Menatsea'h Experience
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Experience description:
Since 2003, I dreamed
from time to time about past situations, more or less close to my childhood. I
didn't write them down, but the memories of those dreams were remaining vivid,
so strongly those "reminders" seemed to be anchored in my memory.
At the very beginning
of the year 2005, while at that time being a statutory manager of some
individual enterprises, I found myself wrongly suspected of wrongdoing which was
classified as "affair of state". Immediately placed under arrest, I found myself
imprisoned in the worst prison of the country, while awaiting judgment in court,
that came only some years later. Being a practicing and obedient Christian
(Anglican) since early childhood, I couldn't find at this moment any reasonable
cause justifying this misadventure, that I considered then as a shameful
degradation of my existence, and that was leading to very dark thoughts. After
the confusion, I decided, not without some anger, to submit to the unlikely
divine entity, a fundamental question; it was in the morning of the 20th of May
2005, around 09.30 during a short moment of meditation:
"God, You who must know
my whole journey, of what acts are you accusing me, that I have to endure such
an abasement? So, if You really exist, prove it to me, otherwise I will not have
any consideration anymore about Your Reality."
Then, I went back to
read the Bible, the only literary work accepted in this place, where our cell of
5 square meters hosted 7 guys sleeping on the bare ground. The other 5 prisoners
of the room were outside walking that morning, while another one was on fatigue
duty, to cook the only daily meal for the prisoners: 175 gramme of dried manioc
per person at midday. The door of the cell stayed ajar and the other prisoners
of our area, were walking in the dark and narrow corridor.
At 12.05, a few seconds
after a fellow inmate left our cell, after a short discussion and having asked
me the time, I felt a sudden paralysis that affected my complete being, while I
was stretched out on the heap of cloth, that served me as a mattress, my Bible
in the hand. Then my sight started to become vague, unbridled, the elements:
walls, door, pavement seemed to disintegrate into an indescribable mess, while
my body was lying there, helpless unable to make the least movement, I wanted to
scream for help as I knew there were people close by, in the corridor and the
adjoining rooms, as I heard them speak louder or slower. Then I felt like a
detachment in me, something seemed to come loose from me, in a deafening
atmosphere of bird chirping; but the place where we stayed, was a fortress built
in the middle of an arid area, where normally the monotony of silence tormented
the imprisoned. And this 'thing' that came loose from me, whose form I couldn't
see, but which presence I felt, with the dull chirping that became strongest at
this moment, moved away more and more with a derisive complaint. And all this
noise dimmed as the 'thing' moved away with its derisive sound.
Still aware of my
immobility, I slowly recovered my senses, with my sight that was, little by
little, getting back to its normal 'standards'. When I finally was able to turn
my head, I sensed that my whole body was like taken in a huge tiredness, very
weak but it was recovering little by little. As soon as I got back my abilities,
my clock showed 12.11, a minute later a roommate entered the cell. Still
breathless, I hardly was listening, still dumbfounded of what happened. I
nevertheless asked him if he did hear the loud bird chirping, to what he
answered in the negative. Puzzled, I told him that I wouldn't go out, to line up
for my daily food ration. I then curled up in my corner, to try to understand
what happened. I suddenly had a strong desire to get some sleep, while at the
same time remaining very aware, I heard myself snoring. The situation was very
strange as, while my body was lying there snoring, I heard my roommate sigh:
"Hey, what a lassitude
this guy has, he even started to sleep without taking the time to listen to me!"
And from a dead angle, as my face was turned towards the wall at the moment of
my sudden sleepiness, as if I was standing in front of him, I saw his man get
up, take its mess tin, then leave the cell! I was bewildered of what happened,
the closed eyes of my head towards the wall, I could see from behind my head
through another 'pair of eyes' with perfect vision. Then another body of me got
up from the one that was snoring, I was stunned by the sight of the sleeping me.
