Mavis M Experience
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EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:

I had recently married my husband, who lived in Las Vegas, and left my family and friends in Chicago behind. It was not an easy adjustment. I knew no one or anything about the city, though I was able to find work. I had no emotional support, and there were early marriage issues. It was a time where I felt that no one loved me.

Returning from work to our empty Las Vegas apartment, I became deeply depressed.

I collapsed on the bed in a state of utter depression.

Suddenly, I found myself floating outside of my body and over the room. As I gradually continued to rise upward, I found myself instantly in a dark place. This darkness was unsettling. As if absent of all goodness. Pure emptiness and lack of hope overwhelming. Any and all positive emotions were missing in this environment.

How long I was in this darkness, I do not know. Time had lost it’s meaning. I couldn’t tell if I was moving or staying, though I could tell I was no longer in a body.

I then noticed a pin needle of light within this darkness.

As I noticed it, I tried to reach for it, and as I tried to reach for it, I began to get closer and closer still to this growing light. As I grew closer, I felt better.

In a flash, I was in the light. Within the light, I found myself floating down towards a pasture that had a horse pen. I always loved horses, and a man was sitting on the white picket fence, looking at the white horse.

As I floated closer towards the pen in approach of the man, I discovered it was my beloved Uncle Herman, who had died a few years earlier. At this point that I noticed that I had a body, dressed in my favorite outfit of a white sweater and white pants.

My uncle turned and smiled at me, and said 'Hi there!'

And I said 'Hi Uncle Herman!' He recognized me.

'What a beautiful horse' I said.

'He’s yours if you want him,' he replied.

'Really?!' I exclaimed.

Then a giant of a man appeared, dressed in a robe. With him, a normal sized man was behind him, flipping through the pages of a very large book very quickly.

The giant greeted me and said 'Hello, we’re happy you’re here! Is there anything you’d like to do, or see, or anyone you’d like to meet?'

I thought for a moment. ' I would like to meet my Grandmother.' She had died before I was ever conceived, but was a legend among my father’s side of the family. All I ever had of her was a photo and stories. I greatly respected her.

'Oh, she’s right over there' replied the giant, pointing towards a large city in the distance.

I immediately began running towards that city. As I began to run, within an sudden instant, I found myself at the steps of a outdoor subway station, walking up the steps.

When I reached the top of the steps, there was a long line of people, waiting their turn to board the train. The train led to a large, very bright light. The more one took mere steps towards this light, the more amazing one felt. Words cannot express.

Then, from among the crowd, I found her.

I said 'Hello!'

Her reply was, 'Hi.'

She looked at me, and I her.

'And who are you?' she asked.

'I’m your granddaughter. Your son’s Edmon’s daughter.'

And she said, 'And why are you here?'

Then the giant reappeared, with the reader along with him. This time, the reader had the large book closed.

'You have to go back,' he said.

As I was being propelled backwards I cried, 'I don’t want to go back!'

'There is someone there who loves you very much. It’s not your time.'

I pleaded loudly over and over again 'I don’t want to go back, please!' The thought of being on Earth felt like returning to dirt.

As I found myself back in my body, I found myself still crying, but this time it was different. I knew that there was more to life. I felt blessed and privileged to have experienced a little bit of heaven and know that there is a God, and life does not end with death.

At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event? No Was there

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Uncertain Somethings, such as the colors, are difficult to explain. Furthermore, though we used words, we didn't 'speak' them. It was pure thought. I can't express if my thoughts were 'speed up' as there was no time for me to say that my thoughts were 'faster' than normal. I can only say that my thoughts were extremely clear.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Yes.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal I could remember every detail. Even thirty-five years later, as I write this experience down, I can still recall every detail.

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Enhanced vision. I could 'see' everything. No need for focusing.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. There were sounds to hear. Simply thoughts.

Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body? No

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Crushing abandonment while in the dark void, which was hell to me.

Hope when I saw the dot.

Surprise, followed by happiness and pleasantry at the pasture.

At the train station however, emotions of extreme joy and love, like I was part of something bigger.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes The void was a tunnel leading me to the light.

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes It was waiting at the end of the void tunnel.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
There were no truly 'spoken' words, so I will say yes.

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? Uncertain

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes My uncle and grandmother.

Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience? No

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? Some unfamiliar and strange place
The pasture and the train station were akin to places you might find on earth. The key difference were with my senses of these places.

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
 Time simply lost its meaning.

 Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about myself or others


Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No


 Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will


Did scenes from the future come to you? No


During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (“life after death”)? Yes

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist? Yes God was within the pure light. He was the light.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime? No

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist? Yes

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose? No

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s difficulties, challenges, or hardships? No

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love? Yes When I returned, over time I discovered that there were people who loved me very much, whom I was unaware of previously.

During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives? No

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose? No

What occurred during your experience included: Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience I never knew that you could actually meet people who lived before you. I met my grandmother, who I never knew, but KNEW to recognize her when I saw her.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of th

Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience: To be truly blessed, I have to follow God's commandments.
My experience directly resulted in: Moderate changes in my life

Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience? Yes I went from agnostic to fully and firmly believing in God's existence.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? There are no racial colors in heaven. Or should I say, racial people. Everyone exists in pure love.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I shared it with my husband after a few months. He seemed like he didn't really believe me.

I've since shared it throughout the years, such as my sister, mother, strangers. Some receive and some don't, but everyone listens.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was definitely real The reality of it was giving me hope, and showed me that someone did care beyond this earth.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time: Experience was definitely real

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes I became more of a believer in God, and I learned to respect others (which I didn't), to trust others (which I didn't), and to find peace by following God's commandments.

Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes From agnostic to Christian.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I had a second experience later. That's a different story however.

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes

What could a national organization with an interest in near death experience (NDE) do that would be of interest to you? Tell the story.

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Not at this time.