Mattie A's Experience
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Experience description:
Let me clarify from the beginning that this is not an NDE, this is a massive
spiritual experience I had where I got entangled in evil spirits but God and
Jesus rescued me. My account might bear some similarities to people who have
encountered God in their NDEs. I was living in Australia at that time, a 34 year
old female who was a University student who had graduated recently. I was
finding it hard to find jobs even two years after graduation and I couldn't find
a romantic partner either. I had sunk into depression and I was looking for
something to alleviate the depression and heartache.
One of my University friends told me about a Mind, Body, Soul festival coming up
in Brisbane and I decided to attend. I was agnostic, almost atheist, but I was
so fed up of the depression I wanted to find some way to alleviate it, and I had
vague memories when I was a kid attending a reiki session, and I felt very
uplifted and full of energy afterwards, so I went with that intention. While I
was at the exhibition I wandered into a Applied Kinesiology stall hoping I could
find some answers to my future. Kinesiology apparently can give you life answers
through muscle testing. As I was sitting on the table, the head kinesiologist
suddenly walked in and said he would take the next client that would be me. I
remember feeling a strong sense that this was meant to happen, and I was fated
to meet him. I am not disclosing his name here, lets call him G. I told him I
wanted to stay on in Australia and get a job and settle here and I was looking
for love, why couldn't I find love ?
He told me to lie down on the table and G did some strange actions with his
hands and suddenly I felt very light headed and swimmy, and I found out I was
sharing my consciousness with him ! Whatever images came to my mind came to his
as well. We were sharing our consciousness ! He saw glimpses from my past and
then he ended the session telling me I have sent a guide to help you.
Immediately my warning bells went up in my head asking ' What guide ?' I never
asked for a guide but at this point I mostly disbelieved what he the folks at
this exhibition were doing and dismissed him as a charlatan - nothing would
happen to me. I left the exhibition,
and strangely after that I started feeling very upbeat and for the first time in
my life, spiritual ! I felt it was so easy to believe that God existed even
though before I was almost hardcore atheist and only believed in our physical
world.
However trouble was to start. A few days later, I suddenly felt some invisible
presence descend on me and then I noticed strange things happening to me. I
noticed weird guys on the street were veering towards me and grinning at me
liked they liked me, and worse at night I could barely sleep. Images or strange
visions started crossing my mind, and the weird thing was it was all about the
end times or the apocalypse. How monsters would be walking down the streets and
how God would change his plans and the apocalypse would be prevented. These
visions didn't make sense to me at all because I was never religious and never
believed nor cared about the apocalypse. I always felt like I was starving and
running out of energy so I started eating a lot more during this time. Night
after night every time I would almost fall asleep some vision of a monster or
demon would wake me up and I simply couldn't sleep. I was getting exhausted and
sick. And very, very tired.
I found myself wandering the city a few days later and I just felt drawn to
enter churches. I wandered from one church to another in the city, sitting for a
while, hoping to alleviate the sickness I felt. Finally I entered a church close
to my University, a Roman Catholic church which I used to attend rarely because
even though I was agnostic, I really liked the sermons of the priest in that
church - it touched me even though I barely believed. He was gentle and
philosophical and broad-minded, not judgmental at all. I wandered in and sat
alone there. And then the most wonderful and oddest thing happened. My soul
asked a specific question - It asked God - We all fell from grace to live on
earth together, why cant all people go to heaven together ? After all we are one
big human family, brothers and sisters ? Suddenly I felt a burning sensation of
a spirit descending into me. I got afraid and left the church.
Then I heard a voice next to me say ' I will walk with you'. I remember this was
a voice one has to listen to, a voice of authority. And then I felt the presence
of other beings or spirits around me. The voice of authority asked ' Why did she
get up and leave the church?' And a voice replied back - she is afraid of demons
! Who are these voices ? What is going on ? Who are these presences I'm feeling
? But I felt compelled to go back to church and talk to the voice of authority.
I went back in and once again asked my question. I felt the burning sensation
descend into me gain but much more gently now, so as not to frighten me. And the
voice of authority replied Only the righteous go to heaven. Not everyone. But I
told him there is love in the world, despite all the evil there is still plenty
of good ! And then the darkness overcame me and I felt sad like God had
abandoned humanity. But the voice of authority quickly reassured me that was not
the case and God was very well aware of the love that existed, God will never
leave us nor forsake us. With that answer I was satisfied, and left the church.