I was also aware that all my senses had 'sublimated' in sensitivity, listening,
I heard all the noises and conversations of far ( in the courtyard 50 meters
away), or nearby (the neighboring cells and the corridor) in a precise and
distinctive manner. I also felt very well, light, in a state diametrically
opposed to the sensations of my body, during the previous experience some
minutes ago. I have no correct words to express the quality of perception of my
other senses. It's in this state of 'grace' where I still searched to understand
what happened, that my roommates came back, everybody with his mess tin in the
hand, my body still sleeping and abundantly snoring, what triggered discussions
between them, me hearing all what they were saying with incredible sharpness and
finally, when they decided to put a small part of their ration aside for me, I
wanted to talk, and reintegrated spontaneously the sleeping me, talking with my
mouth, I replied directly to my roommates, that they didn't have to do this, as
I had no desire to eat anything at all, speaking like a person wide awake, but
my head still turned towards the wall. My roommates subjugated by my sudden
intervention, accused me of pretending to sleep, for what ever reason; but to
tell the truth, I was much more subjugated then they were, in this embarrassing
situation; it was 12.27.
This state that I
experienced several times afterwards, evolved into control, and I still
sometimes re-experience it.
As the prison has no
electricity and the sun starts to set early in this period of the year, the
doors are closed at 17.30. I impatiently awaited the evening to try to make the
same experience again as during the day. After a compulsory common session of
prayer and the organization of the 'marks' (sleep zone of everybody), everybody
was trying to sleep, while still listening to one of the prisoners who was
hollering in one of the neighboring cells, telling a story in the way of radio
theater, in exchange for some pennies. At 20.00pm, finally there was
silence. Excited to retry the experience of the day, I couldn't sleep, past
midnight I heard a member of my room moaning. As I didn't have the possibility
to move, in the penumbra I just turned my head towards the moaning man, when to
my surprise, I saw a little man (about 60cm) standing there looking down at the
man, who was groaning as if he had a nightmare. What surprised me, was that this
small person didn't belong to the room, nor even to the area, the more that all
doors had been closed from outside. Then, there again, I suddenly lifted out of
my me that was lying down, to question this 'stranger', a state that surprised
me and surprised the other one, of whom I only saw the side, from my position
in the cell; he disappeared completely in a fraction of second, stupefaction in
his eyes. Immediately the moaning guy got back to deep sleep, and my 'second me'
remained there, sceptical. Shortly later, a little marble of green light, in the
way of neon lamps but much more fluorescent, entered the room through the small
barred opening that was our window. It turned three times around the room and
then left the same way. And I perceived a voice, I don't say "heard" but
"perceived" as I couldn't describe in words the sensation that I felt in that
moment, all the constituents of my being seemed to pick up and to assimilate the
frequencies or waves or particles emanated by this voice, of which I couldn't
locate the source, and that said:
"The reason of your
confinement in this place is one of the phases of your initiation, you will only
leave from here, when you will have assimilated the planned instructions, you
should know that whatever intervention from whatever high graded person, could
not change anything at the duration of your detention. So continue to read and
to go deeper into the Bible."
27 month later I was
judged innocent and was liberated. So was the beginning of a very long story
full of incredible, and really enriching and revealing experiences. Even today I
continue my initiation that has been padded by several other aspects until now;
even if I have to confess, that I started to reasonably convey those empirical
teachings acquired in adversity.
- after the experience:
back to mediocrity; a very 'limited' vision
Actually, I don't think
to be able to compare the two states.
- after the experience:
back to mediocrity; hearing became easily disrupted
In fact, I also don't
think to be able to compare those two states. All senses of the body seem to
transform in power and efficiency in their respective sensitivities, but seem to
merge into a same essence.
Several times, during
the following experiences, I appreciated the dazzle of all this extraordinary
luminosity, going from exophora to blue, pink, green, etc.
