became a series of pain and defeat.   I virtually from that point on had no substantial relationships with any of my family.

At 16, I left the home, moved back in with my mother and 2 months later, our house was burned down by the mafia.   I then went back to the institution until I was 20 years old were then I would go out on my own.

At 29, I went on to marry an abusive man, who was later diagnosed with sociopath tendencies.   I had 2 children and the pain and suffering continued.   After 14 years, I finally had the marriage dissolved. At this point had no support system at all. I had limited financial help from him nor did he have any interest in having any relationship with his children. 

By age 42, I was now a single mom, trying to take care of my children alone. Trying to keep a roof over our house, feed and clothe them and be a mother and father to them. I was a hairdresser that had no steady income, basically working off commission and tips only. But, I was finally free of him and the abuse and would do whatever it took to take care of my children. I was happy to start a new life. That however, was short lived.   

I had a next door neighbor that was a drug dealer and addict who started terrorizing us on a daily basis.   I finally decided to move and leave. I had no other choice. A house that I loved, that I thought I would live in forever.   I was hoping to give my children stability.

I then reunited with an old friend from the institution.   I was still struggling financially and in the process of opening a business with a client, when my childhood friend convinced me to go into business with her.   She said �remember what the mafia did to your mother, they will do worse to you.   And so, I did, as always hoping for a better future, put all of my trust in her.   That also, quickly, turned into another disaster with a painful ending.   All the hard work and effort and hope was now gone.   Due to what I thought, was no fault of my own. 

At this point, my ex husband quickly went on to remarry and to inherit property and have a prosperous life.   He continued showing no financial responsibility as a parent and no contact with the children.   My business partner was not stable and I was pushed out of the business I loved.   She was now reaping a tremendous benefit for something I created and labored over. Again, I was working 3 jobs, no pay in 8 weeks from one of them.   I was overburdened with responsibility. 

PART 11

 I was done.   I was finished. Finished with life.   I had no hope. I was will to accept that �he� (God) wasn�t interested in me.   I decided I would coast to stay alive and take care of the children.   I gave up after a lifetime of believing in God. I looked up at the ceiling and said, �I don�t know who you are or how you operate or what matters to you. I don�t want a God like this. �Those were my final words to him.   I was done and I meant it.   And God knew I meant it.

I went to sleep that night drained and defeated.   The next morning I woke up to go to one of my 3 jobs.   (One of which had not paid me in 8 weeks) I was in the kitchen making breakfast.   I put on the TV while cooking.   Immediately I heard the words �we are body, soul and spirit and most people never go deep enough to touch spirit, where all the power is.   I immediately froze and said I wonder if that is my problem and I�m going to try to go deeper where spirit is.   The whole day at work, I wanted to do it. But I didn�t even know what it meant.   I was consumed with it all day long, but by the time I got home and took care of my responsibilities, I didn�t get a minute to rest until about 10 pm. 

I closed my eyes, went into a place preparing to pray.   I was pushing my soul deeper, trying to reach spirit.   Instantly, I was out of my body.   I felt myself rising to another dimension, somewhere above the universe, in the navy blue sky with stars.   My first thought was, this is where I�m from.   This is my home and I knew I was home.   The next thing I heard (telepathically), was, �he knows every hair on your head, Mindy, every moment matters and where it matters is in your soul, that�s what counts.� When he said every moment matters, immediately all pain of a lifetime drained from the top of my head, started draining down and I was filled with what I can only describe as the most amazing liquid love, internally.

I was then shown images of the sun, the stars and the moon. The moon started coming towards me, closer and closure. Bigger and bigger. I started to be able to see the moons surface. I then heard the words �God is the sun, the stars and the moon. Is the moon mad at you Mindy?� I then understood that God was omnipotent and omnipresent and had much bigger things to do than be mad at me.

