Experience description:
I
had spent the night at my boyfriend's flat and had woken up early while he was
still sleeping. I saw that it was a beautiful morning outside, the sun had just
come up, so I decided to walk home to my flat rather than sitting around waiting
for him to wake up, or disturb him.
As
I was walking through the morning streets I felt very happy and content. The
sunlight was still soft, the air was fresh, people were starting their day. I
walked and watched and enjoyed the scene.
Suddenly it was as if my heart exploded. I felt so much love welling up in me,
love not directed at anyone or anything in particular. Just love rising in me
and pouring out of me towards everything. As I walked on, rejoicing in this
wonderful feeling of love, it spread and was just everywhere. My surroundings
seemed to have a rose colored tint to it, it was absolutely beautiful. (This
happened without any drugs or medications whatsoever in my system!) Everything
was full of love, was enveloped by it, penetrated by it, in fact everything
really WAS love. It was an absolutely splendid feeling! I understood that love
is the 'stuff' everything and everybody is made of, it is the deepest truth, and
that everything is good and safe because of it.
The
experience lasted about 10 minutes and then slowly faded and left me a little
bit sad but also very happy and joyous.
Any associated medications or
substances with the potential to affect the experience?
No
Was the kind of experience
difficult to express in words?
Uncertain Some parts were hard because there
is no word to describe this love completely.
At the time of this experience, was
there an associated life threatening event?
No
What was your level of
consciousness and alertness during the experience?
normal
Was the experience dream like in any way?
No
Did you experience a separation of
your consciousness from your body?
No
What emotions did you feel during
the experience?
joy, wonder,
peace
Did you hear any unusual sounds or
noises?
No
LOCATION DESCRIPTION:
Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar
religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or
amazing creatures?
No
Did you see a light?
Yes
My surroundings had a soft, pink-ish, rose
colored tint to it.
Did you meet or see any other
beings?
No
Did you experiment while out of the
body or in another, altered state?
No
Did you observe or hear anything
regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?
No
Did you notice how your 5 senses
were working, and if so, how were they different?
No
Did you have any sense of altered
space or time?
No
Did you have a sense of knowing,
special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
Yes
It became clear to me that love is at the
core of our existence, it's the energy beneath and within everything and
everybody, always.
Did you reach a boundary or
limiting physical structure?
No
Did you become aware of future
events?
No
Were you involved in or aware of a
decision regarding your return to the body?
No
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts
following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?
Uncertain I
sometimes have psychic abilities, I sometimes just know things, I dream things,
I also had dream visitations by my deceased father and friends, but I don't know
whether these events were a result of this particular experience.
Did you have any changes of
attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
Uncertain Not a change but I felt validated
on a deep level, and the experience helped me to trust more in love.
How has the experience affected
your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?
A few months after this
experience I found a spiritual teacher who introduced me to meditation and has
guided me for many years to this day. I was not consciously looking for such a
teacher but 'happened' to come across him one day and immediately knew that I
had been looking for him without realizing it. It was a feeling as if I knew him
already. I believe that the experience of love guided me unconsciously to him.
Without him and his help my life would have been much different, and I believe I
would have been much more lost without his support regarding my spiritual
development.
Has your life changed specifically
as a result of your experience?
Yes As described above, I believe the
experience set something in me in motion and my spiritual journey began that day
even though I wasn't aware of it at the time. I believe this love is my hidden
driving force, and it showed its glorious face to me that day.
Have you shared this experience
with others?
Uncertain I can't remember, it was long ago.
I probably shared it with others who were also meditating and open to such
experiences.
What emotions did you experience
following your experience?
Great joy,
wonder, validation
What was the best and worst part of
your experience?
The best was
when love was everywhere and in everybody and everything. There was no worst
part.
Following the experience, have you
had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced
any part of the experience?
Yes Yes many times during
meditations I have felt that love and joy again, but more subtly.
Did the questions asked and
information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your
experience?
Yes As accurately as I could! It's not
easy as words are so very limited.