Many other 'connecting
experiences' came to enrich my knowledge, and moreover, subsequently they became
almost commonplace, ... I'm still continuing to follow my initiation courses ...
by visible or non visible teachers
Two of my close
relatives died during the period of my incarceration: my paternal grand-father
(November 2005), the elder brother of my father (June 2006). The family was
hiding those events from me in order to spare me more sadness, but I could
disclose to my visitors, the exact day of their death, as their 'parting'
spirits had come to greet me on the exact day of death.
I don't seem to enter,
I'm roaming in those worlds. 'Doors' only known to the real initiates allow free
passage from one world to others, where you can feel the bliss, while at the
same time not being disorientated.
Here an attempt of
dimensional approach : - Earth=cube of edge 12; - Dimension B= cube of edge 13;
- Dimension D= cube of edge 26, - Dimension E= cube of edge 52; etc....
Yes, and I'm right now
in full achievement of this 'destiny', this fate...
I didn't talk about
these experiences, that still continue to happen by the way, until the month of
July 2007. The acceptance of the listeners remained reserved. The idea of the
sphere where I'm dwelling unveils a deep avant-gardism.
One really has to live
it to be able to taste the unspeakable.
At the time of
your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?
No
Was the
experience difficult to express in words?
Yes
"I have no
consequent words to express the quality of perception of my other senses... I
couldn't describe in words the sensation that I felt at that moment, all the
constituents of my being seemed to pick up the frequencies or waves or
particles..."
At
what time during the experience were you at your highest level of
consciousness and alertness?
During the
separation, at the first experiences, my body 'piece of meat' was there, lying
slumped down, while my other me, awake and endowed with extraordinary faculties,
saw, heard, felt, reacted lucidly.
How did your
highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to
your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?
More consciousness and
alertness than normal
I'm using again the
terms that I used already above:" I also felt very well, light, in a state
diametrically opposed to the sensations of my body, during the previous
experience some minutes ago. I have no correct words to express the quality of
perception of my other senses."
Please compare
your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had
immediately prior to the time of the experience.
-
during the experience: a 'virtual' vision, perfect, pleasant, everywhere.
Please compare
your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had
immediately prior to the time of the experience.
-
during the experience: a hearing incredibly more developed, precise and
fantastic
Did you see or
hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your
consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?
Yes
- Besides
what I experienced and already told under paragraph two, I remember having
received, in a very conscious waking state, the instruction to open the Bible at
a precise verse. At the waking of my 'body of flesh', the version of the Bible
matching in color with the cover, being held in my hand was exactly opened at
the indicated page, while I was in the previous state. One should know, that
since my first experience, I'm using different versions of the Bible, in at
least three different languages (Malagasy, French, English,..) and that I'm not
meditating with the Bible in my hands.
What emotions
did you feel during the experience?
Very difficult to
express in words! Words that maybe could approximate this sensation are,
ecstasy, wonder, bliss, nirvana, ... impossible to describe with 'material'
words.
Did you pass
into or through a tunnel?
Yes
Yes, during
different experiences, I had the opportunity to cross tunnels and corridors,
alone or accompanied by one or several sublime 'persons'.
Did you see an
unearthly light?
Yes
- In
paragraph two, I'm telling:".. a small marble of green light, in the way of neon
lamps but much more fluorescent entered the room..."
Did you seem to
encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?
I encountered a
definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
After this first experience that I developed in paragraph two:" - And I
perceived a voice, I don't say "heard" but "perceived" as I couldn't describe in
words the sensation that I felt in that moment, all the constituents of my being
seemed to pick up and to assimilate the frequencies or waves or particles
emanated by this voice, of which I couldn't locate the source..."
Did you
encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are
described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)?
Yes The
beings of the beyond don't communicate their names and do not disclose their
naming, they content themselves to give a hint of a smile, as only answer to
this type of questioning, when I name them according to my appreciation by their
appearances, related in historical imagery, photos or other similar knowledge.
Did you
encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?