I had to go meet a friend for dinner so walked to the bus stop in the twilight.
Strangely I could still feel the presence of these spirits with me. As I walked
down the lonely street I became aware that a tiny dot of white light was
floating just above the crown of my head. I was sitting alone on the bus stop at
dusk and every person who walked past the bust stop would glance up at the tiny
dot of light shining above my head. It seemed to flicker in and out of view. I
met my friend (lets call her Sarah) in the city and at dinner I asked if I could
come over and sleep at her place. I didn't feel like returning back to my room
where I couldn't sleep. I just told her my housemates were having a party and I
wanted to rest. She happily let me sleep over. She too glanced above my head
once in a while like she too could see the light dot from time to time.
I went over to her house that night and slept in her bed but I still couldn't
sleep. Something like a spirit presence was trying to attack me and enter me and
take me over. It was horrible. But the voice of authority was also there and
told me ' you have been infected. The kinesiologist has infected you with evil
spirits.' What !!! So that was what was going on ! Who was this voice that was
trying to help me ? Well this voice came to me in church so it had to be Jesus !
Then I swelled up with determination, no evil spirits are going to take me ! If
God and Jesus exist, I'm on the side of God and Jesus. Then I heard a knock on
the door of my heart and I said 'come in'. Then the voice said, get out of bed
and go to the bathroom. The evil spirits were probably swarming around the bed
right now and I had to leave. I entered the bathroom and collapsed on the toilet
and I surrendered everything to Jesus, let him cast out evil and take me over !
And miraculously it was done ! My mind cleared immediately of all the bad
visions and demons and the attacking feeling was gone and I was left at peace.
I nearly fell asleep after that on the toilet ! But Sarah woke up and saw I was
in the toilet a long time and got worried about me. She knocked on the door and
asked me to get out. I left immediately and we went to have tea in the living
room. Poor thing got a fright and asked me what's wrong but I couldn't tell her.
I was so overwhelmed myself. She told me it is not good to stay on in Australia
with no job and depression getting the better of me and told me its best to
leave Australia and go back to India where my parents were and stay with them
for some time. I thought that was very good advice, considering everything plus
my awful encounter with evil spirits in Australia ! After tea we went back to
bed, and as I closed my eyes I suddenly felt through consciousness I was
connected to another spiritual realm. And I found myself wondering, who was that
voice of authority ? who could it be who rescued me ? And the question that came
back was: well who do you think it was ? Well my answer was it had to be Jesus
because I encountered that voice in church ! Immediately my mind went black and
I felt the presence of Jesus accompanied by someone else ( I believe later this
was John the Baptist who is a witness to every person saved by Jesus), and the
first question they asked me was Why aren't you Christian ? Sadly I couldn't
answer that question very well, and I heard a voice, my higher self I came to
later find out, say Here take my records ! Jesus and John the Baptist flooded my
heart with love and flipped through my life records in a second. Information is
instantly downloaded in the spiritual realm !
Then here comes the interesting thing, Jesus said I had past lives,
reincarnation is real, and sin from my past lives was affecting salvation in my
present life. My souls purpose in this life time was to figure out salvation and
break the cycle of reincarnation, and my higher self figured by being Christian
she would achieve that in this life time. But sadly my whole life I was brought
up by very down to earth agnostic parents and I barely did anything spiritual in
my life like going to church or praying. Yet that mustard seed of faith was in
me that was enough (with a bit of adventure) to get me salvation. The next night
I slept in my room and I got visions of Jesus visiting me and showing me
glimpses of paradise. I saw the many levels of heaven and I saw the mansions
Jesus was preparing for his followers, a home for us to rest. I saw many people
already in paradise who recognized me and loved me but I didn't recognize them.
Everything was bathed in a pinkish red light which symbolized that paradise was
bought for humans by Jesus' blood.
