Melissa T's Experience
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Experience description:
I was in
the lounge room of my flat with friends, it was around lunch time. I started to
feel 'fuzzy' in the head, there was also a loud growling sound. I went upstairs
to lie down. Almost as soon as I lay down my pulse started to speed up and up, I
felt like I was about to take off, I felt quite scared as if I was going to die.
I took my pulse and it got to the point where it was so fast that I couldn't
distinguish beats and it became just one. The next
minute I know I see myself lying on the bed and I go downstairs. I now see my
flat mate Helena making scones in the kitchen and our boyfriends watching rugby
on TV, I go outside and down the path down the street. Suddenly a figure in
black appears its wearing a black cloak and I can't see its face. It calls my
name in a really familiar voice as if it was my mothers, it calls me to go to it
and I do but then I get a really strong feeling of dread, to get away, to go. I
go back inside, upstairs to the bedroom, realize I walked into my flat-mates,
Helena's bedroom by accident and go into my room. I walk over to myself and the
next minute I'm in my body but I feel extremely drained and out of sorts. I go
downstairs and Helena is making scones and the boys are watching rugby, none of
them were doing these things when I was down there with them earlier. I know
something quite profound just happened but not sure what. worst -
feeling scared of the figure in black
Any associated medications
or substances with the potential to affect the experience?
No
Was the kind of experience
difficult to express in words?
No
At the time of this
experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
No
What was your level of
consciousness and alertness during the experience?
Real, I was aware of everything,
the only thing that seemed not in 'context' was the figure in black.
Was the
experience dream like in any way?
No
Did you experience a
separation of your consciousness from your body?
Uncertain
I knew I was me, I didn't
physically see myself as I was walking around but I felt as I might normally...I
didn't feel any lighter or less solid
What emotions did you feel
during the experience?
none until I saw the black figure
and I was going towards it and then I got a feeling of dread, as if I should get
away from it
Did you hear any unusual
sounds or noises?
No, only before the experience:
the loud growling noise like a tiger, in my head
LOCATION DESCRIPTION:
Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar
religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or
amazing creatures? No
I was in my normal
surroundings, the only thing that seemed surreal was the figure in black
Did you see a light?
No
Did you meet or see any other
beings? Yes
A black figure. I didn't know
who or what it was but it felt comfortable to go towards it as it called by name
as if it were my mum. I then had a gut feeling, really strong to get away from
it and not to go to it
Did you experiment while out
of the body or in another, altered state?
Yes
I saw what my friends were up
to i.e what they were doing,during my experience, which was correct, that they
were not doing previously.
Did you observe or hear
anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be
verified later?
Yes
I came downstairs to join my
friends and saw them doing what they werent't previously, making scones and
watching rugby ( i saw the score and who was playing)
Did you notice how your 5
senses were working, and if so, how were they different?
No
Did you have any sense of
altered space or time? No
Did you have a sense of
knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
No
Did you reach a boundary or
limiting physical structure?
Yes
The figure in black blocked my
path from continuing further, it was right in the middle of the footpath.
Did you become aware of future
events? No
Were you involved in or aware
of a decision regarding your return to the body?
No
Did you have any psychic,
paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have
prior to the experience?
Yes
My intuition was and is right
all of the time, I trust it. I began to look into mystical and spiritual
matters. I started to search for my purpose,my own religion and the meaning to
life
Did you have any changes of
attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
Yes
As Above
How has the experience
affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career
choices? It was the
catalyst to where I am now and suppose to
be:physically,spiritually,mentally,emotionally
Has your life changed
specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes
It has become more productive
and positive
Have you shared this
experience with others?
Yes
Some felt the hairs on the back
of their neck stand up, some think I was dreaming.
What emotions did you
experience following your experience?
contemplative
What was the best and worst
part of your experience?
best - fuzzy feeling in my head
disappeared afterward
Is there anything else you
would like to add concerning the experience?
Out of all the reading iv'e done
noone seems to have experienced the initial symptoms?
Following the experience, have
you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which
reproduced any part of the experience?
Yes
On my first experience with
Acid I felt as if all of me physically went into my head and I dealt with all
previous traumatic issues that had occurred as a child, i felt a point of no
return, everything went black and i had to choose;live or die, i chose life and
then i saw a white or more like golden light that was small to begin with and
then grew to surround me and i laughed like i never have in my life..i felt the
most euphoric feeling in the world, i then went to sleep and slept the best i
ever had. The next day i felt that to speak was a waste as there were not enough
words to express feelings. This lasted for weeks and i made another huge leap in
consciousness.
Did
the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively
describe your experience?
Yes