Yes
It will be
nine years now, more or less, that I started to get instructions, distilled by
persons: my father for example, deceased in March 2004, was one of the very
first of my guides in my travels in those other 'dimensions', then there were
figures like Pythagoras, Mahomet SAW, ... who are keeping their roles and
instruct according to their specializations in their respective fields of
activity, then also some sublime beings are appearing and are distilling their
knowledge within bounds. The case of Jesus will be the object of a special
narrative that I want to edit.
Did you become
aware of past events in your life during your experience?
No
Did you seem to
enter some other, unearthly world?
A clearly mystical
or unearthly realm
Did time seem to speed up or
slow down?
Everything seemed to be
happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Notion of any
kind of measure is different there, how then explain what turns out to be
inexpressible?
Did you
suddenly seem to understand everything?
Everything
about the universe
This question is awkward as the level of discernment is such, that it can't be
expressed at the level of actual science. ... empirical education, do you know
that???
Did you reach a
boundary or limiting physical structure?
Uncertain
Each dimension having its own specificities, it turns out to be impossible to
fix a priori conventional delimitations
Did you come to
a border or point of no return?
No
Did scenes from
the future come to you?
Scenes from my personal
future
Those achievements will be verified by their accomplishments, personally, nearly
one hundred percent of the foreseen revelations happened.
During your
experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting
that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (�life
after death�)?
Yes
The
understanding of the deep being of the soul: the SPIRIT, will for sure
contribute to the consideration of life after death.
During your
experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a
supreme being either does (or does not) exist?
Yes
The facts
that I told under Paragraph two, then all the experiences that followed, let me
come closer to - and confirmed me a bit more of, the comprehension of the
Supreme Being.
During your
experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you
either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime?
No
During your
experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a
mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not)
exist? Yes
Words are not
enough to express this impression, of being in unity with the visible and
invisible cosmos, starting with the tiniest particle, up to the distant
projection of thought.
During your
experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding
earthly life�s meaning or purpose?
Yes
Yes and I'm
just on the way to overcome the obstacles to achieve those purposes.
During your
experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding
earthly life�s difficulties, challenges, or hardships?
Yes
Yes and I'm
just on the way to overcome the obstacles to achieve those purposes.
During your
experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding
love?
Uncertain
The expression in the
other dimension or the other dimensions cannot be expressed by our words and
feelings.
During your
experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that
you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly
lives? Yes
The Supreme
Being is existing, without any doubt.
Did you have a
sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?
Yes
What occurred
during your experience included:
Content that was both
consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your
experience
How accurately
do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred
around the time of the experience?
I remember the
experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of
the experience
"I have no consequent
words to express the quality of perception of my other senses. It was in this
state of 'grace' where I was still searching to understand what happened.
Discuss any
changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience:
I tend more
and more to perfect the respect of physical constraints in order to be able to
evolve. I eat less and less prohibited 'food'; stopping being hypocrite towards
myself.
My experience directly resulted in:
Large changes
in my life
Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that
occurred as a result of the experience?
Yes
Yes, I even
come to actually provide a philosophy of life, following these many enriching
experiences in a moral sense of the word
Do you have any
psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did
not have before the experience?
Yes
many
premonitions, visions and understanding
Have you ever shared this experience with others?
Yes
Did you have
any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?
No
What did you
believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it
happened:
Experience was definitely real
What do you
believe about the reality of your experience at the current time:
Experience was
definitely real
There are not enough
consequent words to express my admiration of the knowledge that I acquired
during the different stages of my initiation.
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Uncertain
Many people, especially
next of kin, preferred refrain from the contact of people that suddenly, as if
touched by a 'magic wand', changed their behavior, language, philosophy of
life...
Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result
of your experience?
Yes
Yes, as
from a lazy assistant at the worship within the Anglican parish, where I was
instructed about spirituality, I became a thoughtful practicing.
At any time in
your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?
Yes
Yes, many
times I experienced other enriching events, with too many details to get them
precisely detailed here.
Did the
questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively
describe your experience?
Uncertain
The
descriptions cannot pretend being complete, as the way of expression used is
limited to this dimension here.