And finally I met God, He appeared as an orb of white light at first and I was a
bit disappointed I didn't get a chance to walk with him. God never reveals his
true face; he always shrouds himself in light. The next time I had a vision of
Paradise God appeared like an old man with a long white beard and flowing robes
(an image I was comfortable with as I always imagined God like that as a kid)
and I walked hand in hand with him and I asked the same questions I asked Jesus
in church - why can't all humans go to heaven, we all fell together, lets go
home together ! But He also replied only the righteous go to paradise. The
righteous I know now are those who believe in salvation through Jesus. And then
the vision disappeared. God spoke to me a few times after that, He woke me up at
2 or 3 am in the morning and it was always like a burst of light and love on my
consciousness, like the divine essence of God touches the essence of my soul and
there was a connection. He told me He will give me his purposes to follow in
life and asked me to teach in Sunday School (which I now do). I am now a
faithful Christian and follower of Jesus and God, after all Jesus cast out evil
spirits and made me whole and healthy again ! I am forever grateful and thankful
to them and share their message and gospel wherever I can.
At the time
of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?
Uncertain
Possessed by evil spirits who didn't want
me to live
Was the experience
difficult to express in words?
Yes
So many things were happening at the same
time in my consciousness, it was difficult to sift out
At what time during the
experience were you at your highest level of
consciousness and alertness? After the evil
spirits were cleared out of my consciousness
How did your highest level
of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal
everyday consciousness and alertness?
More
consciousness and alertness than normal
So much more clearer and sharper
Please
compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had
immediately prior to the time of the experience.
The colors in paradise were brighter, everything was rich and infused
Please
compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had
immediately prior to the time of the experience.
Nothing, God and Jesus spoke to me through
consciousness
Did you see
or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your
consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?
No
What emotions did you feel
during the experience?
Distressed at the evil spirits but elated to meet
God and Jesus
Did you pass into or
through a tunnel?
No
Did you see an unearthly
light?
No
Did
you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable
voice?
I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly
of mystical or unearthly origin
I met God and Jesus who spoke to me
Did you encounter or
become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by
name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)?
Yes
Jesus as described above
Did
you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?
Yes
Jesus as described above
Did
you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?
Yes
They showed me my past lives up to 3 of my
past lives and I did some good and some bad which was affecting my present life.
Did
you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?
A clearly mystical or unearthly realm
Paradise
Did time seem
to speed up or slow down?
No
Did
you suddenly seem to understand everything?
No
Did you reach a boundary
or limiting physical structure?
No
Did
you come to a border or point of no return?
No
Did scenes from the
future come to you?
Scenes from my personal future
Flashes of my future to give me hope
During
your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly
life (“life after death”)?
Yes
As described above
During
your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God
or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist?
Yes
As described above
During
your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you
either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime?
Yes
Reincarnation is real I had past lives,
saw 3 of my past lives and flashes from them both good and bad
During
your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a
mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist?
Yes
As described above
During your experience,
did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s
meaning or purpose?
Yes
Some flashes into my future, future
visions that's all, no information
During your experience,
did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s
difficulties, challenges, or hardships?
Uncertain
Some flashes into my future, future visions that's all, no information
During your experience,
did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love?
Yes
Jesus and John the Baptist flooded my
heart with love
During your experience,
did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not
shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives?
No
Did you have a sense of
knowing special knowledge or purpose?
No
What occurred during your
experience included:
Content that was both consistent and not consistent
with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
As described above
How accurately do you
remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around
the time of the experience?
I remember the experience as accurately as other
life events that occurred around the time of the experience
My
experience directly resulted in:
Large changes in my life
Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that
occurred as a result of the experience?
Yes
Before I was agnostic, now I'm Christian
Do you
have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that
you did not have before the experience?
Yes
I am connected to the spiritual realm ,I
see Jesus visiting his believers in church or bible study in the form of a dot
of white light above the crown of believer's heads
Have you ever shared this experience with others?
Yes
No one believed me sadly
Did you have any knowledge
of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?
Yes
I read Anita Moorjanis book
What did you believe about
the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:
Experience was definitely real
What do you believe about
the reality of your experience at the current time:
Experience was definitely real
Have your relationships
changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Uncertain
Don't know
Have your religious
beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes
Before I was agnostic now I'm Christian
At
any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Did
the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and
comprehensively describe your experience?
Yes