I believed at the time that I was dying so I kissed my daughter who I had hidden behind me, I told her I loved her and then I said one word in my mind, an extreme plea and scream 'God'. It was a cry to him because I knew I was dying and no one could help me. In that moment I felt a presence immediately and I bared my whole self to it. The best way I can describe it is I opened up every part of myself and showed God every sin, every piece of me. Instantly I felt an immense love unlike anything I can describe. It was pure and accepting, at the same time I felt this love a bright pure white light filled all of my vision so that I could see nothing else. I felt this light envelope me and my daughter, like a hug. I felt warmth. A loving peace overcame me and for what must have been a minute or two I felt no pain. During this time all sound in the waiting area was dulled and it seemed to sound like it was put in slow motion, I could not see because of the light but I could hear sound. At once the light and peace left but the love remained lingering. I cried out and stood slowly, all vision clearing and the screams grew loud, he was still attacking people.

I tried to walk but it hurt and I collapsed in pain crying for someone to help me. I remember thinking I needed to let go, so I did I told God I was ready. In that moment a nurse suddenly stood over me and she lifted me. She walked/dragged me with my daughter beside me to the back, telling me to try to be quiet that they did not know where the man was and we had to hurry. She brought me to a doctor in a room and guarded the door.

At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes I was attacked by a stranger in a hospital waiting area. He burned me with a full pot of coffee and stabbed me with a knife. He also stabbed several other people in the waiting area. A total of 5 of us; 2 of which died, one in front of me.

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes Yes, the love and peace I experienced were so intense. I can only describe it like the love you feel for a child when they are born and your first glimpse of them. It is the love of a parent but intensified by a million and it is more pure than any earthly love.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? As soon as the hot coffee hit me, I was immediately in an extreme high alertness and I was able to turn and step slowly away from him, keeping him at a distance and guarding myself from multiple stabbing. I was able to back away from him and guard my daughter from his line of vision. I knew not to scream or alert him that I was hurting. I talked calmly to him.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal I was aware of each person in the room and what they were doing. When I was attacked I clearly saw the whole attacker, clothing, face and type of knife. I saw each of his expressions and how he moved. My senses were increased to where I could remain calm and not scream during the attack like he wanted me to.

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Colors were brighter, movements were more easily spotted. When the white light came it was not blinding but so white and pure. I have always had good vision and do not need glasses; I get regular checks each year.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. During the attack, sounds were louder than normal like they were magnified. When God came sounds sounded slowed, like they were being played by a recorder slowly. I have not had trouble with hearing at all.

Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body? Yes I heard the attack of a woman in the same room, she was lying on the ground behind a short wall, she was stabbed by the attacker and crying for someone to help her. I knew she was watching him hurt someone else as well.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Immense joy, love, peacefulness

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes It was pure white and blinding extremely hard to look directly at the center. It was whiter than snow. Sort of like trying to look at a brilliant white diamond under a microscope that has an intense sunlight blocking you from looking directly.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
I felt the presence of the Lord in the brilliant light. I also felt the physical arms and warmth of a loving earthly like hug.

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? Yes Jesus Christ. I know with absolute certainty that I met with Jesus Christ in that moment. It's sort of like knowing that you are hugging your child, even if you were blinded you would know for certain you were hugging your child regardless of how old you are.

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience? Yes All of my inner most thoughts from the past flashed before me, every sinful thing I had ever thought, said or done.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Time seemed to go faster or slower than usual
Time slowed down

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about myself or others
I understood that my sins were immense but they were forgiven.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (“life after death”)? No

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist? Yes I encountered the presence of Jesus Christ.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime? Yes I became aware that all it takes is to not just believe that Jesus Christ is real but to actually believe in what he said. Basically I suddenly understood that knowing he really was here on Earth and saved us wasn't enough. You have to actually accept him and want him to save you. You have to put your trust in him. Knowing that he is real is not enough.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist? No

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose? Yes I became aware of how easy it is not to ask God for help. It is a choice that you make in moments of death experiences. You either want God or you do not.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s difficulties, challenges, or hardships? Yes I became aware of how easy it is not to ask God for help. It is a choice that you make in moments of death experiences. You either want God or you do not.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love? Yes When God loves us it is with a pure love unlike anything that can be described. I felt this love and have searched for this feeling ever since. I did not want it to leave me.

During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives? No

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose? No

What occurred during your experience included: Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience Before this experience I believed that God does forgive sins but that there was no way God could forgive me. Basically I was willing to live as I wished because I did not think that God would ever forgive me. Now I understand that he does and I have to live a life differently for Him, not myself.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience

Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience: I have become more involved in helping others, prayer life, and believing that God exists. I stopped sinning willfully to the best of my ability. I know I cannot be sinless but I try as hard as I can to be a better person.

My experience directly resulted in: Large changes in my life

Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience? Yes Sin no longer holds me down. I believe that God can forgive us but we have to be willing to change.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I have shared this with about 4 people. Three believed me. One is doubtful and thinks it was a combination of adrenaline/shock.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes I had heard of people that talk about near death experiences, but I did not really believe there stories at all.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was definitely real Since it happened I have known for certain it was real. I have not wanted to share it at times because people tend to smile and think your crazy.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time: Experience was definitely real Since it happened I have known for certain it was real. I have not wanted to share it at times because people tend to smile and think your crazy.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? No

Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes I have a stronger faith and attend church more regularly. I believe in what the Bible says.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No