Then I was shown 3 Mindys. A flesh Mindy, an outline of a Mindy and a wind of Mindy.   They said the wind is your spirit, it is one with all.   For the first time in my life I knew what was meant by �we are all one.�

I was then directed to the outline of Mindy.   I noticed that it was full of some type of liquid up to the ankles and I heard in my mind, that is your soul. And it is empty to your ankles.   Because even though your actions were good, you were filled with fear and resentment.   God does not attach to fear, resentment or any negativity.   Negativity will not fill your soul, but drain your soul.   Then they told me there is another place where negativity will go.

I then saw 3 small cardboard boxes (like they were corrugated on the inside) and I saw them fall to the wayside which let me know there is another lower place in another dimension.   I then thought to myself, I had a feeling what if I go back, how will I know how not to keep being negative?   I worried, if I go back what if I cause it again?   I was told, you will know by the word.   I had no use of my ears, everything was put directly into my mind. I was directed to a silver molding floating vertically in the sky.   It appeared to have energy, like a spark or life to it.   Words started to appear near the silver molding hundreds of words on either side as I heard �you will know by the word, good words have good energy, bad words have bad energy and there is no grey area.   Your life will go in the direction of your thoughts. That is the meaning of free will here on this earth, that is the only meaning of free will and it is your responsibility to fill your soul.�

I then saw my ex husband and ex business partner friend as in body, soul and sprit. I was told �forgive them, for they know not what they do.�  And what they do is to their soul.   At some point, I remember looking around and noticing or getting the feeling come over me that there was no time or space and in fact, it�s ever increasing.   It goes on forever.   I knew that wherever I was it was very dense with people or souls, very crowded and there was much more going on than what I saw.

I was then told, �You are in the ethers�.   For a split second, I saw an image of a peaceful man in a blue turban and my impression was there are many religions and one was no better than the other. I was told to tell people about this experience.   I saw 2 faces, floating looking in each other�s eyes.   I heard them say, tell people but only eye to eye.   I follow these instructions and try to put it to use in my everyday life.

I was then shown an elderly, tall man, long legged, in boxer shorts, a man in a hospital bed floating in space.   He had white facial stubble and I was told when someone suffers at the end of their life, there is a reason and purpose. A sort of burning away of karma, although that word was never used.   And there would be a benefit on the other side.   The next thing I know, I woke up the next day.   I don�t know how long I was there. Was I there 10 minutes or 10 hours?   When I woke up I knew I was forever changed.   I was elated and floating.

At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?   No 

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  Yes    

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    the whole time

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?      More consciousness and alertness than normal   more vivid, more understanding

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   more detail more real

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   telepathic

Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?   No  

What emotions did you feel during the experience?   pure love and happiness  

Did you pass into or through a tunnel?   No  

Did you see an unearthly light?   Yes   everything I saw was unearthly but not just a light in particular

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?   I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
was being taught through telepathy and images or symbols

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)?   Uncertain   I saw 1 man in a blue turban but I don't know who he is

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?   No  

Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?   No  

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?   A clearly mystical or unearthly realm
I was in the ethers

Did time seem to speed up or slow down?   Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
there is no space and time

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?   Everything about the universe
everything was energy

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?   No

Did you come to a border or point of no return?   No

Did scenes from the future come to you?  No 

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (�life after death�)?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist?   Yes   I was told god knows every hair on your head and ever moment matters

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist?   Yes   our spirit is one with all

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life�s meaning or purpose?   Yes   forgive

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life�s difficulties, challenges, or hardships?   Yes   forgive

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love?   Yes   I was totally filled with liquid love

During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives?   Uncertain  

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?   Yes   yes that my life will go in the direction of my thoughts

What occurred during your experience included:   Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience   all new info to me

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience?   I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience   its more important to me and I think about it over and over

Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience:   I am completely different in all ways

My experience directly resulted in:   Large changes in my life

Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience?   Yes   I know God loves me

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience?   Yes   I can see through people more

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you?     every moment

Have you ever shared this experience with others?   Yes  not sure

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?   Uncertain   heard of it

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:   Experience was definitely real  

What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time:   Experience was definitely real   more real then life

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?   Yes   people cant relate to me and I cant relate to them

Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?   Yes   cant really go to church anymore

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?   No     

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?   Uncertain   somewhat but you also have the whole story