Marion H's Experience
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Experience description: 

My best friend had discussed suicide with me on several occasions. We had many arguments over this. I believed that someday he would take his life. We also discussed communicating with one another afterwards. We both knew if it was possible to do so, we could. He knew I believed in progressive reincarnation, power of prayer and my faith in "Oneness". We made it simple. I was to ask if he was "OK" and if we communicated to never call on him again because he did not want reminders of "Living".

After his funeral, and all guests were gone, I sat on my sofa ( about 3 or 4 pm) and shut my eyes.

It was very bright in my living room so I covered my eyes with the palms of my hands. I went in search of any traces, visions or anything to let me know I was on the path. At first, I saw some illusions of dark gray beings (???) and had the feeling they were trying to stop me or get in my way. Finally I said aloud to get out of my way. Instantly they would vanish only to come back. I went through that about 3 times. Then, I was seeing my hedges and yard as if I was floating and looking down at them. It seemed I was about 5 feet above ground. I seemed to hover over my yard and then my house. I was fully awake. I even laughed out loud because I knew I was on my way. The earth seemed to be a rust color. I saw large city freeway system with overpasses and all the exits and roads. I saw cars and tractor trailers. They looked like matchbox size. Traffic was moving and very busy like after work. Then I looked up and was being propelled. It was first gray then very dark. I was in a tunnel with motion. It seemed the tunnel had grooves and moving very fast around me as I was going higher.

After awhile, I saw bluish white light in the very far off distance. It seemed to be one light. The closer I got to the light, I realized it was lots of lights. I was not scared and wanted to keep moving towards them. I felt very comforted. I also had the feeling of being guided. In the darkness with all the lights, I saw another single light form in the far off distance and instantly I had the feeling this was the light I was searching for. I got closer and then I stopped. I said " Wayne " and watched the light move slowly towards me. I said " is that you Wayne?" The Light seemed to open up a little (like a star) and ray of Light came out of both sides. Again, I asked if it was Wayne and told him who I was. The Light opened so bright and out the sides I knew without a doubt I was in the presence of my friend. I asked the question we had decided on. Are you ok and the Light flooded all around me. Light was all I saw and felt. I was so excited to be there I was selfish and asked again. Are you Ok? The same thing happened. LIGHT. After a couple of seconds, the Light seemed to start moving away from me. I yelled, " Wayne, I love you! Teasingly I said "show me again" and laughed a like we did so many times with one another. All of a sudden (as his Light moved away) there were millions of lights opening up and out the sides that the universe looked like a fireworks show. I knew I had to leave him. I was  so blessed to have been there. I was in THE LIGHT.

My return was quick. I felt very special. I was different in some ways because of it. I felt relief for my friend because he was finally at peace. I felt lighter and happier. I was awake and never had been to sleep. It felt quick but the clock showed 40 minutes had passed.

I never called on him again. One night, right after laying down, I saw those shadow looking things again. I laughed out loud and told them to go away. Just like before, they scattered. When they did, I was bathed in a million twinkling lights. It was brief. I knew Wayne had come to say goodbye to me.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     No      


Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes     only hard to describe how beautiful the lights were.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          No      

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?           I was wide awake and very alert the whole time.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   It was not dream like in any way.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     No      

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Happy, Love, Relief, Loved, Pure Joy, Proud

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           Whooshing sounds

LOCATION DESCRIPTION:  Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?    No           

Did you see a light?           Yes     Saw many Lights but also saw One Light. I knew that all Lights were ONE.

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes     I knew that a Light was my friend. His Light was among lots of Lights which were part of ONE LIGHT.

As I started the journey there were the grayish or brownish illusions that seemed to want me to stop. Not scary. Did not know what they were. They were not at all evil in any way.

Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state? Yes    

my purpose was to check on my friend.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No      

Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different?          Yes            more in tune with my senses. I realized I had a sixth sense. Intuition and to trust it.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes     More time had gone by than I thought

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Yes     I had a sense of knowing. I know without a doubt that my intuition is keen

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?       No      

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?
   Yes     I feel or hear subtle suggestion. I want to call it intuition but not sure. I was planning a trip with my Mother and Sister. One day I was sitting on my porch just watching the leaves blow across the street when I said aloud " Ok, I won't go". I went in and called my Sister and said I am not going. I told her my experience and she said " that's good enough for me" My mom said the same. I pay closer attention to the "feeling" It seems to feel like a very slight nudge.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes     I believe that Attitude plays a larger role in my life now. Health is better and the only explanation is my Attitude.

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?       I realized how tiny I am in the scheme of things. It is not about me. I never ask myself why me...

I was not in a healthy relationship when this happened. The experience helped me to face the fact that my life should not have obstacles to my spiritual growth. I do not have the negativity around me that I once did. My daily life has much more solitude.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Yes     Not afraid of losing loved ones or to die. I don't want to experience either one but my fear factor has changed.

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     Only to a select few. Not sure how or if they were influenced. The reaction was ok. The few that were told, know me and that I believed it to be true.

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  Peaceful

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      The best was everything about my experience. Knowing my friend was at peace. There was not a worst part.

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        Nothing seemed to surprise me during the experience. That surprised me.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No      

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes     You provided a good format to explain my experience.

Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.    I would have liked a place to explain religious background other than the 3 choices given. I may not understand the 3 choices but none seemed to describe me. I think if I had a place to describe myself, my answers would have had more meaning