Michelle B's Experience
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Experience description:
It was strange, I never thought of it as NDE until I read some articles. Couple of things happened to me - a possible NDE and a deja vu.
I was
involved in a 'hit and run' accident. While my car was being bounced around, I
was trying to gain control of my steering wheel. The moment I gave up trying to
gain control, and my car went spinning, I suddenly had the image of myself all
drenched in blood and dead. I felt horrified and very very distressed. I
remember thinking just before that, 'gosh, this is how I am going to die!'. And
suddenly my car came to a halt, and I did the weirdest thing possible - I put my
brake on 'park'. And then it seemed like a deja vu - I remember somehow seeing
this - that I would be in a car accident, by myself, and that my car would halt
finally, and that I would very CALMLY put my brake in 'park'. I still was very
shaken, looked down at myself to see if I was covered in blood, had broken
bones, was immobilized. I was very happy and relieved and surprised to see that
I was alive, no blood, just an injured knee. I don't remember screaming AT ALL.
Was the
kind of experience difficult to express in words?
Uncertain I don't understand what it is. Especially the deja vu that was so
very clear to me. I experience a lot of that, but nothing with that much
clarity.
At the
time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
No No, but a few weeks prior, I was very down, for no reason at all. And
that day, before I left home, I was very sad, and even so sad that while
driving, just before the accident, I did not turn my radio on, something very
unusual for me.
At what
time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and
alertness?
I think the point where I thought that that was how I was going to lose my life.
How did
your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare
to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?
Normal consciousness and alertness
If your
highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different
from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:
I don't really know. Now it is all a daze to me. It was traumatizing.
Did your
vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such
as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of
solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?
Uncertain I don't know; my car was hitting the wall separating the high way,
and it seemed taller than it normally appears to be. That's all.
Did your
hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect,
such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
No
Did you
experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
Yes
What
emotions did you feel during the experience?
Horror and despair and sadness. Also some form of resignation towards
the end, although initially I was fighting very hard to stay alive.
Did you
observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that
could be verified later?
No
Did you
see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or
dimensions?
No
Did you
have any sense of altered space or time?
Yes I could see my body, as if I wasn't in it, from some other point/place at
a higher level.
Did you
have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
No
Did you
reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
Yes That I could see myself from the outside.
Did you
become aware of future events?
No
Did you
have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you
did not have prior to the experience?
No
Have
you shared this experience with others?
Yes I shared the deja vu only. They understood, as some of them do experience
it.
Did you
have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?
No
How did
you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it
happened:
Experience was definitely real I was very traumatized. It still hits me every
now and again. The thought that I could have died is un-nerving.
Were
there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or
significant to you?
It was a
miracle. I have a rosary in my car, and I know I was saved by Our Lady/Jesus. I
was very peaceful and calm when I realized I was safe.
How do
you currently view the reality of your experience:
Experience was definitely real I remember the feeling of terror -as if I
could see it on my face at that time.
Have your
relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes
Yes, people who
were there for me and who understood what I went through, are closer to my
heart. People who are insensitive to what it meant to me, how it has scarred me,
do not have the special place that they did before.
Have
your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your
experience?
Yes
I am even more
thankful to God.
Following the
experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or
substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Did the
questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and
comprehensively describe your experience?
Yes